5 Mornings In...

 

I don't handle seasonal or time changes well, especially not when it's dark so early.  This time of the year leaves me frazzled & exhausted.   It wears on me quick.  Then there's the colder temps.  I'm pretty sure this how you get to a frozen, tundra in hell that never sees the Sun.  

The new PC is coming along slowly.  Every setting is just every so slightly changed, making things just a little more challenging.  The new monitor should be in today.

Maybe by next week, I'll have adjusted to this standard time BS.  Take care.

Cya...

November's Here...

 

November showed up with baggage.  It's started with a time change on a dreary Sunday morning.  I need to setup the new PC, but it's such a pill.  Getting all the systems to talk to each other again is never fun.  It'd help if it were brighter & less muggy.  

I have no real plans for the holiday season or am I that revved up about them.  Halloween was barely a blip on the radar this year.  I can count the number of house's I saw decorated on 1 hand.  I drove through a part of Fort Smith, that used to go full out for holiday decor; not a thing, not even a pumpkin. 

There probably won't be any cheap chocolate this year.  There wasn't last time around.  The stores are ordering less & most of it is just normal candy in different wrappers.  Maybe holidays are becoming a thing of the past.  I'll miss the decorations & lights.  They were some of the few things that made this hellish time of the year bearable. 

I'm 2 months into being 60 & it sucks.  Nothing has gone as well as it should.  More stuff keeps getting worse.  It'd be nice if this election did something positive, but it probably won't.  Just a 133 days until daylight saving time.  Just 4+ months of hating this.

Do better November.

Cya...

Fall Equinox 2026...

 

That's all folks, it may be still be hot, but Summertime has ended.   From a meh to hellish Summer we're heading into the dark of the year.   2026 has sucked so far, there's no reason to think the remaining 100 days will prove any better, gentler or kinder.

Goodbye Summer, you were mostly awful.  Hello Fall.  I'm sure you're just waiting to show everyone how a bad season is really done.  It'd be great if something nice happened this season.  I doubt it will, still it'd be pretty agreeable.

Let the leaves & twigs stay where they fall.  It's nature's art & helps the little things.

Take care.  

Cya...

Rough Tuesday Morning...

 

It's hot & I woke up feeling awful this morning.  The forecast keeps promising in just a few days this will change.  I wonder if this damn heat will ever leave.  I'm not doing well.  I'm dehydrated, exhausted & here's old timey word for you, discombobulated.  This heat undid in a few hours what a couple of good night's sleep managed to restore.  Sucktember choose sweltering heat as it's form of violence this year.

That's all for now.  I'm too scattered to try for more.  Take care.

Cya...

Maybe Cooler Soonish...

 

If the forecast holds, it could start cooling down by  Thursday.  Next week, temps over 100° could be gone for the season.  We might even see some upper 80s.  I want a cool down, but not a crash.  Sudden temp changes are rough on things, mainly me.

We got a blitz rain yesterday, not quite 0.5".  It didn't cool anything significantly & added to the humidity.  We could get more rain later in the week.  

This Summer sucked.  The 1st half was dark & raining.  The last of it was hazy, overly bright & too blasted hot.   I guess that's just what the season is now.

Take care.

Cya...

It's Still Here...

 

It's still hot & humid.  It looks to be that way for at least a week.  The forecast will probably change again, making longer.  For any climate change deniers out there, find a high cliff & jump.  Take a walk into the ocean & keep going.  I guess you could just opt for petting a buffalo, tiger or bear.  Either way, just be done with yourself.

September is sucking in a different flavor this year.  Swelter isn't usually on the menu.  I've got a feeling, it might be going forward.  Thanks people.

That's it for now.  After last night, I need a shower.  I'm tired of being salty & gritty.  It's been over a month since any significant rain.  The fire ban is on it's 4th week, maybe 5th.  This sucks.  Take care.

Cya...

Last Days...

 

This is the last day of August.  Weathermen consider it the last day of Summer.   2/3 of 2026 is behind us & the 'Brr months begin.  This is also mine last day being 59.

Here's hoping nothing screws up today or tomorrow.  A hold for the rest of September would be awesome.  I can't remember the last time that month didn't suck for me. 

We had a friend over last night.  It went well.  We have plans for most of the week.  Shopping, bills, errands, appointments, etc..   Tomorrow we'll try to do birthday stuff, a movie & something to eat.  Maybe we can pull that off with any problems.

That's all for now, take care.  Goodbye August, you were too damn hot & no fun.

Cya...

Half Down, Half To Go...

 

It's the halfway point of the hell called August.  June was dark & wet.   July finally got brighter, the last half got hot.  August has been sweltering with mostly hazy skies.  The clouds linger til midday.  By evening they're back, holding in the humidity.  I'm really hating clouds this Summer.  They're just making things worse & bringing no rain.  There's been none of the 2.5" that's this area's average for the month of August.

I'm done for now, but I'm sure the heat gripes will continue for a while.  Take care.

Cya...

A Week In...

 

The week is winding down.   The local bills are handled, the rest is online.   It should be a nothing day.  Both of us could use that.  Things have been a little rough with the surge in heat, humidity & holiday smoke.  Maybe that will settle down some.

The internet went down again last night.  Optimum seriously sucks.  It's back on for now.  It'd be nice if they got their act together.  

That's about it for now, take care.

Cya...

The Worst Part...

 

The worst thing I do in a day is generally the worst part of my day & that's waking up.  It's such a massively stupid thing to do.  There's no good in it.  At least not for me.  

I've been trying to do well, but I'm not succeeding.  It's another dismal day & it doesn't look like there will be much sunlight until it's blazing.  Yesterday was OK until a Windows update.  My PC was working OK until then & now the media streaming service keeps turning off.  I can fix it, but I'll have to do it every time until this corrects itself.  Maybe the next update will do it.

Sleep wasn't easy last night.  There was a lot of noise.  The air was thick & the forecast rain never came.  It was just muggy.  I woke weird this morning & I'm achy & groggy.

In all seriousness, screw mornings, waking & crappy overcast skies.   I could've just never woke up & never known any of this.  But I had to wake up.

Cya...

Not Optimum & The Stupid Orange...

 

I was actually having a decent day yesterday & then it rained & we had to go shopping.  Walmart's parking lot was mostly fenced off so they could repave.  The open part was packed.  For some reason, with the parking lot, twice the shoppers seemed to be there.  

It was not fun.  But still, I was having an OK day.  I guess that was just too much for things.  About 5:30, the internet went down & stayed out until this morning.  Something just had to keep pulling at the threads & my decent day unraveled.  Maybe I'm just not supposed to have those.

I found an article that continues to show monstrous nature of the orange bastard & his ilk.  tRump has signed an executive order to end all AIDS funding to South Africa.  In this country where a rich, white minority created apartheid, a situation that's impact is still felt today, the orange feels white people are being treated badly.  There is no evidence of this.  White people are no longer being treated like nobility.  This is the country where some of the richest, white people come from like Elon Musk.

tRump also says it's because they opposed Israel's war, that they country shouldn't be helped.  The promise of US AIDS funds has been broken.  The administration may single-handedly bring back the HIV epidemic of the 80s.  Way to go MAGA.

Cya...

PS - It's the last day of Spring 2026 & it might find some sunlight sometime today, maybe not.  Spring was not a great season for me.

Pointless...

 

If I could rewrite this story, I'd end it on the night I graduated with my doctorate.   That was the last high point I had & even that wasn't great.  I knew I didn't have anything lined up after.  It's been downhill since & that was decades ago.  If I'd died then, there would've been some accomplishment,  acknowledgement.  It wouldn't have devolved into the crapfest of failure it became.  

I'd definitely ended it before I moved here.   That was a horrible decision.   I wouldn't have made it into the 2000's & got diagnosed.  At every point that there's been some sign of possibility the door has always closed; sometimes slowly, others slammed. 

The people of this state slammed another door last night.  They voted to keep the lowest possible minimum wage.  If I could, I'd move, but that's not really an option.  I'm pretty sure I won't be changing locations until I die.   The entire state's a trap.

To every asshat that voted against helping others make a decent living, your malignant selves are destroying the thing you say you love.  Talk about an abusive relationship.

Cya...

Hazy Meh...

 

Another June is being wasted by damned clouds & storms.  This morning has been aggressively hazy.  The neighbors were loud this morning & the humidity is still high.  It's supposed to storm more tonight.  Like we needed that.    

June 2026, you are sucking.  When did this month become nearly the darkest of year?  There's more light later in the day, but most of it is still dreary.  

Besides waking achy & dehydrated, that's my gripe for this morning.  Take care.

Cya..

Could've Gone Better...

 

This crappy 2026 Spring continues with more haze, drear & storms.   It's gotten hot, but any light has been fleeting.  This muggy, dark mess sucks.  It rained more last night.  A little more & it'll double the monthly rainfall average.  

Neither of us felt well yesterday.  I wound up forgetting something we planned on doing.  It'll have to get handled this morning on top of all the normal Friday stuff.   Way to go me, make more of a mess for yourself.

I need to get around.  We have shopping & errands.  Hopefully nothing else pops up.  

Take care.

Cya...

Still Dark In June...

 

Again June is a dark mess.  It's almost Summer & this looks like a morning in January.  Of course it had to storm.  It was supposed to last night & didn't.  That made sleeping less than pleasant.  I'm just tired of this.  Why the hell did I wake up?

I needed this dark crap to be over, but hey that doesn't matter.  The mood I've been in, the world could burn & I'd be fine.  I'm just too over this to care about much anymore.  I'm tired of being scared, anxious, stressed.  I'm just tired & pissed that I woke up.  

I have a 80s pin somewhere that says, "Life's a bitch & then you die."   That's not right.   Life is a bitch, but you don't just to die, you linger.    You don't thrive, you just exist.

That's it this morning.  To hell with June & its BS storms & drear.  Apparently there is no bright season anymore.  I hope all you cloud lovers choke.

Cya...

Not Good Morning...

 

I'm running late.  I didn't sleep well & jolted awake.   I got agitated when the net dropped out on us right before going to bed.  Then the outside noise kept waking me.  I fell back asleep & then overslept.  Noise startled me awake & now I'm running late.

Optimum sucks & is somehow worse than Suddenlink.  I blame the fiber.   Ever since they shifted to fiber, the net's been down a lot more & takes the cable with it.  The worst part of it is that's rarely an issue near us, they don't give not repair time estimates & they never say what happened.

I'd call Optimum rude, but you're mostly dealing with AI crap.  When you do get a person, they rarely have enough experience to help you.  That's if you can understand them.

That's all.  I need to head out.

Cya...

More More More...

 

We had a bit of good news Friday & I should've known that wasn't actually a good thing.   A single thing off our load & we got more dumped on us almost immediately.  Besides the ongoing issues with this damn house.  There's another health issue & the asshat bees have returned.  I can't do anything about either issue.  

We're still finding out things & who knows how long this take.   Of course the weather is supposed to crap out.  Add to all of this, a male cat has decided he's a singer & won't shut up.   He's been going all morning.

Yesterday was hard.  I'm not sleeping well.  I spent most of the day with a low, anxious buzz.  I'm so over it even my cheeks feel tired.  I'm want everything to shut up & work.  If this is all that's left in my life, just let me off the ride.

Cya...

Roomie Pickup...

 

Yesterday was no fun.  I took my roomie to her appointment & of course everything took at least twice as long as they said.   We thought I'd be out of there by 11 AM, it was past 2 PM.  I have to head back now to pick her up.  This is about it for now.

BTW - Optimum sucks.  The net was off again yesterday.

Cya...

No Net Again...

 

This will be a short post.  The internet is out & doing this with my phone is no fun.   The net has been out since 4 PM yesterday & they have no estimate for restoration.  

We have to go shopping & errands.  So far, the car is working.  We'll see if it holds.

I just really needed a day of no BS.

Cya...

Bad Morning....

 

It's been a bad morning.  The living room light is screwing up & we're having to figure a plan.  Of course, it's this week.  There's appointments & stupid holiday BS.  In addition, it's dark & probably going to rain for the next couple of days.  I hate mornings & I'm not fond of holidays at the moment.

Cya...