Less & Less...

 

There's only 2 weeks until Christmas & not even 3 left in 2025.  Every year there's less of the holiday season.  The stores start pushing sales in October, but few are decked out or playing music.  The local Walmart  has no decorations up & I haven't heard a single holiday song.  I mostly haven't heard any music there.  There haven't been any bell ringers or even Angel Trees.

It's not just the stores, it's TV as well.  There aren't many holiday specials shown.  Most are on cable/pay channels.  There's are many specials that haven't aired in years.  I see pictures of local parades & calling them lacking would be an understatement.  My neighborhood has never been really lit up for the season, but there used to a few.  Now there's only 1 house & I can't see it because of a neighbor's giant, work trailer.

I'm not much for the holidays, but the lights, music & cheer made this season better.  It made this part of Winter tolerable.  I guess it's just a bah humbug world.

Cya...

A Want..

 

There are a lot of things I'd like in this world, too bad most of them seem highly unlikely to ever be a reality; like enough resources to feel secure.  It was good sleeping weather last night & I got some much needed rest.  I'd like not have to be so dependent on the whims of nature as to how I sleep.  But that isn't something in my life.

So, I'm thinking of something that should be possible.  Whatever the estimate, it's always over a 1 million people in the US who are HIV+.  The virus is over 4 decades old.  Other than testing (done at labs) & new meds (pharmacy), little has changed since 2000.  Why do I still need a specialist?  Why isn't HIV treatment as available as anything else at your primary care's office?  It's time for this to be so common you don't need specialist.  Mine hasn't offered any new information on my illness in over decade.

Just my thoughts & wants.  I want enough to be secure & to no longer have to go to a specialist for my HIV.  At least part of that seems feasible.

Cya...

Grey December Sunday...

 

We managed to get through yesterday without any disasters.  I wonder how long that will last.  We watched A Charlie Brown Christmas  last night.  We've  seen it & Rudolph, so the season's underway.  

It's a grey morning.  It's raining a little.  We have quite a ways to go before we meet out rainfall average for the month.  

Tomorrow we'll handle the 1st of the month stuff.  Other than routine things like that, nothing else is planned.  There are tentative holiday plans.  They may or may not pan out.  We'll have to wait & see. 

Just a note. There's still nothing I like about cold weather.   

Take care.

Cya...

So Special...

 

In the early years of HIV in the US, most HIV+ were categorized as Gay, junkies, social undesirables or unfortunate medical outcomes.  For a long time there  were no meds or even tests.  They didn't even have a  good name for it.  When they did, precious little was there to help a + person.   HIV was mostly a death sentence.  People begged for help, meds & just not to be ostracized.  Even by the time I was diagnosed, massive cocktails were still common & it was thought I'd have no more 5 years.

I live in a rural  area with very little resources & none directly for HIV.   It hasn't been 5 years that I've been able to get my meds locally.  Before, it was a nightmare dealing with ordering meds via the mail.  Now we have telemedicine, before I had to drive 2+ hours up & back to see a specialist several times a year.

Now, there are groups out there demanding special treatment, just so they'll get their HIV dealt with.   Because they're not White or they're trans, they feel they should be treated better those silly 80s & 90s Gays who stupidly got HIV.  F**K them, if they want to understand intersectionality try being a poor, Gay kid in rural Oklahoma in the 80s.  

So sweety, you want pretty words & kit gloves.  Too bad, suck it up & deal with what you've got.  Be happy, these meds & technique are here now.  Be grateful there's anyone even willing to help you at all.  Because in the not so distant past, none of that was there & people just died.  If it wasn't communicable, I'd say just let you die off.  But you wouldn't, you'd spread like needy zombies.

HIV meds are here, resources are fairly common in urban areas.   Whether or not a person uses them is up to them.  Just like whether of not they use protection & practice safer sex.  Like whether or not  they choose not to spread HIV after they're diagnosed.  You aren't special, you're HIV+.

Rant over, take care.

Cya...

Specials & Cold...

 

There's not much happening this morning.  We saw our 1st Christmas special of the season last night.   Starting tomorrow night & for the foreseeable forecast,  the overnight temps will be under freezing.  Maybe it'll at least kill off some of the bugs & grass.  It's time to add more blankets.

That's about it for now. Be kind & be safe.

Cya...