Goodbye July...

 

This is the last day of July.  The month started off alright.  It wasn't that Summery.  It was overcast, damp & fairly mild temps.  Then the tail end got here.  It stayed hazy, while the humidity & temps cranked up.  I haven't handled this part of the month.  I'm not sleeping well & it's leading me to feel off, sick & anxious.  

Tomorrow starts August.   I have expectations for that month & they're all bad.  I think this is going to be a bad month.  It feels like a lot is coming my way & I probably won't be able to handle it.  I think this is going to be a month of loss.   It's the last month of my birth year.  It's the last month I'll be in my 50s.  

I really needed a good Summer.  Just another thing on the list I never got.  I don't need to see September.  I don't need more trips around the circle.  I would gladly just step off the ride.  I'm tired of feeling like this.  I hate knowing my life peaked decades ago & it wasn't that great.  I broke the GenX rule.  I should've died young.  I wouldn't have had to see what a disaster I became.

Goodbye July, you failed at being a good Summer month.

Cya...

Gloom & Grass...

 

It's still overcast & chilly.  We might not make out of the 50s today.  To make things worse, there's a lot of mowing. The noise alone can be bothersome, but this year's different.   My roomie & I are both reacting to cut grass a lot this year.  Normally, it smells & might set off our allergies.  This year besides it stinking & setting off allergies, it's making us feel fairly ill & nauseous.   Hopefully, whatever's in the grass will die off soon.  This has been a lot for the last few weeks.

I've posted about aging with HIV before.  This is a good piece about aging with HIV.   It deals with the issues of HIV itself, the meds & comorbidities.  It's worth a read.

Take care.

Cya...

Cold, Wet & Dark...

 

The last Saturday of the month has opted for miserable weather.  It's dreary & sprinkling.  The next several days with have overnights below freezing.  It's supposed to be bright tomorrow.  That'd be nice.

I've not been doing that well.  There's been a lot going on & I've been trying not to get sick for some time.  I've felt off for quite a bit.  It'll be nice when some of our going-ons are handled.  2025 has been rough.

I guess that's all I have this morning.  Take care.

Cya...

Lunch Outing...

 

We went out for lunch yesterday.  It was a birthday outing for me.  We liked the place & the food.  It went well until we were ready to leave.  The car had a bit of an issue.  This is getting old & causing me too much stress.  I need things to work.  They don't have to be great, just do what they're supposed to do.  Or at least screw up enough the mechanics can figure out what's wrong with it.  

Later that night, we had the remainder of the dessert we'd gotten for my day.  Almost immediately after, I got sick.  It was  weird, I never felt nauseous.  I just felt it coming on, got to the bathroom & threw up.  I was a bit weakened afterwards, but not queasy.  It left me with a very rough throat.   My stomach was rumbly after that.

That's it for now.  I have a telemed appointment this afternoon.  Take care.

Cya...

Sick Winter...

 

COVID & RSV are still here, but they aren't the big culprits this winter.  The flu, norovirus, pneumonia, regional bugs & colds are the issues this season.  I hate Winter, I get sick & achy.  There's always morning coughs, stiffness & aches.  I think my roomie & got a bad cold.  Neither is doing great, but not horrible either.  The coughing, congestion, runny nose, aches & slight fever have been exhausting, but not doctor worthy.  They'd probably just push ibuprofen, rest & hydration. 

Winter sucks, being sick during, even if expected, sucks more.   I'm still feeling a bit ick, but I think I'm getting better slowly.  We're doing what we can here.

Take care.

Cya...

Melt Begins...

 

It'll be over freezing soon, but the sun's already shining.  The snow is starting to melt.   It needs to go. Yesterday wasn't a good day for me.  I didn't feel good & it got worse as the day went on.   So far, I'm feeling better.  I hope it holds.

I didn't notice any articles, so that's about if or this morning.   I'm trying to get better.  

Take care.

Cya...

It's Still Here...

 

This cold or whatever crap is still here.  Yesterday was better than Thursday but still not great.  Last night might have been better, but the cat's decided my room was part of some derby.   The older cat got pushed out the door after woke me twice by squeaking straight into my ear.   We'll see how today goes.  

That's all for me.  Take care.

Cya...

Not Good Morning...

 

I'm actually feeling a bit worse than yesterday.   This was a busier week for me than it needed to be.  If yesterday's appointment hadn't been bumped, it wouldn't have been as busy of a week for me.  I had other things planned before the bump that still needed to happen.  All of that colliding, did me in.  

The medical appointment went fine.  It seems my new provider is a very check the boxes & move on type.  She's not unfriendly, just removed.  I can deal with that, it's just not what I'm used to.  I didn't have the best of experiences with their new lab tech.  Hopefully she gets better.

I need to get around & go shopping.  This day needs to be over already.  Take care.

Cya...

Clouds & Yick...

 

It's cloudy & I overslept.  I managed to sleep a little better last night, but still not great.  I didn't have as much coughing.  But, it's to the point of wheeze coughing & sore ribs.  For me, nothing good comes in the dark of the year.  

Sorry so short. That's about it for now, take care.  

Cya...

It Lingers...

 

My hopes for this cold to be gone didn't pan out.  It got worse last night as the humidity hit 95%+.  Cooler weather is something I can get used to.  I don't do so well when the air's sopping wet as well.  Maybe, I can make it a little further towards better today.

That's about it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Too Much Fog...

 

I was feeling a bit better yesterday until late in the evening.  Then I started feeling rough again.  When I looked outside later, it was extremely foggy.  The fog's less dense, but it's still here at 10 AM.  It needs to go.  It trashed my throat & sinuses.

Hopefully, I'll do better today.  Take care.

Cya...

November Suck...

 

I didn't expect good things out of this month, but it's decided to be a real ass.  The house & car have needed work.  The time change happened.  It dumped  a massive amount of rain on us.  It's staying dark & getting colder.  We've been ill.  Everything is just picking at things.  Then the nation decided to give a refresher on how much it hates people like me; Gay, HIV+, single, on disability, poor, etc...

Not every night, but often, for as long as I can remember, I wanted the same thing when I went to sleep; to not wake up.  If I had to wake up, to at least not be me in my life.  50+ years later, I'm still here & cursing waking up.  There are no gods.  If there are, they're all sick & hateful things that get off on suffering.  Let me make something clear, life isn't precious or sacred.  It's just something you have to endure as long it lasts.

To all the people who voted to remind us how much you hate everything, just a reminder that everything probably feels the same way about you.   

Cya...

Crap Morning...

 

This is a crappy morning for several reasons.  1st off, it's morning & we are always contrary to each other.  My roomie is ill & I'm still not feeling well.  I was supposed to have a medical appointment right now, but it got rescheduled last minute.  It's now at a less convenient time next week.  If I'd known sooner, I could've schedule the repairman to fix the roof issue earlier.   But that would've been considerate.

Finally, we have proof that Democrats can't pick an electable candidate.  People choose that orange bastard over her.  He can do a lot of damage in 4 years.  I hate a lot of people right now.  But the Democrats have their own culpability here.  For too long they've lived in a world of ought-to-be's & wouldn't-that-be-nice's.  They've kept their heads in this pretty, rose colored version of should-be, instead of what actually was.  I don't think people voted for that bastard as much as they voted against her.

Maybe we'll get through this.

Cya...

Same Old Ugh...

 

We had to take the car back to the mechanics yesterday.  It had issues starting.  What was supposed to take a few minutes, took well over an hour.  Neither of us felt well & the chairs there aren't exactly comfortable.  They still can't figure out the issue.

I'm still not sleeping well & feeling really off.   There were steady winds blowing crap all day & my sinuses are hating it.  I'm having a lot of stomach issues.  Last night was a lot of bathroom runs & I actually got sick.  That wasn't a wanted experience.

The upcoming week or so has a lot in it.  I have an appointment tomorrow.  At least they always wear mask & gloves.  If I do have some bug, they should be fine.  There's just a lot going around right now.  I need to get feeling better soon.

Take care.

Cya...

Ick Out...

 

We had a fairly plain dinner last night, but somehow it really disagreed with me.  I was getting icked out after a little bit.  I got rid of the part I thought was offending my stomach.  That didn't help.  I couldn't finish it & I stayed fairly nauseous most the night.   I was still feeling off when I went to bed.  There have been a lot of bathroom visits this morning.  So far, I haven't gotten sick, but it's felt like a very real possibility.  

Hopefully as the day goes on, my stomach will settle.  I can't understand how something so basic as meat, cheese & bread set me off.  That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Another Early, Maybe Hard Morning...

 

On top of normal Friday things, we have other errands.  The 1st bill of next month has arrived & has to be paid.  The gas company always wants their payment early.  Its easier just to handle it when it gets here.  I also need to get my last hepatitis shot.  Past that, there's checking mail, shopping & getting lunch.

The hard part of today, is that I have to take the kitten into the vet.  He, Machen, has been acting off for over a week.   There's been a lot of stillness & sleeping.  At 1st we thought it was the seasonal change & allergies.  But, he hasn't eaten anything notable since Tuesday & doesn't seem to be drinking his water either.  The litter box is pretty empty.  He's moving his jaw weird, drooling, has so tiny blood specks on his fur & he stinks.  He's mostly been retreating.   If this isn't something easy like an infection or dental issue, this could be his last morning.   I hope not.

I have to get moving.  Take care.

Cya...

Hopefully Nothing...

 

All I want from today is nothing.  August hasn't been easy on me or mine.  We've had a ton of crap to handle, the weather's been rough & half of it we've spent sick or on the verge of being ill.   So, it'd be nice if today was actually just a complete nothing day.  Thursday could've been like this, but neither of us a good morning, then the lawn guy came & mowed.  Then I needed to handle some yard stuff.  So that day was blown.

Here's hoping the nothing holds for today.

Cya...

PS - Labs are back & look fine for me.

Not Much Friday...

 

Other than shopping, we don't have a lot going today.  It won't be as hot, but it's pretty humid.  Yesterday wasn't fun, neither of us felt that well.  We're wondering if we got food poisoning from something when we ate out.   Maybe, it's run it's course.

I need to do some yard stuff, but the grass is wet with dew.   Things will be hot by the time it dries.  I really don't like having a yard.  At least not something this size.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Over Did It...

 

Yesterday was stupidly hot, annoying, exhausting & sickening.  I woke up after a hot night.  I seriously needed a shower.  In this swampy, heat you don't really feel clean even after a shower.   We got around & headed out.

We got to outpatient at the hospital so I could get labs.  At 1st everything seemed fine.  There wasn't a line in reception or the lab.   Turned out, some of my order was missing.  My doctor is across the street, so I thought I'd check when I got done.  When I got back to the car, we were blocked in due to a life flight helicopter.  It blocked the whole area for about half an hour.   I walked over to my doctors & found out no one knew what happened to the missing lab order.  It'll have to be handled later.  So, I walk back in that heat.  The helicopter was still there.

When we finally get out, there was still shopping.   We handled that & then on the way home some internet installation brahs decided to block the road.  We had to back up & add a mile to our trip to get around those asshats.  

We get home & drop off groceries.  Then we hit the mail place.  We opted to get something to eat.  That took almost 30 minutes of waiting in the line, in that heat.  

We got home.  The AC could barely touch the heat.  We were spent, exhausted & sick.  It took all the rest of the day to even feel a little better.  Then it was another hot night.  The heat is here until Sunday.  Hope we last.

So, I'm cooked & out of energy.  At least the labs are handled.  Those that have come back look normal.  Hopefully, there will be no outings for today, none.

Stay cool & take care.

Cya...

Still Waiting...

I'm on the phone still trying to find out something about my benefit renewal.  So far, I'm just on hold.  Hopefully, this will get sorted.  I hate this process. Nothing else is going on this morning.  Except for me trying not to die from Spring's sick attempt at humor.

Sorry for the pause.  I was on with the phone about the renewal for 30+ minutes.  It's done & I'm approved for now.  That crap's handled for another year.

That's all I've got, until tomorrow, take care.

Cya...