Pointless...

 

If I could rewrite this story, I'd end it on the night I graduated with my doctorate.   That was the last high point I had & even that wasn't great.  I knew I didn't have anything lined up after.  It's been downhill since & that was decades ago.  If I'd died then, there would've been some accomplishment,  acknowledgement.  It wouldn't have devolved into the crapfest of failure it became.  

I'd definitely ended it before I moved here.   That was a horrible decision.   I wouldn't have made it into the 2000's & got diagnosed.  At every point that there's been some sign of possibility the door has always closed; sometimes slowly, others slammed. 

The people of this state slammed another door last night.  They voted to keep the lowest possible minimum wage.  If I could, I'd move, but that's not really an option.  I'm pretty sure I won't be changing locations until I die.   The entire state's a trap.

To every asshat that voted against helping others make a decent living, your malignant selves are destroying the thing you say you love.  Talk about an abusive relationship.

Cya...

FDA, Gilead, Yeztugo Again...

 

This article notes the FDA is allowing Gilead to proceed with an investigation into prescribing Yeztugo as a weekly, oral PrEP med.  It's already approved as a bridge between normal PrEP medications & the long acting, injection of Yeztugo or lenacapavir. 

If successful, it will be another option for prevention.  Some people may want or not tolerate the long acting injections for PrEP.  For them, oral meds may remain the better option.  Still, weekly means 52 doses not 365.   That's over 300 less pills & chances to miss the dose.

This was a good article, give it a read.  Take care.

Cya...

Little Green Felt Was Wrong...

 

A notable Yoda quote is, “No! Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try.”  The implied meaning is that saying you'll try is creating a built-in plan for accepting failing as an outcome.  I get what is meant here, but I still call BS.  There are people that go into things with everything intent on "doing" but don't succeed.  They're efforts ended in failure & they will have to decide whether of not to "try" again.    

Like it or not, failure is always an option.  No matter how much plan, how hard you push, how much you want; you can still fail.  That isn't, "do not."  That's a failed attempt.

I find this approach almost as awful as being toxically positive.  There's a near aggressive mindset to this philosophy, that if you fail it's always on you.  You didn't push hard enough, plan well, believe, have faith, cross your fingers or some other nonsense.  Sometimes you fail no matter what.  They say what comes next is the important part.  But sometimes there's just not enough left to push again.

I never liked that muppet.

Cya...

More Rain Dumped...

 

It poured over an inch more rain last night.  We're near, if not over double the monthly rainfall.  That left this morning dark & hazy.  I doubt there will be any sunlight today, just a harsh glare through the clouds.  Upside to this, is the temperature should be lower.

Not much going on here.  I've somehow hurt my left hand.  It was sore most of yesterday.  It's still a little sore this morning.  Hopefully, this will calm down.   I really don't need another health issue.

That's it for this morning.  Take care.

Cya...

Hazy Meh...

 

Another June is being wasted by damned clouds & storms.  This morning has been aggressively hazy.  The neighbors were loud this morning & the humidity is still high.  It's supposed to storm more tonight.  Like we needed that.    

June 2026, you are sucking.  When did this month become nearly the darkest of year?  There's more light later in the day, but most of it is still dreary.  

Besides waking achy & dehydrated, that's my gripe for this morning.  Take care.

Cya..

Could've Gone Better...

 

This crappy 2026 Spring continues with more haze, drear & storms.   It's gotten hot, but any light has been fleeting.  This muggy, dark mess sucks.  It rained more last night.  A little more & it'll double the monthly rainfall average.  

Neither of us felt well yesterday.  I wound up forgetting something we planned on doing.  It'll have to get handled this morning on top of all the normal Friday stuff.   Way to go me, make more of a mess for yourself.

I need to get around.  We have shopping & errands.  Hopefully nothing else pops up.  

Take care.

Cya...

Seasonal Wrap...

 

The solstice is near.  Weathermen started Summer at the beginning of the month.  Spring is leaving for the year.   I think it's time to take a bit of an assessment.  I'll try to be honest.  This Spring was not fun, good or helpful.  It was dark, & trying.  

The weather last year was no better, but we seemed to be in a better place.  There were plans, ambitions, goals...  But all that's pretty much gone.  It was always a possibility that would be the way of things, but for a while things had traction.  Not trying to point blame here.  I'm certainly not helping much.  But, I don't see things making a come back.  

Things started fading late last Fall.  There were reasons.   A different tactic was tried & seemed to help for a bit.  Then that was gone too.  By deep Winter things had fizzled.  I didn't say anything for a bit, then later I did & there were acknowledgements.  By February, as far I could tell, it was all gone.  Spring brought more issues, challenges & not much else.

Things could change, but I think that chapter's closed.  Again, it's not like I was doing much.  Maybe The Sundays had it right, "Here's where the story ends."  I don't know what this Summer holds.  I doubt it'll anything good for me.   The season will start with no real plans on my part, just a fair certainty things will only get worse.

Cya...