Ugh Morning...

 

Several factors are threatening the ongoing fight against HIV, much of it is due to republicans.  This 1st piece's topic has been in the news for weeks.  Because of cuts to medicaid & HIV programs, many states are scaling back their assistance programs.  This cost many their coverage & meds.

Due to ICE, people, even US citizens, are avoiding places that could put them in contact with the agency.  This article covers how it's impacting treatment in some communities.

This last piece is about people with HIV in Ethiopia, especially  adolescents & young adults (AYA).  It shows that women carry a higher burden when it comes to HIV, yet the research is on them is much lower than that concerning males.  This may be about Ethiopia, but the same issue regarding women has been prevalent in many studies.  This has been an ongoing complaint against current research studies & standards.

On to my morning.  This morning is dark, wet & fairly yuck.  I'm achy & tired.  It figures the 1st several days after the time change would be miserable storm BS.  I need sunlight.   My jolty morning are ramping up & leaving a depleted mess.  SAD shouldn't last into March.  It did last year & I'm hoping this isn't a thing from now on.

Wow, 3 articles in a single post.  But they're all about how we're failing in the fight against HIV.  The weather is screwing my DST.  Plus there's still everyday crap to deal with.  So, yeah, March is being just peachy.

Take care.

Cya...

DST Has Arrived...

 

There's a lot going on in our lives & a lot of it isn't great.  I have & will post more about that, but not today.  Something I've been waiting for has happened, the time change.  I'm normally not a fan of time or seasonal changes, they're hard on me.  It'll still be rough for me, but at least there's a chance for more sunlight.   My SAD won't magically disappear, but this could help with that.  

Maybe tomorrow I'll post about gloom & doom, but not now.   There's an extra hour of light in the afternoon.  It won't start getting dark at 4 PM.  I want the dark of the year in my rearview mirror.  Maybe other things can start looking forward as well. 

That's all for now, Take care.

Cya...

It's Here...

 

There were a lot of articles out, but most were the beginnings of ongoing research.   These were brief bits about what researchers are looking at, not what they've found.  A new research technique or method is important, but not a topic for a lay article.  Maybe when these ideas are fleshed out, they'll be something.

This was not an easy morning, but nothing this week has been.  It stormed hard all night & the noise kept waking me.  It's still dark & raining, so waking is has been difficult.   It figures this would happen this week.

Tonight is the time change.  We'll have more light.  Still, I never do well with the changes in the beginning.  This last few weeks have made sure it'll be harder than it needed to be.  There are some things that could've made the ongoing processes so much easier, but instead they added hazards & roadblocks.  To all that hindered us, whatever they may be, may only the worst of things come your way.

That's it.  Articles aren't ready.  Loud storms suck.  There's been too much on the plate.  Some people need to fall in a hole & never climb out.  Dark mornings are horrible.  At least the time change is here.

Take care.

Cya...

Not So Great...

 

For the last several years, I've felt off & not as well as I should.  It's never been a solid thing I could ID & there were always other more pressing issues.  I'd tried to get rest & get through it.   The last couple of years have been harder, but again there was a lot of stuff to handle.  Since September it's been a cascade of issues & appointments.  I really hoped by now, most of this crap would be off our plate, but it isn't.  

Spring is coming & that means seasonal issues; benefit renewals, storms, yard work, etc...  Everything else is still hanging on & not getting settled.  I'm doing my best.

SAD has been a real issue this year.  I was hoping it had passed for now, it hadn't.  For a while I've woke jolty several times during the night & almost every morning.  This is exhausting & takes so much from what little I had left just to get my morning started. 

I need things to stop, to be over, at least for a little while.  No more waiting, getting things fixed, piles of unknowns or difficult idiots.  I'm not fine & I'm not even sure what my best is anymore.  I'm spent & need to be done.

A lot of times, I wish I'd never made it into adulthood.  It had nothing to offer that I needed or wanted.  I wonder what if I'd died at a midnight showing of Rocky, spinning under a disco ball at the rink or even dancing under the lights at a club.  That would've been a good ending.  Instead I'll probably die in some disgustingly substandard, abysmally predictable hellhole. 

It's dark out & supposed to storm.  The upcoming week looks to be the same.  Here comes more SAD & cortisol.   Even if the sun did shine, it wouldn't matter, too much shit is still there & not going anywhere.  Being this tired, swamped by BS & dealing with this life is more than I can handle.   I don't need a refund or exchange, I just want it all gone.

There's my murky morning rant.

Cya...

Rainy Thursday After...

 

It's been raining since yesterday & shows little sign of heading out soon.   It's dark this morning.  Even with this rain, my allergies are still acting up.  We do need the rain, but not the storms or darkness.  

There won't be much happening today.  I have no interest in going out in this mess.  Bills have been mostly handled.   The rest hasn't show up yet.

My telemed appointment went alright.  It was a bit brief, but the new doctor didn't seem comfortable with the camera.  Now, I wait for them to set the next appointment.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Cloudy Morning For Telemed...

 

It's dark this morning.  The upcoming may be stormy.  We need rain, but not storms.  It's making for bad sleeping weather.  It was muggy & unseasonably warm last night.

My telemedicine appointment is at 1 PM.  I need to get around, eat & get showered.  This should be a normal meeting to go over lab results.   

Other an errand or so, that should be it for that day.  Maybe I can get this done before any serious rain happens.  That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

More Busy Week Stuff....

 

The week is still busy.  We got some things done yesterday, but not everything went as we'd thought it would.  That's causing some workarounds to be thought out.    

It's time to handle bank runs & bills.  We both have appointments tomorrow.  All my labs finally made it to the specialist. 

I'll be happy when some issues get off our plate.  They've been lingering too long & there isn't much more we can do about them.  There's always more stuff to just waiting.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...