5 Mornings In...

 

I don't handle seasonal or time changes well, especially not when it's dark so early.  This time of the year leaves me frazzled & exhausted.   It wears on me quick.  Then there's the colder temps.  I'm pretty sure this how you get to a frozen, tundra in hell that never sees the Sun.  

The new PC is coming along slowly.  Every setting is just every so slightly changed, making things just a little more challenging.  The new monitor should be in today.

Maybe by next week, I'll have adjusted to this standard time BS.  Take care.

Cya...

November's Here...

 

November showed up with baggage.  It's started with a time change on a dreary Sunday morning.  I need to setup the new PC, but it's such a pill.  Getting all the systems to talk to each other again is never fun.  It'd help if it were brighter & less muggy.  

I have no real plans for the holiday season or am I that revved up about them.  Halloween was barely a blip on the radar this year.  I can count the number of house's I saw decorated on 1 hand.  I drove through a part of Fort Smith, that used to go full out for holiday decor; not a thing, not even a pumpkin. 

There probably won't be any cheap chocolate this year.  There wasn't last time around.  The stores are ordering less & most of it is just normal candy in different wrappers.  Maybe holidays are becoming a thing of the past.  I'll miss the decorations & lights.  They were some of the few things that made this hellish time of the year bearable. 

I'm 2 months into being 60 & it sucks.  Nothing has gone as well as it should.  More stuff keeps getting worse.  It'd be nice if this election did something positive, but it probably won't.  Just a 133 days until daylight saving time.  Just 4+ months of hating this.

Do better November.

Cya...

DST Has Arrived...

 

There's a lot going on in our lives & a lot of it isn't great.  I have & will post more about that, but not today.  Something I've been waiting for has happened, the time change.  I'm normally not a fan of time or seasonal changes, they're hard on me.  It'll still be rough for me, but at least there's a chance for more sunlight.   My SAD won't magically disappear, but this could help with that.  

Maybe tomorrow I'll post about gloom & doom, but not now.   There's an extra hour of light in the afternoon.  It won't start getting dark at 4 PM.  I want the dark of the year in my rearview mirror.  Maybe other things can start looking forward as well. 

That's all for now, Take care.

Cya...

It's Here...

 

There were a lot of articles out, but most were the beginnings of ongoing research.   These were brief bits about what researchers are looking at, not what they've found.  A new research technique or method is important, but not a topic for a lay article.  Maybe when these ideas are fleshed out, they'll be something.

This was not an easy morning, but nothing this week has been.  It stormed hard all night & the noise kept waking me.  It's still dark & raining, so waking is has been difficult.   It figures this would happen this week.

Tonight is the time change.  We'll have more light.  Still, I never do well with the changes in the beginning.  This last few weeks have made sure it'll be harder than it needed to be.  There are some things that could've made the ongoing processes so much easier, but instead they added hazards & roadblocks.  To all that hindered us, whatever they may be, may only the worst of things come your way.

That's it.  Articles aren't ready.  Loud storms suck.  There's been too much on the plate.  Some people need to fall in a hole & never climb out.  Dark mornings are horrible.  At least the time change is here.

Take care.

Cya...

Not Handled Well...

 

The time change happened last week & I never handle them well.  Add to that, all the issues happening right now.  We have a lot going on & the government crap is still happening.  Our area is supposed to get it's 1st freeze tomorrow, oh joy.  

The change of light is being rough.  Now, it's dark by 5:30.  That'll be 4:30 in December.   Being dark that early throws me off.  We still have 120 days until this switches back. 

Between weather changes, the government crap, all the to-do's & the darkening, I'm not OK.   The biggest problem, there isn't anything I can do about any of it.  So, no, I'm not doing that great.

Cya...

They're Back...

 

2 things returned that I didn't want.  We've had overnights in the 30s.  Nobody in this house wanted that.   Then the damn time change happened.  It'll be dark at 4:30 soon.  They say it's for the children & school.  BS, it'll still be dark when most of these kids are going off to school.  What it will do, is make it so some people never see sunlight.  It's dark when they go to work & dark when they get out.  DST should be year round.  Make Winter hours if you want.  A lot of places had those when I was a kid.

The benefit thing is still up in the air.  The orange stain & his cronies are evil asshats.  They call themselves christians.  I guess they are.  That's how most religious people have always treated me.  Their disdain for everything is palpable.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Mostly Sprung...

This is going to be brief.  The time change happened & all the clocks were reset.   Too bad, it had to be dark & rainy this weekend.  That's not making this easy.  Still it's done.  There's just some normal stuff, so this week should be a lot easier.   

Still trying to wake up, so that's about it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Well That Figures...

 

This isn't going to be the most pleasant weekend of time change.  Instead having a sunny morning to spring forward into, it's going to be a dreary, rainy crap weekend.  Dark mornings are manageable, these drearfests aren't.  

There isn't a lot more to post about this morning, so take care.

Cya...

Goodbye January 2025...

 

This is the end of January 2025.  It wasn't the worst month.  It'd been nice with less cold & not getting the orange stain.  We did finally get our furniture in, so that's a plus.

There are 37 days left until the time change & 48 until Spring.  There remain 1,449 days of dealing with the orange stain.  Maybe it will die soon, it's way past it's expiration date.

I've posted on the topic of Kick & Kill for fighting HIV before.  This piece is a newer article on that.   It's not far along, but it could develop into something.

That's all for now, goodbye January.

Cya...

November Suck...

 

I didn't expect good things out of this month, but it's decided to be a real ass.  The house & car have needed work.  The time change happened.  It dumped  a massive amount of rain on us.  It's staying dark & getting colder.  We've been ill.  Everything is just picking at things.  Then the nation decided to give a refresher on how much it hates people like me; Gay, HIV+, single, on disability, poor, etc...

Not every night, but often, for as long as I can remember, I wanted the same thing when I went to sleep; to not wake up.  If I had to wake up, to at least not be me in my life.  50+ years later, I'm still here & cursing waking up.  There are no gods.  If there are, they're all sick & hateful things that get off on suffering.  Let me make something clear, life isn't precious or sacred.  It's just something you have to endure as long it lasts.

To all the people who voted to remind us how much you hate everything, just a reminder that everything probably feels the same way about you.   

Cya...

Last Day Of Light...

 

The days were already getting really short, less than 11 hours.  This is last day before the time change.  Tomorrow's sunset will be about 5:20.  Before it's over, there will be days people in school or with day jobs will barely see sunlight.  

I had a reprieve yesterday & felt better.  It didn't last.  I woke to a dark room & at 10, it's still dim out.  I don't feel great, I'm a bit foggy & dehydrated.   This time of year sucks.

It will be 127 days until the next time change.  I wish I could just sleep through it.  Little, if any, good happens during the dark of the year.  

My SAD has gotten to the point, that from late August through September & October I just feel this dread about the rest of the year.  It's very difficult to enjoy any of it.  I try very hard to stay in the now.  But, it's not always a very attractive option.  None of the above, should definitely be a choice in situations like those.

Take care.

Cya...

Fading With The Last Of It...

 

This is the last Sunday of October.   Halloween is almost here & to be honest, I don't really care.  I hate that.  This used to be my favorite holiday.  

So much of what I enjoyed is gone & what's left I can't muster much excitement for.  I should've never stayed long enough to see this.  I wonder whose sick joke it was for me to live this long.  Hell, it was probably mine.  Another plan that backfired.

It's hazy again this morning & I don't feel well.  I spent most of yesterday tired, achey & just feeling off.  I thought sleep might help, but it didn't.  

The light is almost gone & this is the last week before the hellish time change.  I'll lose an hour of light, just some morning asshats can have it.  Sunset next Sunday will be 5:41.  I hope that hour of morning light brings those damn morning people misery.

The dread is hear.  I don't know how well I'll fare this year.  The Summer was weak & frustrating.  I don't have high hopes for the dark seasons this time around.  It's really hard to be this exhausted & out of it all the time & the season's just beginning.

That's all for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Adjusting...

 

While I do enjoy the extra light after the time change, it does come with some downsides.  For me, that's primarily noise.  Since the sun starts shining earlier everything thinks it's time to make a ruckus.  For the birds, early morning idiots & even the kitten; the make all the noise sign lit up.  

I will adjust & relearn to tune it out.  For now, it's annoying & waking me up.  When it gets warm enough, the fans will be on & they buffer a lot.  Until then, I'll do my best to ignore it & go back to sleep.

There always has to be a downside, doesn't there?  That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Clock Sprung, I Didn't...

 

The clocks moved forward last night.  I didn't do much in the way of springing any direction this morning.  I'm not loving this at the moment, but I'll like the light later in the day.  At least it's bright on this chilly morning.

This has been an odd week with a lot of stuff happening.  After tomorrow, this upcoming week should be calmer.  I hope it is.  The kitten goes to the vet in the morning & then we go shopping.  We'll have to pick him up later in the day.

Other than some normal weekly stuff those seem to be our plans for the week.  That's it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Chilly Forward...

 

This weekend looks to be colder.  It'd been nice to have been warmer as we spring forward with the time change.  I'm not going to enjoy this transition, but I will appreciate the light later in the day.  

We don't have much planned for the weekend.  The week was a bit much for us.  On Monday, the kitten will go visit the vet for his fixing.  Past that, everything seems to be back track for our normal. 

That's it for now.  Take care.

Cyya...

Offense...

 

Being offended at something seems to be the ticket to conversation these days.  I try not get offended at things since they weren't generally aimed at me.   However sometimes I wonder are these people really offended.  Maybe they're dealing with hurt feelings,  injured egos or a dissonances in expected realities.  

There's been a lot in the recent past that's bruised my feelings & my ego.  I'm usually not taken in by the dissonance, but the wasn't the case last night.   Last night I was offended or at least it felt that way at the time.

I was going to the kitchen & noticed how ridiculously dark it was outside.  Then I looked at the clock & it was just 6 PM.  For a moment I was just so offended.  How could it be this dark already?  It wasn't just evening dark either, it was pitch outside.  There was cloud cover, so the night sky was a void.  

I hate the early dark.  It's that way by 5:15PM now & will only get earlier.   After being used to have light till about 9PM, this isn't the loss of an hour, it's nearly 4.  On top of that even the morning light is also waning, no matter what the time trick says.

Depending where you are in the northern hemisphere, by Yule, the days will shorten to a brief  7 - 8 hours.  After MidSummer having between 15 - 16 hours of daylight.  That's half the light, no surprise people go nuts.  It's no wonder at the offense.

Technically, I wasn't offended.  There was no great moral or ethical outrage.  I was just caught of guard & surprised by the situation.  I can dislike the dark days, but I can't really be offended by them.  They aren't sentient.  This wasn't aimed at me.  So, I have no real offense with the dark days.  But, I do have plenty of hate.  I hates it forevers.

Cya...

WTF Long Dark...

 

I hate the 1st day after falling back due to the time change.  It was dark before 5:30 & by 7 PM it felt like the longest night of the year.  There's something about the dark this time of the year.  It's just so much more bleak.  There's more haze & cloud cover.  There's few stars shing through, so it's darker. 

Besides the light levels, it messes with my sense of time.  I felt like I'd been up forever last night before I went to bed.  I hadn't, it's just how I react to these fall backs.  Hopefully, I'll adjust to it.  I didn't the last few & my time has been really off.   

I wish they'd just leave it so we have more light later in the day.  I don't care about mornings, half the time they're overcast anyway.  Most people are rushing to school or work, so morning light wouldn't benefit as much as having it later.  But no one asked me.

Cya...

PS - The time change sucks.

The Dark Is Upon Us...

 

There shouldn't have been a fall back this year.  I was barely functioning as it was.  I woke up groggy.  It was too warm for covers yet not quite warm enough for none.  I hate this.  It'll be dark before 5:30 PM.  It's no wonder why people get weird this time of year.   They're at school or work from the dark of the morning until the dark of the evening.  There's little or no time in the sun.  People weren't meant for this crap.  I'd let go of every Winter holiday to get decide sunlight throughout the year.

For those of you who like this crap, yay... For the rest of us, the countdown is on, 126 days of this dark BS.  That should count as cruel & unusual punishment.

Cya...

Warmer Weekend...

 

It's a warmer weekend & we have nothing particular to do.  The crap time change happens tonight.   The dark of the year is officially on us.  For the next 126 days we'll have to deal with dark evenings.  I hate this.  To hell with the mornings.  Most of them, even during the Summer, were dreary, dismal crap.  This won't change that.  But a bunch of whiny morning people want this.  Morning people can't be trusted.  I'm convinced they're all either serial killers or conservatives.   Either way, they want to ruin your life.   Mornings will always suck.  Damned harbingers of whatever crap the day's going to throw at you.  So yes, the time change is here, oh just great.   There just isn't enough sarcasm or eyerolls to convey my disgust with that.

Cya...

Chilly Bright...

 

Our 1st shopping trip after the time change is at least on a bright morning.  The cold's back for a bit.  It'd be nice if this was the last week of it.  I'd like to get warm & get blankets handled.  Blankets are nice & all, but after a while they get cumbersome.   It's just like fans during the Summer, eventually they get annoying.

Nothing much is gong on here, so that's it.  Take care.

Cya...