Tomorrow...

 

Tomorrow is the midterm election.  How will this go?  Who knows?  I've done what I can.  Now, it's up to  Oklahomans & Americans to remind us how awful they can be.  Midterms are always stupid pendulum swings by impatient, impractical people who didn't get their way day 1.  Elections always show us how willing people are to vote against their own best interest, just so they can scream at someone else.  The American political system only serves to show the indulgence, ignorance, hate & greed of the people living here.

I don't have high hopes.  I never do when people are involved.  I'd love it if they surprised  me, but let's be realistic.  

Cya... 

Fall Back...

 

The clock rolled back last night.  It's alright at the  moment, but I'm going to hate this come 5PM.  For all  those who like this time of the year, I hope you enjoy it.  The rest of us will be dealing with the crap darkness for the next several months.  But, by all means, you do you.  Then gripe at us for not liking your dreary side of the year.  No holidays are worth the BS of Fall & Winter.

Cya...

A Little...

 

We had storms throughout last evening.  They poured  2"+ on us.  November's rain totals are already over halfway met.  I felt like crap during the storms, but I think they cleared the air some.  My breathing seems a bit better this morning. 

Tonight we set the clocks back.  Great more darkness.  We finished house bills yesterday.  Tuesday is the election.  Later in the month I have an appointment with my primary care.  Of course there's the holiday.  That's the month so far.

Take care.

Cya...

1st November Friday...

 

It's the 1st of the month, we'll finish house bills today.  I've not been feeling that well.  The weather & such has left me with constant sinus issues.  They're giving  me low grade fevers which are tiring.  I slept weird last night & got too hot, probably a fever.  Going to have to shower early this morning.  I'm feeling grimy from sleeping.  

We have some errands & shopping to do.   Then it'll be in for the day.  There are supposed to be storms.  I  hope we don't get hit hard.  We don't need that.

Take care.

Cya...

Changes In...

 

There have been a lot of changes in the treatment of HIV.   In the beginning, there wasn't even a test, let alone  treatment.  Slowly meds were introduced, some like AZT came from previous research for conditions such as cancer.  Some like AZT, also proved to be   problematic & toxic.  Early on, doctors thought holding off on meds was the best approach.  Given the issues with the meds, maybe it was.  Unfortunately this allowed the virus to advance & cause damage.

Slowly, with better testing & medications, treatment  shifted forward.  Eventually, it was deemed best to start treatment at diagnosis.  With better timing & meds, people with HIV today will have a chance to live a much healthier life than their predecessors.  

That doesn't mean this is resolved.  HIV meds are still hard on a body.  Even more so, they're outrageously expensive.   The Triumeq I take cost ranges from 3 - 4.5K depending on the seller.  Yes, there are discounts, but that only drops the price to the low 3K range.  That's not counting cost for other meds, appointments with doctors/specialist, lab work, etc... All of that is easily putting the monthly bill for HIV treatment over 4K.  While no longer a death sentence  for most people, their lives will never be the same in any fashion.   HIV is still all consuming.

Cya...

Oh Well...

 

I didn't have high hopes for anything, but I thought maybe I could get a single good day to start the month.  I'm not sure why I had such expectations, I don't get those things anymore.  November started off with carry over BS, things breaking, needs for my attention to do things & people in poor, snappy moods.  

I just needed a day without crap, especially new crap, even if it was potentially a good thing.  I just needed a day.  I'm back to dreading mornings.  I have no idea what's lurking out there.  What's going to break, need something or snap.  This has been going on for a long time now.  I'm just about to retreat to my room, close the door & not come out.  Let everything & everyone else fix their own shit.  I can barely handle mine, some times, not even that. 

My rant is over for a bit, but the crap will keep coming.  Oh well, a good month would've been nice.  I guess that's why I didn't get it.

Cya...

Hello November...

 

Hello November, you've finally got here, the penultimate month.  All I need is a month not full of  stress, issues, expenses & drama.  There's already an election going  on, so that's issue #1 & the holiday is the next on the list.  Still, maybe this can be a decent  month.  I don't need fireworks, just some simple pleasantries.  No month gets to stay.   But try not to be yet another month we slam the door behind.

Cya...