Less Than Before...

 

The holiday season is near.  It's Indigenous Peoples Day, aka Submuloc or Columbus day.  There will be no mail today.  Halloween is nearing & then the holiday season will be in full swing, except it won't.   It hasn't been for a few years & that isn't just me be weird about holidays.  They have diminished a lot.  I've seen no decorations, heard no mention of local events & the halloween stuff a the store has been relegated to a humble section, full of uninspired decorations, cheap costumes & repurposed candies. 

The other holidays fare no better.  Those same few aisles hold the other special day's wares as well.  The Christmas section is slightly larger, but only because there's bigger items to sell.  I think only heard 1 holiday song at the store last year.  There was no music, no decor, no bell-ringers, just nothing.

Our holiday plans are looking even more scant than the previous years.  I don't know what, if anything, we'll do for them.   There were so few lights twinkling last year, I wonder if there'll be any this year.

Last year, this time, so how I still had a little umph of hope left in me.  I thought things might get better.  I thought it was possible there might be a way to be somewhere better.  There were some possibilities.  I'm angry at myself for letting that be the case.  Now, once again I've had to accept that I let myself believe in a figment as substantial as a puff of smoke.  That's gone now, at best things might maintain as they are, but I doubt that.  They say, "Come what may."  I wish whatever was coming would just get here & turn off the house lights.  It should've been closing time a  long ways back.

Yay, look at me ushering in the holidays.  Take care.

Cya...

Short Days...

 

The dark outlasted the light yesterday.  The days are getting shorter & I'm trying not to focus on it.  The sun's nearly gone by just after 7 PM.  The Harvest Moon took Summer & the light.  Maybe it took some of the harshness with it as well.  

Having less fans on is a mixed bag.  There's lower electric use & less fan drone, but there's a lot more background & outside noise now.  The fans muffle a lot of other sound.  Now, it's back to relearning what the normal sounds are, so I can tune them out. 

Of all the birds to come back, it's either a mockingbird or catbird.  Their loud calls are similar.  It's sort of amazing such a small bird can make that much noise.

Like it or not, Fall is here.  I hope I do better this year.  I'm not asking for well, that's a biggie, just better.  A couple more days & Sucktember will be over.

Take care.

Cya...

Less...

 

Due to the orange stain, a lot of funds have been threatened or completely cut.  This has impeded the fight against HIV.  There have been articles talking about the impact; less testing, less treatment, clinics closing, etc...  So far, I haven't seen any of them giving actual numbers.  Some of this is happening now, more is likely to follow.  This administration is crippling the work done regarding HIV.

Sorry, this is a bit vague.  But there hasn't been a lot of solid citations made yet.  These pieces are purporting ongoing actions & those apt to come.  I'll try to be more direct if the information becomes available.

That's it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Less...

 

The 2020's have not been good for me.  It started with Covid.  That caused a lot of hell & the stores have never been the same.  A lot of things I used to buy are never coming back & the prices have soared.

Bit by bit, things have been taken or lessened.  The quality of a lot of things has gone down.   Out internet company is new but sucks.  There's other medical providers & mechanics.  All the tethers we use to ground ourselves are being cut, few by us.

The last couple of years saw my diversions plummet.  Netflix killed DVD's & most of their streaming shows are pretty awful.  Then there were the 2 Hollywood strikes & nothing's recovered from that.  I'm not sure it will.   The comics I read are losing their appeal due to bad writing & art.  

The yard may have cats, but other than the occasional skunk & pissy mockingbird, that's about it.  We lost several flowering bushes & the flowers didn't do well this year.  There have been some lightning bugs but not like last year.  

Time is running out on the best show of the backyard.  I've seen no hummers, bunnies or dragons.  Some could still show, but it's less likely as Summer passes & it gets hotter.  

My health is not doing any better.  Everything takes more & I accomplish less.  Even fixing a small meal, leaves me feeling a wreck.  Things just keep pecking & demanding.

The 2020's have taken my diversions, distractions, my little joys.  They've been replaced with a crappy circus of conservative BS & religious rhetoric.  Great, another election year & olympics.   More stress & less joy.  I wish every conservative & aggressive religious type would fall over & be done.  Then I might have something to smile about.

Cya...