Fall Equinox 2026...

 

That's all folks, it may be still be hot, but Summertime has ended.   From a meh to hellish Summer we're heading into the dark of the year.   2026 has sucked so far, there's no reason to think the remaining 100 days will prove any better, gentler or kinder.

Goodbye Summer, you were mostly awful.  Hello Fall.  I'm sure you're just waiting to show everyone how a bad season is really done.  It'd be great if something nice happened this season.  I doubt it will, still it'd be pretty agreeable.

Let the leaves & twigs stay where they fall.  It's nature's art & helps the little things.

Take care.  

Cya...

Oh Joy, Fall's Back...

Fall is here & I'm sure some people are happy about it.  I'm not among that kind.  I'm not a pumpkin spice slut, a fan of drear, darkness or the damp.  Autumn may be necessary, but it isn't pretty.  It's nothing but littering, shedding & rot.  It's the compost season of the year.  These are the months when everything scurries about trying to gather enough to survive the hell months of Winter.  The 'Ber & 'Ary months aren't my friends.

I did find a few articles, but for some reason the host pages were having issues.  Maybe I'll find them later.   It's hard enough finding pieces without sites crapping out.

So, hello Autumn, do try not to suck.

Cya...

Sprung...

The spring in the season must have been cold, because it's chilly here this morning.  It'll be this way tomorrow as well.  After this weekend, if the forecast holds, we should leave the overnight 40s behind.  That means we can start packing up Winter stuff soon.

Other than news about the orange stain, there wasn't much in the way of articles.  I did notice more articles talking about side effects of HIV & TB meds.  There's a big problem with doctors not telling you what to expect.  You have to educate yourself.  The meds I was on to begin with did a number on my hair, skin & teeth.  There's issues with all of them.  Anxiety & depression are pretty common.

Maybe this will be a happy Spring Equinox. 

Cya...

Hello Spring...

 

Spring is starting off cold.  It looks to be warmer for the duration of the forecast.  But we've been here before.  I hope the cold is behind us.  I'd like for some of the dark to be as well.  I may not get either.

I really get irritated when people tell you not to be so anxious, nervous or stressed.  Especially when your  entire life has been full of stressful, nervy, anxiety inducing things.  The only times I ever remember not being in those states was when I was overwhelmed by sensory input & my mind had to focus on the moment.  If I was at a skating rink, dance club, amusement park, concert I could be present.  The pulsing, rhythmic, flashes & movement could keep me focused.  If not my mind was spinning off to the next disaster looming around the bend.  The problem was the parties do end & the crap is just around the corner.  There's always a shoe waiting to drop.

Anytime I can try to reduce stressors I do.  I get irritated when things pile on.  I understand life is stressful, but it doesn't all have to be every minute of every day.  What really sucks is that me nor mine hardly ever are the actual cause of the stress.  It's someone else's mess hitting us.

To all the perky, existentialist touting their self destiny, control & toxic positivity; please just shut up & die.  As promptly as you could would be appreciated.   Either you are lying or you're in a luxurious bubble most people will never get near.  You're either manipulative, delusional or naive.  Whatever it happens to be for you, just leave the rest of us alone.  We don't want the crazy you're selling.  We're full up with our own.

Rant's over.  Hello Spring.  Try to be pleasant & bright.  I don't need more dark or drama.  That's all, take care.

Cya...

Autumn...

 

The equinox is here & so is Fall.  Summer's over & what little light we had this year will lessen.  I never look forward to Autumn.  It overs very little I want & leads into the darkest times of the year.   Still, here it is.

This week has been handled.  So far, there's nothing to do this weekend except recover from the last several days.  Hopefully everything will stay calmed down this week.  The following week is the 1st of the month & I have appointments.

For those who love, Fall has arrived, enjoy.

Cya...

Some Mornings & Sprung...

 

Some mornings I'm lucky & there's nothing really going through my mind.  I'm just focused or unfocused on getting around.  I prefer those mornings.  

If not, I'm thinking & usually that's not a good thing in the morning.  Everything that ever bothered or scared me is looming.  I know everything that never happened, that did happen & what will never be.  Every fear, slight, anxiety is right there in the room with me.  It leaves me shaken.  Sometimes I'm scared, but that doesn't last long.  I'm usually just numb & anxious at that same time.

These things fade as I start moving, but they never completely go away.  I know there are things I'll never have.  I've never really felt secure or that I was in the right place.  I've done what I can for others, but I never seem to be able to do for myself.

If I was told after I went to sleep some night the world would end, I'd be OK with that.  I'm here, but I've never felt part of it.  It impacts me, but not really by my choice.  It'd all be gone & I'd miss precious little & even less would notice I was gone.

Sometimes, it feels like my life was a very rough draft of someone's badly written, very typical story.  No good parts, very few ups to match the horrible downs. My life is closer to a dark absurdity than a tragedy.  Just a lot of stress, fear & running bad jokes.

It's getting brighter.  My mood will lighten until tomorrow.  Mornings truly are dreadful.

Cya...

PS - Happy Spring...

September Equinox...

 

3 things; we're having company this morning.  It's the Equinox.  Fall's supposed to be here today, but  Summer won't leave the building.  Finally, there's this  article.   It's about treating HIV with gene therapy.  This may be something, someday.  At the moment, it seems very jargonny & non-committal.  

That's all  for now, take care.

Happy Fall Equinox & Mabon.

Cya...

Warm Round...

 

September has ordered another heat wave to close out Summer.  The warmer temps should last just past the Equinox.  It wouldn't be so bad if allergies weren't being such a beast.  Between those, the dryness & people burning yard stuff, it's been a difficult couple of weeks for for breathing & seeing anything.  There's just too much gunk.

That's about it for now.  Other than shopping & getting back into British Bake Off, we didn't do a lot yesterday & won't this weekend if we don't have to.

Take care.

Cya...

Cool Morning...

 

We've had a couple of cooler late nights, but this is  our 1st cool morning.   These temps won't last, next week is supposed to get warm again.  But Fall is upon us, just 11 days until the Equinox.  For the North it's the beginning of Autumn or Mabon.  For the South, it's the beginning of Spring.   That means the dark of the year is nearly here.  Not liking that, this year's already been a piss.

That's all for now, take  care.

Cya...

Off Plans...

 

Next Sunday Daylight Saving Time will start.   The following weekend will be the Spring Equinox on the 20th.   I was starting to make plans on washing & stowing some Winter things.   Then Winter stuck it's head up again.  Most of the week will be colder, but the weekend is forecast to be frigid.    

I hate Winter.  I'm tired of heaters, blankets & scorched air.    I want some warm & bright mornings to wake up to.  I really need all of this to move on,  but that's not up to me.

Hopefully this will be our last  round & we get into  Spring things.   Take care.

Cya...