Rough Mornings...

 

I've been trying to get better sleep.  I think I actually am, it's just not doing any good.  It's a bright morning & I woke up well enough at 1st.  I didn't jolt or anything.  For a bit I'm fine & then I'm not.  I'm just lowkey anxious, irritated & overwhelmed.  

Things haven't been that great for me.  It's be a lot of going.  Now, it seems like I'm going to lose some things.  There's a sense of something.  Dread's too strong a word, but something unpleasant is headed my way & I'm not going to be able to avoid it.

I'm tired of losing, confrontations, stress, illness, feeling so spent, etc...  I'm really over sounding like a sound-bite.  That's my life, suck on repeat.  There is no better, it's only downhill.  Everytime I think there may be something else, I'm shown how wrong I was.

That's my meh post for this morning.

Cya..

Letting Go....

 

We're almost 100 days into 2026.  It was OK for a bit. But since then, I feel like I've just been sinking & getting mired in things around me.  I haven't felt well & things just keep going by & adding on.  

I don't have much for distractions or simple pleasures left in my life.  The main 1 had has gotten to the point of not being maintainable.  2  years ago, it was half the price & lasted about a month.  Now, with the price doubled it's going by way too fast.  Another thing, I'll let go of.  That's getting close to the end of things.   I guess this what they mean by not being able to have nice things.

I'll try to look at it in a way that I'm saving money & calories.  Still, it wasn't something I wanted to do.  But, there it is.  Another thing gone.  I'm done.

Not a good morning.

Cya...

Nothing New, Just Repeat...

Spring is supposed to be about renewal.  I'm not seeing that.  It's all just the same old, same old & sliding into worse.  To be supportive, I have to let myself believe something isn't just possible, but at least somewhat feasible.  The same patterns have played out again & now the slide has happened.  It's nothing new & I can only focus on myself for being complicit by trying to be encouraging.   That's on me.  

It's a couple of steps forward & then years backward.  I just need to accept, this is the best it's going to be & things probably only get worse from here out.  I'm not angry at anyone but myself, just a little disappointed.  

So much for happy renewal.   It's just the same muddy, BS trenches.  I should've known.

Cya...

It's Easter

 

Ostara has passed & Easter is here.  It's sunny this morning.  It doesn't look like there'll be much of that this month.  There's a 10 day steak where it could rain or storm.   The rain is needed, but I need the light.  

I'm sleeping better & waking hasn't been jolty.  Still, I'm still tired & needing everything to line up so I can get more rest.  Maybe a bit more of this & I won't feel so spent.

Happy Easter, good hunting.

Cya...

Stormy Morning...

 

It's been storming all night.  It's not been too bad, but there's been a lot of rain.  The Weather Channel has us over 2.5".  We need rain.  It'd be nice to make up for the deficit that's been running since January.

There isn't anything else happening here.  I'm fine with that.  We need some down time.  This is it, take care.

Cya...

More Needed...

 

It's going to be a colder, stormier weekend.  We need the rain, but not the storms or darkness.   We've been short on rainfall this year.  

I managed to get a decent night's sleep.  It wasn't enough.  I'm still worn out.  A single night isn't going to cut it.  It doesn't help this morning is hazy, windy & pollen ridden.

It's the 1st of the month & bills must be handled.  Then we'll go be shopping, check mail & hopefully home.  I've had enough outings for a bit.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

It Begins...

 

The yard work of 2026 has begun.  April 1 was the 1st mowing & spraying.  There'll be more of both.  It rained last night, so it'll be a bit before I can handle bugs & any plant stuff that needs hauled to the curb.  

I was already not feeling good.  Add weed spray, mowing, pollen, wind, etc... & I'm pretty done in for the moment.  I'll get over it, but it's going to take a bit.   

That's all for now, hopefully no more early runs for a bit.  I need the sleep.  Take care.

Cya...