Decent Day Anxiety...

 

I don't have that many "good" days.  I'm lucky to have decent, OK days.  I don't like talking about them, especially while the day is still occurring.  They make me anxious.  I can't remember a day in the last year that was going alright that there was an almost immediate case of fuckery.  Not something me or my roomie caused, but something beyond our control that was screwed with us;  car issues, power outages, internet issues, seriously bad weather...

Yesterday was being an OK day until around 6 then the water pressure all but died.  Some fiber workers broke another water line again.  The water was luckily restored in a few hours, but it's taken a lot longer than before.  Then all the lines have to cleared of yick, off-colored water, including the ice maker.  Was it a big thing, no it didn't turn out to be this time.  Was it something we did or caused?  No, it was not.  Still, it caused stress, anxiety & trashed what had been an alright day.  

Bad days are bad days.  But it's gotten to the point where I'm almost afraid of having good days.  Too much is just waiting to happen.

Take care.

Cya...

Not Optimum & The Stupid Orange...

 

I was actually having a decent day yesterday & then it rained & we had to go shopping.  Walmart's parking lot was mostly fenced off so they could repave.  The open part was packed.  For some reason, with the parking lot, twice the shoppers seemed to be there.  

It was not fun.  But still, I was having an OK day.  I guess that was just too much for things.  About 5:30, the internet went down & stayed out until this morning.  Something just had to keep pulling at the threads & my decent day unraveled.  Maybe I'm just not supposed to have those.

I found an article that continues to show monstrous nature of the orange bastard & his ilk.  tRump has signed an executive order to end all AIDS funding to South Africa.  In this country where a rich, white minority created apartheid, a situation that's impact is still felt today, the orange feels white people are being treated badly.  There is no evidence of this.  White people are no longer being treated like nobility.  This is the country where some of the richest, white people come from like Elon Musk.

tRump also says it's because they opposed Israel's war, that they country shouldn't be helped.  The promise of US AIDS funds has been broken.  The administration may single-handedly bring back the HIV epidemic of the 80s.  Way to go MAGA.

Cya...

PS - It's the last day of Spring 2026 & it might find some sunlight sometime today, maybe not.  Spring was not a great season for me.

Outing & True Colors...

 

We went to see a movie yesterday & it went well.  The only real annoyance was all the stoplights.  I hate blinking yellow turn lights.  It was a pretty good day for us.

As the year ends, there are memes thanking the year for showing the poster the "true colors" of people around them.  It makes the round every December.  

If you pay attention to what people do more than they say, they're almost always telling you who they really are.  Sometimes you get surprised & can only roll with it.  I'm sure a lot of posters are referring to the election this year.  I wish it hadn't gone this way, but I'm not surprised.  There are too many people who can't handle the thought of a woman in charge, especially a woman of color.  There were too many people who couldn't get off the butts & vote.  Finally, fortune doesn't usually lean my way.

You don't have to be a mind reader to know people's "true colors", just pay attention.  Whether it's politics, life or movie reviews, people can't help outing themselves.  Sometimes we try too hard to see people as we'd like them to be & not as they are.

Take care.

Cya...

Madonna...

 

I've not always been the biggest Madonna fan.  I was never really a hater, but I could walk on by & be fine with it.  This piece is how the singer made a splash recently.  During the a performance of her latest tour, she held a memorial for those who died of AIDS, including people very close to her.  It's a good read.  For those too young, it was hard to be anywhere during the 80s & 90s & not lose people too AIDS.  We still do today, but back then it seemed like the wave of dying would never stop. 

Made it through another day without a crapfest.  Maybe we can make it a 3rd, that'd be novel.  I'm trying hard to stay in a decent place. Brighter mornings make it easier.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

1st Down Day Of 2023...

 

Today is the 1st day of the new year, that we haven't had something going on, to do or weren't stressing over something from 2022.   It's chilly this morning, but it's January.  It's also sunny out, so I'll take that as a good thing.  Tomorrow may have all those ick things again & it may be dreary, but for now, this moment is good.

I can relate to some anxiety my roomie is having.  She's trying a new med & that's always trying.  Even if it's something you're fairly familiar with, there's always questions & worries.  If it's unlike anything you've taken before, it can be seriously bothersome.  When I began switching from my massive HIV cocktail eventually down to a single pill, it was very weird.  I was relieved it was just 1 pill, but also worried it wouldn't work.

Med anxiety is common & to be expected.  Every med comes with a shopping list of issues, interactions & side effects.   Not being a little concerned with a new med is more of an issue, than be cautious about them.  If you have to start a new med & you're nervous, make sure your provider understands this.  Maybe they can help you through your nerves or give you suggestions about the med.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Yesterday Went Well...

 

Even after finding out the stupidly high number of COVID cases in my state, we had a good day.  By stupid I mean, our numbers are worse than last year's at this time.  

Last year, a more people were trying to stay safe, not now.  Since about Thanksgiving, stores have been full of unmasked people acting like they'd never seen a Walmart before.  Most of these maskless people are probably not vaccinated.   I see loads of little kids too young to voice concern in these crowds without masks.  They're all so pro-life, but they won't protect their kids.

Other than shopping, we didn't do much yesterday.  But, it was sunny & we felt better.  Both of which were nice.  You have to take the silver linings where you can.  

That's all for  now, take care.

Cya...

Halfway, Almost...

CVS did great this month.  They got me meds with no fuss   That is a thing I don't get to say often enough.  I certainly takes a lot of stress out of my life when they get their job done correctly.    I'm surprised it went so well, considering all the hurricane business.

We're over halfway through September,  There are just 4 days until the Fall Solstice.  Summer temps may have crept back in for a bit, but it's closing up shop for the season.  

The last of the flowers are blooming, including the Yucca.   The yard is yellowed.  It's virtually raining leaves.  

It's been pleasant so far today, hope you do well.

Cya...

Yesterday...

I want to talk about yesterday.  Even though I had a short bout of being over-heated, went shopping & experienced an unpleasant anniversary, it turned out to be a good day for me.   I don't know how, but it did.  I have so few of them, I want to acknowledge it.

I managed to have a relatively positive interaction with my pharmacy.  That almost never happens & it could still turn sour, so fingers crossed & all that.   I hit multiple places while out yesterday morning & none of them were bad stops.   Things hardly ever go that way for me.  I pushed my luck yesterday & fortunately, it didn't push back.  So, today, is going to be sedate.  

Yesterday, was the 2 month anniversary of our little cat, Rowan's passing.   Her presence is deeply missed.  The house just isn't the same without her.   Travel well, little cat.

Cya...

Nice Day In June...

So far, today has been a relatively nice day.  OK, we had to go to Walmart earlier & that's never really a fun thing to do.   Still, the weather is nice & we aren't expected to much else today.  

I don't have much to write about today.  But, I do appreciate this day's more pleasant nature.  There's  a light breeze, some sunshine & birds singing.  

Hope you're having a good day.

Cya...

Spring...

Happy Spring, Vernal Equinox, Ostara, Liberalia, etc...  Whatever you call, Spring is here & it's definitely in the air.  Along with a lot of other stuff making my nose twitch.  

It's a nice day.  We did our initial Spring yard work.  It'll be hauled off soon.  The little blue flowers are out in abundance.  

I try not to expect too much out things, but today has been a good day so far.

Cya...

A Whole Day...

I'm amazed, yesterday was the 1st day of the month that wasn't craptastic.  It was actually a nice day.  Today is looking to be the same.  I'm almost a afraid to write anything else for fear of jinxing it. 

We went shopping & other than being busy, it wasn't too bad.  It was a little tiring.   But, we're home now & I'm set for the day.

For those not chronically ill, it can be difficult to appreciate what the stress of such days  can do to a person.  The power outage & internet outage, just made my life incredibly more difficult & overwhelming.  Stress for me is exhausting.  I'm still getting past  the 1st few days of this month.   But, hopefully, today will be good & this will be behind us.

I've got things to do, so this will be it for now.

Cya...

Quiet Tuesday, But The Goats...

The weather's mellowed out & it's been a nice day here.  There's not much that needs tending to today.  So, I'm just letting things be.

It's been pretty quiet, except for the goats.  I live in town, but for some reason 3 neighbors within a block have goats.  These goats can't see each other, but they can hear the others.  They bleat & baa at each other for hours.  Occasionally a local dog puts in its bit.  That's not counting the neighbor's rooster who can't tell time.  Between them, there's been a steady stream of conversation all day. 

Hope everyone's doing well.

Cya...

Pleasant Day...

Its shaping up to be another nice day.  We just recently got rid of the 40's in the overnight temps.  It looks like the 50's will soon be following.  I hope it doesn't warm up too fast.  It'd be nice to ease into things.  I doubt I'll get my druthers on this.

Next week I'll have my doctor appointment with my regular doctor.  After that, I'll have to drive to see my specialist in Tulsa, because someone screwed up telemedicine again.   I'll do my best to make sure this isn't an ongoing thing.  Here's hoping there's good options in this matter.

I'm really annoyed with the Tulsa thing.  I'm trying not to dwell on it.  There isn't much I can do on the matter until I find out more about what's going on with everything.  So, I'll try to focus on other things.  Like how nice a day it is.

Cya...

Another Nice Day...

The weather is pleasant today; no rain, no wind, no high allergens.  We don't have anything planned for today, so its pretty laid back.  I have to get blood drawn this week for my lab work.  Other than that, its pretty much the same old, same old for me this week.  I hope this weather holds for a while.  Its nice to have a nice, sunny day that's not too hot.  

Hope you've had a good weekend.

Cya...

Midweek...

We took out the trash.  The air's a little brisk, but not nearly cold enough for the season.  Some of the flowering bushes are budding.  Too early.

My roomie's new routine will start again tomorrow.  It's the 2nd run at it.   The last time went fairly smooth,  I think this time will probably go even more so.   Its a change & right now just about any change seems sorta big.  Even when its not.

My dental cleaning went well yesterday.  We got something to eat & ran an errand.  I needed a new outdoor, trash can.  The last 1 cracked & it was letting in water.  All I need is flooded garbage.

I seem to be getting better again.  At least for now.  I felt pretty good all day yesterday.  The weather shift hasn't been nice on my allergies, but still I'm holding up.

Here's hoping for more coeld weather to kill of the grass & the bugs.

Cya....

Fairly Nice Day...

Its a little weird that we're setting at 61 F in Oklahoma during January.  I'm sure the weather will flip again soon & plunge us back into more seasonal temperatures.   For now, it's nice not to have the heaters blazing away.  Other than catching up on some TV,  we've got very little planned for today.   Right now, I'm just watching birds flitting about the yard.  They enjoy a warm day as much as anyone.   I'm sure the outdoor cats are basking somewhere sunny.  Enjoy it while it lasts.  We're not even a full month into Winter. Wherever you are, I hope this day treats you well.

Cya...

Good Day...

Finally, we need a good day.  The plumbers got here to look  at our heater.  The pilot wouldn't stay lit.  We got a hold of him this morning & he was able to come by soon after.  I'm amazed he wasn't already booked.

He got there & we were resigned to the idea of replacing the stove.  All he had to do was take it a part & give a really good cleaning.  Apparently some of the "smart" parts had gotten clogged with dust or fuzz.  Anyway he fixed it.  It was a pretty cheap fix too, which was good with the way we've been spending these last couple of weeks.

Its a good day for us.  I hope it is for you as well.   Happy Holidays.

Cya....

News...

My roomie's doctor delivered good news this morning.  In the doctor's opinion, further treatment at this time would not be necessary.   That means no more doctors for a while for her.  It means no radiation for now.  It also means no more constant trips for medical issues.  At least, in the foreseeable future.

This is great news.  My roomie is still dealing with fallout from the treatments she's already undergone.  All of these post issues are normal according to the materials she's been researching.   Still, they can't be fun.

I'm thankful for this news.  I'm astounded the doctor got back this quickly.  Of course, there will be follow ups, but that's to be expected post surgery & as you age.  

This is starting out to be a good day.  I hope everyone has a great weekend. 

Cya...

Maybe Good News...

My roomie's appointment seems to have gone well.  1st, if necessary, the place in Fort Smith can handle the high dose radiation procedures she needs.  That means no umpteen more trips to Tulsa.  Yippie! for that alone.

However, the doctor that saw my roomie didn't feel the treatments were actually necessary & may be an overcautious, preemptive course of action.  The doctor said she'd consult with some other experts & get back on the matter in a couple of weeks.  

Even if it does turn out the treatments are necessary, the doctor thought the number would be half of what my roomie was initially told.  This doctor would also want to to wait longer before starting the treatments.  That would most likely put us into September.  It might still be hot, but not as much as August.

The place was easy to access.  The people were nice.   It's relatively close.  There were a lot of perks.  

Hopefully, the doctor was right.   Maybe my roomie can skip this step.  That would be seriously good news.

Cya...

So Far, So Good...

So far, today has been a fairly descent day.  The rest of my meds are supposed to arrive this afternoon.  It seems for now I have the computer network working, at least mostly.  The laptop is still fighting me on sharing.  That can be worked around though.  It's a nice day weather wise.

There are some articles going around about possibilities of new treatments.  When they seem more with it, I'll post on them.  Another hospital in New York is having to tell people to get tested for HIV & hepatitis.  Apparently they didn't understand the concept of single-use regarding single-use insulin pens.  They reused them & may have spread who knows what.  Seriously, how long is it going to take people to understand how much a part sanitation plays in fighting HIV?

I'm not focusing on much right now.  I'm trying to do my best to do a duck's back impersonation right now.  I'm just trying to let the current stress slide right off me. We'll see how that goes.

Cya...