The Worst Part...

 

The worst thing I do in a day is generally the worst part of my day & that's waking up.  It's such a massively stupid thing to do.  There's no good in it.  At least not for me.  

I've been trying to do well, but I'm not succeeding.  It's another dismal day & it doesn't look like there will be much sunlight until it's blazing.  Yesterday was OK until a Windows update.  My PC was working OK until then & now the media streaming service keeps turning off.  I can fix it, but I'll have to do it every time until this corrects itself.  Maybe the next update will do it.

Sleep wasn't easy last night.  There was a lot of noise.  The air was thick & the forecast rain never came.  It was just muggy.  I woke weird this morning & I'm achy & groggy.

In all seriousness, screw mornings, waking & crappy overcast skies.   I could've just never woke up & never known any of this.  But I had to wake up.

Cya...

Appointment, Again & Ugh...

 

My medical appointment went as expected, no surprises.   I scheduled the next time.   Now on to my midweek dental cleaning.  Then my stuff can be handled for a bit.  

Yet another dental office is being reported as a possible exposure site for HIV.  This piece says a  Philadelphia dentist office had possible exposures of bodily fluids between patients.   More details haven't been provided at this time.

I finally sleep well after 3 nights.  It'd been nice to wake up to a nice day, but no.  It's still raining & dark.  May have been such a sucky, dark month the last few years.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

I manaed to 

Appointment Recap...

 

My appointment went well.  She did a routine thyroid test. It's a little out of range for this lab, but not bad.  It's been higher & my meds weren't altered.  Overall, it went smoothly.  It's just the day that sucked. We get over an inch of rain.

It's brighter this morning, but we're heading into cooler weather.  Midweek could be getting into frigid, overnight temps again.  It'd be nice if it didn't or at least not last long.

Thanksgiving is next Thursday & Christmas is a little over month out.  Nothing feels like the holidays any more.  I see stuff at the store, but it doesn't feel like anything but a cash grab.  Maybe that's all it ever was.

That's all for now, take cae.

Cya...

Cleaning Handled...

 

My dentist appointment went OK yesterday.  I will need a couple of small fillings.  It's been years since I"ve had to have anything besides a cleaning.  Best to get it handled now, while it's a minor thing.  That'll happen the beginning of December.

The government shutdown has come to an end.  I'm not sure how soon things will return to normal for benefits.  We'll see how badly this screwed everyone over.

That's it for today.  Take care.

Cya...

Slight Change...

 

The government shutdown is still impacting us, but there's been a slight change.  It's a delayal, not a fix.  Maybe something can happen in the meantime.  These politicians aren't looking at the people at the bottom of this dogpile.  The people on top are irritated.  Those in the middle are feeling some constraint.  The ones at the bottom are getting crushed.  Not that these senators & congress people care.  It's just a game to them.

It's a dark, windy morning. We have stuff to do today, less than expected but still a lot. 

Take care.

Cya...

Worn Down...

 

I'm to the point where doing much of anything seems like a monumental effort.   This Summer sucked.   The weather was mostly dismal or blazing, yet still somehow dark.  Among all the appointment, our youngest cat passed.  Then the other had to go to the vet.  There were the endless trips of taking the car to fixed.  This Summer cost us.  

Then the days got shorter & the damn 'Ber months showed up.  There was my hellish birth month.  It's dark earlier & I've had to get the house ready for Winter.  The yard is handled & most of the house is closed up.  Each window I closed felt like I sealing myself further into some dark hole.  There's no breeze, little light, no fans to buffer noise, it's just grey.  Soon, the time change will happen & make it all worse.

2025 is in the top 5 of my worst years.  Now this orange stain & his asshat army have screwed up & my benefits will be suspended.  His followers have no sympathy, decorum or grace.  It'd be nice if there was a plague to end them all.  If that happened, I bet they be better treated than they would've treated anyone else.

I'm barely doing anything.  If given the option for a good out, I can see myself happily taking it.  There are things left for my roomie, but not me.  There hasn't been for some time.  If all I can muster is just an anxious existence than I'd rather not.

Sorry for the downer.

Cya...

Swing Weather...

 

The weather has been swaying back & forth from warm to cold, high to low humidity, & varying light levels.  Mabon or Autumn equinox may nearly 3 weeks away, but Fall weather is here.  It's shifting from 60s at night to nearly 90 during the day.  The humidity is ranging from 30% - 90+%.  It's so cloudy, the light's shifting throughout the day. 

All of that plus ragweed is making things hard.  Pour on some car drama & I not doing so great.  It'd be nice if something could just cooperate.  That's not going to happen.

Had my telemed appointment.   Everything went as expected.  They want me to get the shingles vaccination.  I'll see about getting that started.  It's a 2 dose process.    I'll see them again in 6 months.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Cautiously Forward...

 

I'm taking yesterday as a win.  Even if all we got was nothing going wrong.  After this Summer, this month so far, nothing going sideways is a major deal for us.  The weather wasn't bad & we just stayed home.  It was needed.  We're still spent & need more days like that, but it was a nice start.

My roomie's redo appointment seems to have gone well.  My labs are back & they look as good as they ever do for me.  Neither of us have any appointments until September.  That leaves shopping & errands for the rest of the month.

Tomorrow starts my last week of being 58.  This hasn't been an easy year, but I don't remember an easy year in the 2000s.  It might've been better if Y2K had been a real thing.  Maybe it would have forced a different world into being.   I don't expect much out of my next year.  It's easier to be less disappointed when you don't really think anything good is coming anyway.

Here's hoping today is another nothing day.  Take care.

Cya...

Brighter & Warmer....

 

It's brighter & supposed to be warmer today.  Tomorrow will drop back down to a high seasonal temp & things should settle for a bit.  There may be storms this weekend.  

We don't have much planned today.  It's just some errands & stuff.  A Windows update has been fighting with my antivirus.  I may have found a work around.  

That's about it this morning, take care.

Cya...

Getting Handled...

 

Most of the bills have been handled & appointments  kept.  That leaves end of the week shopping, a water bill & the time change.  This is being a tiring week for us. 

My telemed appointment went as expected.  There was a lab recap & vitals.  They did a cursory once over & set the next appointment.  So Dovato is doing it's job.  

While I'm happy for the time change, I'm ready for this week to be over.  That's it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Mostly In...

 

This is February's last Monday.  My labs are mostly in & as expected.  Hopefully, the rest of the month is non-eventful. 

My telemed appointment is the on the 5th.  The following weekend brings the time change.  The equinox is on the 20th.   It's time for Winter to go away.

It's a shopping day & my meds should be in.  We might do a run out to eat.   Other than that, it should be a nothing day.

Take care.

Cya...

Steps...

 

Things are moving forward for now.  My labs were drawn yesterday.  Over half of the results are back as expected.  I'm still waiting on the actual HIV related tests.  

I called the pharmacy & they said they could handle my Dovato again.  They'll need to have the script transferred back to them.  I'll call later & see if that went through.  If so, I should pick that up on Monday.

It is supposed to get into the 50s today.  That'll feel so much warmer.  15 days until the time change happens.  

Things are looking a little better for the moment.  I'm sure something else challenging will pop up soon.  But, for now, maybe I can be a little bit more at ease.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Movement...

 

There's some movement in things.  My lab orders came in late yesterday.  I'll get them handled this morning.  It's supposed to get over freezing today.  We'll need faucets dripping tonight.  After that, it should be above freezing.

I should find out which pharmacy I'll have to use tomorrow.   At least then I can place my order.  I need to get this handled. 

The cold, dark & heaters have been rough on me.  I need things to get warmer & brighter.  All of this is wearing me down. 

That's it for.  Take care.

Cya...

Melt Begins...

 

It'll be over freezing soon, but the sun's already shining.  The snow is starting to melt.   It needs to go. Yesterday wasn't a good day for me.  I didn't feel good & it got worse as the day went on.   So far, I'm feeling better.  I hope it holds.

I didn't notice any articles, so that's about if or this morning.   I'm trying to get better.  

Take care.

Cya...

Not Good Morning...

 

I'm actually feeling a bit worse than yesterday.   This was a busier week for me than it needed to be.  If yesterday's appointment hadn't been bumped, it wouldn't have been as busy of a week for me.  I had other things planned before the bump that still needed to happen.  All of that colliding, did me in.  

The medical appointment went fine.  It seems my new provider is a very check the boxes & move on type.  She's not unfriendly, just removed.  I can deal with that, it's just not what I'm used to.  I didn't have the best of experiences with their new lab tech.  Hopefully she gets better.

I need to get around & go shopping.  This day needs to be over already.  Take care.

Cya...

Over A Third Down...

 

A 3rd of September has already passed.  A few bills remain, but they're mostly online.  Today will be my 7th time taking Dovato.   

It's a dark morning.  There was some rain last night.  Unless there's a lot more rain than the forecast shows, we'll probably be short on rain this month.  We're over for the year, but we still need over 3" for this month.   

There isn't much going here today.   So this is it.  Most of the articles out were praising the efficacy of long acting, injectable HIV meds.  At the same time calling them problematic with their high costs.   The expense is putting them well out of the range of most of those who these meds.  Effective or not, unless something happens to the price, they might as well not exist.

That's all, take care.

Cya...

Hopefully Nothing...

 

All I want from today is nothing.  August hasn't been easy on me or mine.  We've had a ton of crap to handle, the weather's been rough & half of it we've spent sick or on the verge of being ill.   So, it'd be nice if today was actually just a complete nothing day.  Thursday could've been like this, but neither of us a good morning, then the lawn guy came & mowed.  Then I needed to handle some yard stuff.  So that day was blown.

Here's hoping the nothing holds for today.

Cya...

PS - Labs are back & look fine for me.

Done For A Bit...

 

At least for the moment, I've done what I can with what I had in front of me.  Now I wait for things to come back.  It's trash day & we have a couple of errands, nothing big (hopefully).  Other than that, this should be an easier day.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Some Progress...

 

Yesterday was hotter & we were out in it.  It didn't do wonders for how I felt.  Still, we managed to get some things handled.   The van is at the mechanics & will be most of the day.   We got the mail & our glasses were in.  We have new glasses with slightly altered prescriptions.  Neither of our scripts changed much.  

I'll have to get blood work next week.  My telemedicine appointment is in 3 weeks, just a few days after my birthday.  That's about as much as I have planned.

August is turning out to be busy & hot.  Neither aspect was wanted, still here they are.  That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Week Out...

 

It's a week out from my colonoscopy.  The prep wasn't fun, the procedure was easy, but the after hasn't been easy.  It's taken my body a bit to get back to normal.  The emotional ride of post sedation was something I wasn't expecting.   

As a adult, the only thing I've ever been put under for was having wisdom teeth extracted.  I don't remember having this reaction.  This time, I've been a wreck going from sad, regretful, angry, anxious, etc...  This has been the hardest part of this.

I think it's getting better, but it's taking a while.  Every little thing feels huge.  It's exhausting & unnerving.  I hate knowing things may be off, but not that off, still I'm having a melt down.  

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...