August is underway & there's less than a month before my year's up. Unless, I'm wrong, I should be getting a renewal this year. I'm dreading this. This month is making me ill. I go to sleep with things buzzing in my head & I may have a moment after waking before it all comes back. Sometimes, it even invades my sleep & gives me stress dreams.
The problem is these worries are real. These lingering issues always seem ready to drop. I hate waking up. Maybe a few minutes of peace & then it all crashes back over me. By the time I get out of bed, I'm already emotionally spent & fairly worn out.
Last night was the 1st night I got decent sleep in a while. It won't help. The hot nights will return & the anxiety never leaves. I'm just tired. I should've never made it this far. Even if I get through August alright, then comes September, my worst month. Then Fall begins. This fight was lost before it began.
Take care.
Cya...
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