Maybe Over...

Called Human Services to check & see why it was taking so long to hear about my benefits renewal.  According to the person I spoke to, I've been renewed.   I'm not sure why I haven't been contacted via mail or phone, but oh well.  

I'm still not over it yet.  Until I see a letter stating it or I see everything is still working next month, this could all still screw up somehow.    This is still somewhat stressful.

Hopefully, they'll send a notification letter soon.  I really don't need this crap.  I've been dealing with this since March 18 or 19th.  Why prolong this mess?  Because they can & they like to know people are miserable.

Cya...

Sorta Good Friday...

I'm not the religious type, but this is "Good Friday".  I'm not sure just how good of a day it is, let alone how good a Friday it is.  However, I will try to list ten things that are good about today.

1. I'm not in an alarming amount of pain, just slight achiness brought on by the weather.
2. My intestinal system has yet to declare war on me today.
3. The tree that got blown down by the storm is in a neighbor's yard, not mine.
4. The cats have yet to destroy anything today.
5. The never ending wind hasn't blown in any airborne simians or falling houses.
6. Walmart was not a total hell today.
7. The house & cars are in relatively good working order.
8. The pollen levels in my area are at a moderate level & a not OMFG!!! level.
9. My paperwork seems to have been approved from Human Services.
10. I don't have to anything else today that I don't want to.

There is my list of "good" things for this Friday.  Hope you're having a great Friday.

I just can't resist the urge to be slightly perverse...

Limbo

I've been a little frantic lately while I tried to get things from Social Security to turn into Human services.  I was even getting to be a bit apologetic about it, but my roomie pointed out that I shouldn't have been making apologies for anything.  For any of you not in my situation, you really can't understand the stress of the renewal process.

Every year I have to renew my applications for state disability, medicaid & food stamps (SNAP) & at any time any one of these applications could screw up & leave me in a really bad place.  My medical bills & medications are huge, the state disability just barely covers my dental insurance & the $ from SNAP means I eat.

This isn't like in college, where if my financial aid application screwed up, I could survive long enough to get it fixed.   There is no surviving a screw up of this magnitude for me.  I don't have the $1,500+ a month for medical & medication.  I don't have an extra  $45+ to cover the dental. I certainly don't have the extra $150 to cover food.  This $ is my entire means of sustenance & survival.  So, yes I get nervous when it could get screwed with for any reason.

As for all those people who think that these programs should be cut, or even eliminated, I sincerely hope that you never find yourself in a place to need them.  The process of getting declared disabled was hellish & it determined whether or not I could qualify for all the state programs.  I worked for years, but most of the work I did was through the universities I attended.  They never paid in on the social security & I didn't qualified for enough credits to get on Medicare.  I was working real jobs on these campuses, not just work study.  

If there is a way for the government to screw you over & make things harder, it will find the way.  Nothing with the government is ever easy or pleasant.  The workers act as if you are trying to steal their personal $.  They make food stamp applicants feel like worthless crap & heaven help you if you have to apply for Medicaid.   You can just forget medical assistance from the state unless you've been declared disabled, then they only do it grudgingly.  

I am now back to that time of year when social workers get to have their jollies at my expense.  I realize that a lot of people try to scam the system, but I shouldn't have to pay for their issues.  These social workers should be forced to rotate to new jobs every couple of years to avoid some of their burn out & crappy attitude.

Monday, I'll turn all the paper work in & wait & hope.  If all goes well, I'll see a social worker within a month & maybe, just maybe, she'll be in a good mood & all will go well.

Hope you guys have a good day.

OMG

Found this pic at Sodahead & it totally fits the way I feel.  Apparently the short bus got to the Social Security office early today.  I actually got my forms in the mail.  I count myself lucky for this one, cause I told myself if the form didn't arrive today I was going to have to go down there & wait for it to be handed directly to me.  A simple enough thing.  So simple, it might've only kept me there waiting for an hour or two.

I know I've been ranting about this for days, but it's been a pain.  Now I'll have to go make copies of everything & then on Monday go down to Human Services & hope they don't screw me over while I drop these things off.  I hate going to or dealing with any government office, it's always a major pain.

I know this is becoming a bore, so I'll let it go.  Here's hoping you don't have any run-ins with government types anytime soon.

Still Waiting

I am still waiting here in Limbo for the folks at the Social Security office to send  me the papers I need to send to the people at Human Services.  OK, I already don't play well with others.  Now I have someone turning something perfectly simple liking mailing a letter that's been requested twice, into an herculean task.

This thing has put part of my life on hold & quite frankly is adding far more stress than it should.  All I needed was for one little bureaucrat to push a send button.  Apparently that was way too much to ask of those people.   Apparently the short bus is the main means of employee transport to the Social Security office.

The problem is that there is a limit to how much I can do to facilitate this matter.  If you push too hard these people get pissed & might well sabotage your request.  That'd be just great to add their intentional screwing up to their already crappy performance.  If these people ever really tried, they'd probably blow up the world.

Oh well, my rant is over for now.  Hopefully it'll get here tomorrow.  

Have a good day everyone.