July Lasts...

 

The last days of July are here, no more Saturdays.  This Summer is going too quickly.  Other than being hot, it hardly counts as a Summer.  It's been hazy, dark or rainy so much of the season.  This fall isn't going to be fun.   Then again, these days what is?

There's so much I'm anxious about & nothing I'm looking forward to.  I'm not seeing much in upcoming movies.  Most of the things to-do aren't that great or are expensive & still not that good.  Fun seems to be going extinct, at least for me.  It's really tiring.

That's all for now, take care.  

Cya...

Down Thursday...

 

It's bright & warmer.  It could be a nothing day, that'd be nice.  A friend's over for a bit.  But other than that, there's nothing happening for us.  It'd be nice if it stays that way.

The back half of the month will be busier.  I have a  regular medical check up.  Then the next week, I have a dental cleaning.   Other than normal stuff, that should be it.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Maybe A Nothing Day...

 

I'm really hoping, other than taking trash out, this is a nothing day.  We've been going a lot, the weather's been bad & there's been so many other issues pop up.  The car's at the shop, I think the phones are working & I can't think of anything else that needs attention.  I'm cold, tired & frazzled.  I need a moment, actually a lot of moments.

I saw an article about HIV funding at the federal level.  It looks like good news.  Florida seems to be backing away from mass cuts, but other states aren't.   I also  saw this piece about explanting or the removal of breast implants.   It doesn't have anything to do with HIV, but it was a good read on a serious health concern.  Give them a look.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Gloomy Thursday...

 

It figures on the day there nothing for me to do, it turns dismal.  There could be storms today.  We need rain, but not worse.  There's not much to do today; trash is gone, bills are paid & meds have been picked up.   

That's about it for this morning.  Take care.

Cya...

Our Nothing Day...

 

It's a nothing day for us.  This has been a busy week, but shopping, bills, appointments & car stuff have been handled.  For a moment we get to hit pause.  It'll all start again tomorrow.  It'll be another Sunday shopping day, because I have a dental appointment on Monday.  The rest of the week is filled with appointments, errands, shopping & possible guests.  Maybe we'll slow down after that for a bit.  

It's going to get into the 50s today & it's bright out.  I"m trying to look for the good things.  That's not always easy.  But, for now, we have nothing to do outside of the house today.

Take care.

Cya...

Maybe Nothing Much...

 

Other than driving my roomie to something, my day should be free.  I hope it stays that way.  These last 2 weeks have left me winded.  I didn't even do much yesterday, besides get around a little earlier.  It's my roomie doing most of the appointment stuff.  I do have a dental appointment next week, but that should be relatively easy.

Here's hoping my day stays event free.  Take care.

Cya...

October Saturday...

 

It should be a do nothing day.  We need that.  This last month has been busy & stressful.  We'll have to deal with the car again on Monday.  I hope this new place can figure out what's going on with it.  Other than the car, finishing bills & errands is all we have planned for the week.

Take care.

Cya...

Repeatables...

 

The beginning of the month is here.   Tomorrow will  be a bank run, shopping & errands.  We got the car bak with no new info, just a referral to a place with better diagnostics.  We'll go there on Monday.  Maybe they can figure out what's up with it.  

That's about it for for now.  There may be more appointments, but they haven't been made yet.  For now, it's a nothing day.  

Take care.

Cya...

For The Moment...

 

The nights have had soaring humidity levels.  This has caused my feet to swell.  It's been rough keeping my feet in good shape this season.   After all that, I wake up dehydrated.  Oh well, that's the time of year.  It'd be nice if the humidity & ragweed died down some.

For me, at least, today's mostly a nothing day.  My roomie has an appointment in town.  That may or may not develop into more on the the to-do list.  But for now, my day looks fairly easy.   Maybe that'll hold.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Cautiously Forward...

 

I'm taking yesterday as a win.  Even if all we got was nothing going wrong.  After this Summer, this month so far, nothing going sideways is a major deal for us.  The weather wasn't bad & we just stayed home.  It was needed.  We're still spent & need more days like that, but it was a nice start.

My roomie's redo appointment seems to have gone well.  My labs are back & they look as good as they ever do for me.  Neither of us have any appointments until September.  That leaves shopping & errands for the rest of the month.

Tomorrow starts my last week of being 58.  This hasn't been an easy year, but I don't remember an easy year in the 2000s.  It might've been better if Y2K had been a real thing.  Maybe it would have forced a different world into being.   I don't expect much out of my next year.  It's easier to be less disappointed when you don't really think anything good is coming anyway.

Here's hoping today is another nothing day.  Take care.

Cya...

Another Slow Sunday...

 

We don't have anything planned for today.  It'd be nice if nothing comes up.   It was hot yesterday & looks to be like way for the duration.  It is Summer.  If the haze, clouds & humidity would just move on for a while.  You can always tell someone who's not from an area with high humidity.  They'll be like, that's not that hot.  Then they face the heat & humidity & double over.  Wet heat, is so much worse than hot, drier air.  

Hope everyone's Summer is going well.  Take care.

Cya...

Mostly Nothing Saturday...

 

It looks to be a decent, do nothing day for me.  Those are rare, because something almost always sticks it's head up.  My roomie has an outing later, but I should be done, besides fixing food.

The only thing in the way of articles is how the orange stain is impacting everything in a bad way.  His stench is impacting research, prevention & lot more due to tariffs.  His grossness is truly vile.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Day After 1st Of The Year...

 

Again, another nothing day got interrupted.  This really pisses me off.  The stuff that happens could happen on any other day, but no, it has to happen on a day I just wanted to do nothing.  I'm tired of being understanding about it, knowing things need to get done, etc... BS BS BS. 

I was spent & just need a bright day of nothing to recharge.  It was going well until I heard the lawn guy mowing.  There went my day.  Now I had to deal with yard crap.  This yard is just another thing in my life that I seriously hate.  After all the noise, dust, debris, sprays & traipsing around the yard, I feel like crap.  

The damned yard is mowed, the skies are grey, it may storm & I feel like crap.  Another great damned midweek. 

Cya...

Maybe Quiet...

 

There's nothing going on this morning & I hope it stays that way.  It'd be nice to have a day of just being done with things & not having anything pop up or break down.  It's bright this morning & supposed to warm up into a nice day.   We need it.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Nothing Thursday...

 

There isn't much going on this morning & that's actually good for me.  We've been rushed & stressed most of the month.  Both of us needed a down day.  There wasn't much in the way of articles except for the disgrace of the orange stain.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

3rd Friday of The Year...

 

There's not much going on here.  It's supposed to get frigid this weekend into early next week.  We'll go shopping & check mail in a bit.  Other than that, we have no plans.  

It seems like everyone is holding their breath waiting to see what happens next.  Articles are scarce & real news is focusing primarily on disasters & wars.  Things to post about for this blog have been very limited.

Oh well, it's time for me to get around.  Take care.

Cya...

Not Good...

 

I didn't have a good day yesterday.   A lot of things just didn't go well.  Most of them weren't big, but they piled up.  I'm just done.  I can't fix anything, anymore.  But, that's who it'll fall to, me.  Because no one else is going to do it or much of anything else for me.  It's gotten passed the point of me just not wanting to.  It's really to, I just can't.  

This year has sucked & my birthday is this Sunday.  All I really want for it, is not to be here.  I don't think I can handle another year of this.  I'm just too broken & I may very well be missing pieces by now.  Other than my roomie & some cats, I don't have anything.  I'm trying to let those be enough.  But, there's nothing I want anymore except to get off this ride.  I'm tired, achy & usually scared.  This shouldn't be life.  I'm glad my parents are dead.  I hate them for condemning me to this life.

I should be in a better.  My labs did well.  It'll be cooling soon.  My birthday is near.  But, I just want to sleep & not wake up.   Abortion should be legal & highly recommended. 

Cya...

Hopefully Nothing...

 

All I want from today is nothing.  August hasn't been easy on me or mine.  We've had a ton of crap to handle, the weather's been rough & half of it we've spent sick or on the verge of being ill.   So, it'd be nice if today was actually just a complete nothing day.  Thursday could've been like this, but neither of us a good morning, then the lawn guy came & mowed.  Then I needed to handle some yard stuff.  So that day was blown.

Here's hoping the nothing holds for today.

Cya...

PS - Labs are back & look fine for me.

Just Another Thursday...

 

It's just a typical day so far.  My roomie is off to spend some time with a friend.   I'm here, not doing much of anything.  It's times like this I'm really reminded of how little there is left in my life.   My phone doesn't ring & I don't get text.  On the rare occasion either happens, it's spam, a wrong number, a bill reminder, bad news or something dealing with my health.   Other than my roommate & a few strangers here or there during outings, my health is all anyone talks to me about.  

I get really tired of talking about it.  Another reason to consider opting for no treatment when faced with a chronic illness.  You aren't a person anymore.  You definitely aren't you anymore.  You're just the face of whatever illness you have.  You're that person with HIV or whatever other ailment.

Although there's been some interesting diversions here or there, the 2000's have been a bust for me.  I should've never stayed this long.  The party & road may go on forever, but apparently somewhere along the line I made the mistake of getting off the bus.

Cya...

Check & Done...

 

The 1st of the month stuff is handled.  Our list is clear until the gas bill.  The other stuff hasn't come due yet.   We've done what can be done for now.  

That's my life now, routine items getting crossed off lists until the next cycle.  If it's not bills, it's medical stuff; doctor appointments, dental, eyes, meds, etc...  When it's not that, it's some crap show because something weird or bad happened & it'll probably cost a lot to get it fixed.  If not cash, then a lot of drama & stress. 

There hasn't been much for me to look forward.  I try to find things but they never come to fruition or just fizzle.  There's movies & comics I'll read look at just to have something to do.  But, they're just diversions & not something I'm really excited about.

It's to the point, if my phone rings it's either a wrong number, spam, medical crap or worse news.   I try to stay in the now.   I can't find things to look forward to & looking back just makes me sad.  I won't tell you that any point in my life was great.  But, there were points when I was less scared & stress.  There were points in my past, that even as bad as things could get, I still had things that I was looking forward to.  I could still really laugh, find bits of joy & sometime even a little hope.  

I think that's all gone.   Like the hummers & bunnies, that's just another memory.  I finally saw a dragon a few days back.  It kept circling me like it wanted to be seen.  It was black with black wings with white bands near the wingtips.   It made me smile for a bit, maybe not every little thing is gone.

Cya...