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Monday, June 8, 2026

Dreary, Wet & Muggy...

 

The area monthly rainfall averages were met & surpassed by the 1st week of June.  There's some local flooding, but I haven't seen any postings about anything serious.   That could change with more rain still in the forecast.  

It's still dreary & muggy.  This isn't fun to wake up too.  It makes getting around hard.  This time of year, putting clothes on after a shower is a sticky process.  

There were articles, mostly over things I've posted about a lot.  Some posts seemed too in the "proof-of-concept" phase to be worth it.  At least there was something.

I'm trying to do better this morning.  These skies aren't helping any.  It's nearly Summer Solstice & it's still this dark.  Summer used to be my reprieve, now there's nothing.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, June 7, 2026

It's Trying...

 

2026 is turning out to be a bad year for me.  2025 was hard & it crashed into this year.  The expenses kept coming.  It's stayed dark & dreary.  Very little is moving along like it should.  Everything is just trying.

It's June & it's still dark.  Things that should've been settled months, perhaps years ago, are still ongoing.  New crap keeps popping up.  I can only juggle so much.

The 1st week of June has been rough.  I've been in panicky, anxious & mad.  It's looking like another dark Summer.  I've spent a couple of days so wound up, I thought was going to be sick.  I never was, but the queasiness & nerves just wouldn't settle down.  

I've been diagnosed with HIV, had pneumonia, COVID, a stroke, etc...  But so far this year has feels like it belongs in the top 3 of my worst years of the 2000s.  What's bad is, I know it could get worse.  I'm just trying to get through this & I'm not doing that very well.

Take care.

Cya...

Saturday, June 6, 2026

Healthspan & Flu Meds...

 

There's a continuum between quality & quantity.   Most opt for the most over the best.   I want the most candy over a single bite of the best.  But that shouldn't be the case when it comes to a person's life.  Lifespan is how long someone will live.  But another concept healthspan or healthy life expectancy, is how long the individual will life in a mostly healthy state absent of chronic illness or injury.  

When it comes to HIV, new meds have led to a near normal lifespan.  That isn't always the case for healthspan.  Many with HIV+ age faster than normal & face health issues earlier or more intensely; cognitive decline or increased susceptibility to some cancers.  

According to this piece, this is due to the inflammation caused by HIV even when suppressed.  HIV impacts the bodies ability to fight.  The research reported a sugar molecule in the body called glycans help control inflammation.  While glycans dip as we age, it can be worse for women as the enter menopause.  But in HIV+ people these glycans levels lessen & with that their ability to control inflammation.

Research is studying a medication to inhibit this effect.  A group of meds referred to as sialidase or neuraminidase inhibitors can lessen degradation of glycan levels.  These compounds are found in common anti-flu meds such as Tamiflu.  

This research is in the very beginning, but could prove very useful.  They aren't promoting flu meds as a treatment for HIV related inflammation.  They're saying the chemicals in these meds could be lead to new treatments for the condition.  Which could impact a host of inflammation induced ailments.

Give it a read.  Take care.

Cya...

Friday, June 5, 2026

Not a Good Friday...

 


This isn't a good morning.  There's a more talk of HIV funding getting further cut.  There's also the chance they could require HIV+ work requirements to get medicaid.   I'm not sure what this will mean for me.  Of course they aren't giving the choice to end it all.  I think with the way things are, a lot of people might choose that option.  

It's a crappy dark morning & it's like I feel every miserable cloud.  I don't think I'm getting over SAD ever.  I hate waking up so damned much.  It's in the top worst things I ever do.   It takes me hours just to be functional & then more time to feel normal.  By then, it's getting dark again.  Things aren't & probably won't ever get better.

There's errands & bills to handle.  Take care.

Cya...

Thursday, June 4, 2026

Some Done & Finally...

 

The beginning of bills & some errands were handled yesterday.   I picked up my meds & by the time we got home, the lawn guy was mowing.  We're happy about that.  It'd been over a month since the yard got handled.  It was a shaggy mess.  But, it took that long for the rain to stop & grass to dry enough to be cut. 

We don't have much on for today.  We'll finish the bills tomorrow.  That's it for now.

Take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, June 3, 2026

June Stuff...

 

It's the 1st of the month, time to handle bills & errands.   I need to pick up meds today.  We're hoping to get the lawn mowed soon.  It looks like a meadow.  But it keeps raining & drenching everything.  It dumped over an inch yesterday.  This stupid version of June is supposed to be rain happy & dark.  So much for dealing with SAD.  

That's it for now.  I need to get things done so we can deal with all this.  Take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, June 2, 2026

Still Dark In June...

 

Again June is a dark mess.  It's almost Summer & this looks like a morning in January.  Of course it had to storm.  It was supposed to last night & didn't.  That made sleeping less than pleasant.  I'm just tired of this.  Why the hell did I wake up?

I needed this dark crap to be over, but hey that doesn't matter.  The mood I've been in, the world could burn & I'd be fine.  I'm just too over this to care about much anymore.  I'm tired of being scared, anxious, stressed.  I'm just tired & pissed that I woke up.  

I have a 80s pin somewhere that says, "Life's a bitch & then you die."   That's not right.   Life is a bitch, but you don't just to die, you linger.    You don't thrive, you just exist.

That's it this morning.  To hell with June & its BS storms & drear.  Apparently there is no bright season anymore.  I hope all you cloud lovers choke.

Cya...