So Far This Morning...

 

I'm angry this morning.  Yesterday could've been a good day, but it wasn't because of someone else's crap.  My computer worked, the car actually worked, shopping went well.  Still it sucked because the water was out.   Do you know what you can do in a town when the water's out, basically nothing.   

Even though there's commercials about  calling 811 before you dig because of utilities, they didn't.  What makes it worse, is they worked for the gas company.  They knew to call, but didn't.  The water went out at 10AM.  The break wasn't fixed until past 8PM.  It took over an hour to get any pressure.  Then almost 3  more for the water to run clear & not stink.  It wasn't until this morning, we had any water pressure.  So over 12 hours for the fix and 12+ more things to be close to normal.  

We went to Fort Smith & ate before going to a friend's for a bit.  The place we ate had gone down hill.  That's how things go over there.  We find a place & it's good or even great.  Then a few times later, it's not as good, then shortly after, it's just bad.  Inconsistency is the biggest problem with eateries in Fort Smith.  Then it's the ridiculous costs & subpar service.

That's it for this morning.  I'd like for today to go well, but storms are in the forecast.  I'm just hoping they're not bad.  We've had enough crap to last us for years to come.

Take care.

Cya...

Day 1 - New Blog Year...

 

It's still early days, but so far 2024 has behaved.  My roomie & I are apprehensive about the coming days.  2023 was a train wreck & we need at least a "doesn't suck" year.   A good year seems like a big reach.  Just a year where we're not losing so many things, not so much breakage, stress, worry & free falling.  It felt like I could never get my footing last year.  I'd just get to a bit more solid ground & it'd crumble.  

I don't think I can handle another year of that.  2023 left me exhausted.  I felt angry, scared & hurt.  The problem for most of our issues last year is that none it was our doing.  We did all the things we were supposed to; made the appointments, checked the boxes, crossed & dotted.  None of it mattered.  Things kept breaking, being taken away, disappearing.  If 2024 just doesn't suck, that's a great improvement over 2023.

It's my blog's new year.  It's also the anniversary of my father passing a few years back.  The weirdest thing about that is, I've had to realize I was fine with  it from the start.  Its sad someone died, but the concept of my father had died decades before.  This was just a voice I occasionally heard on the phone.   I'm glad he had other people who were involved in his life & will miss him.  That's just not me.  May his next life bring him some solace.  He needed it.

Take care & may 2024 go well for you. Try to be kind.

Cya...

1st Week Of October...

The 1st week of the month has passed.  It was 7 days of utterly stupid, preventable, unexpected, unnecessary, upsetting bullshit.  All of the BS was nauseatingly stressful.   Every last bit of the anxiety was avoidable.  None of it was our doing.   

That's the problem when people tell something wasn't personal.  It doesn't matter.   If it happened to you & you had to deal with it, does the aim matter?   Maybe it might later or for some reason.  But in the now, the crap is happening to you.  

None of the debacle that happened during the last bit was aimed at us.  Yet it hit us & stressed our lives.   We weren't thought about.  We weren't collateral damage.  We were caught in other people's actions.  There was no thought given to us at all.  It wasn't personal.  But it did personally affect us & we'll be  dealing with the effects afterwards.

This left us were sick & exhausted yesterday.  Hoping it's over for the moment.   Unclenching abit, so some of the anxiety could escape.  Don't tell me it wasn't personal, because I don't care.  I take anything that negatively affects my life & well being fairly personally.  Whoever is responsible should have the same & worse dumped on them.

We're trying to recover.  Take care.

Cya...

Bye Bye Hello...

 

February has ended & none too soon.  The last month sucked.  That month suffers from Short Month Syndrome.  February is the short, ugly, bald, fat man sitting in the corner plotting his revenge  on everyone for liking the other beautiful, proper length months better than him. 

Hello March, can we please do better.  A cut back on the drama would be nice.  Also, less cold weather please.  So here we go with March.

I have an appointment with telemedicine tomorrow.   We'll probably get our assistance renewal process underway this month.  I hate that, but it has to be done.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Yesterday Was A Thing...

Yesterday morning was hellish.  I was happy.   I'd dealt with an issue & it'd save us some time & effort.  Then I took a shower & all it all went to hell.  Everything in the house went wrong, decided not to work or actually broke.   It led to an afternoon of annoying errands & trying to resolve the new issues.  They're mostly handled now, but we're still exhausted.   

Here's hoping today is better.  Take care.

Cya...

So Long 2016...

I've discussed 2016 enough, so long, farewell, get the hell out of here.  You were not a fun year.  You were a fairly devastating year.  I can only hope 2017 is better than you.  I hate ending on a bad note, but 2016, you've left little choice in the matter.  It's not me, it's definitely you.  Good bye.

I have very little left to say about the matter.  I can only cross my fingers & wish that next year is better.  I have little reason to believe that, but it's what I have left.  

I've been here for 5 fricking decades.  I've faced a lot of crap in my life, a lot of which I caused.  But those times concerned me.  This last year, the proverbial shit-storm hit everybody, even those that haven't realized it yet.  2016 is a debt that everyone will have to pay 1 way or another.

So go celebrate the new year.  Maybe the revelers will give the new start the strength to be something wondrous.   Have fun & be safe.

Cya...

2016 Needs To Go...

According to Helen Mirren, "2016 has been a big pile of shit."   OK, she was reading the prompter on The Graham Norton Show, but I think it's still true.  This year sucked.

We've had all the political BS.  We've dealt with massive racial issues.  The crisis in the Middle East is still roiling & spilling onto the rest of the world.  Loads of dearly loved famous people have died.  The environmental issues.  The lack of serious improvement in the economy.  The fact people are readily willing to prove just how hateful & insane they can be on a regular basis.   All this & more has made 2016 possibly the worst year I've seen in my lifetime.  That's including the year I was diagnosed with HIV.  Then it was mostly just my life that was sucky, not everyone else's as well.

I hope this year has its bags packed.   Saturday at midnight, 2016 is getting kicked to yesterday's curb.   Even the good things that happened in our lives got overshadowed by the crap that was 2016.

Cya...

Bad Sleep...

The weather continues to be an issue. It stormed loudly all last night.   Between the noise & atmospheric yuck, I was awake a lot of the night.  I feel fairly crappy.   With any luck, the weather will settle down a little & I can get some decent sleep tonight.    I really hope so.  We went shopping this morning & it wasn't fun.  I'm worn out from the effort.   I"ll close for now.  Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.

Cya...

Update...

Yesterday's specialist appointment sucked.  It was awful in many ways.  I was in the office for an initial meeting for over 2.5 hours.   The staff was not helpful & some were abrupt to the point of being rude.   The doctor was invasive, judgy &overbearing.  He made me very uncomfortable.  Unless he's suddenly in my town & the last doctor I can see, I won't ever see this man again if I can help it.

I talked to my primary care physician's nurse today about changing back to Tulsa.  She said I'd just need to make an appointment.  I never cancelled my next meeting with them, so I'm on to head back to Tulsa.  Better driving to Tulsa than dealing with that other doctor.

My nerves are still shot.  I was having problems focusing, so I decided to start some yard work.  I didn't do much.  I only got the few shrubs in the front.  Still, it wore me out.  

I've got some things to tend to this afternoon, so that's all for now.

Cya...

Yesterday...

I am not a fan of yesterday.   I allowed myself to think the series of breakages would be confined to April. HAH!  Yesterday was stressful because a standard thing with the car turned into a big thing.  A $600 thing.  We don't need that.  But, here it is.  I'm not sure how we'll deal with it but I'm sure we will.  The problem is with the AC & after last summer I can't say I'm surprised it's on the fritz.  The van is a 2001 & in car years that's 12 years old.  Some things are bound to break.

Still, yesterday sucked & it drained the life out of my day.  I did not need to hear that then or ever for that matter.  It seems that everything around me is in a constant state of breakage & I'm really tired of it.  It's stressful & I don't need anymore stress in my life.  It messed with everything yesterday.  Yes, I know, I let it mess with everything.  But I'm way past that last straw.

To top it off, the cat I took in to have the hole in his head fixed go into another fight & has another gash on his head.  This time he's on his own.  I don't have the $ to deal with it again.  Heaven knows what else is going to break this year.  So much for getting anything I wanted done for myself this year.  I know I'm whining, but I'm really just tired of this crap.   Something is going to have give.  I'm still processing yesterday, fleas & cat crap.  Hopefully I'll be in a better place tomorrow.  This last week has sucked.

Cya...