Oh Well...

 

I didn't have high hopes for anything, but I thought maybe I could get a single good day to start the month.  I'm not sure why I had such expectations, I don't get those things anymore.  November started off with carry over BS, things breaking, needs for my attention to do things & people in poor, snappy moods.  

I just needed a day without crap, especially new crap, even if it was potentially a good thing.  I just needed a day.  I'm back to dreading mornings.  I have no idea what's lurking out there.  What's going to break, need something or snap.  This has been going on for a long time now.  I'm just about to retreat to my room, close the door & not come out.  Let everything & everyone else fix their own shit.  I can barely handle mine, some times, not even that. 

My rant is over for a bit, but the crap will keep coming.  Oh well, a good month would've been nice.  I guess that's why I didn't get it.

Cya...

Wow...1,000...

I haven't gone looking for candles in a long time for this blog.  But this is my 1,000th post.  It's hard to believe I've stuck with anything this long, but I have.

I know a lot of what I post about may seem trivial to some.  But, I only stated I'd write about my life as a 40+ man living in rural Oklahoma who is HIV+.  I've done that, even when it's been about how the little things in my life are impacting me.   I've also blogged about articles that I found pertinent to my blog & my life.

Here's to my blog.  Here's to me, for keeping at it.  I appreciate having this blog to write in daily.  I'm happy that I kept writing it.  So cheers & yippee to my 1,000th post.  I hope everyone has a great day.

Cya...