Maybe It's Time...

 

I try not to get too political on this blog.  I do express my opinions of the orange asshat & his cult of maga idiots.  But maybe I should take a bit to make a point.

Assistance for HIV meds & providers is being gutted in the US.  Ryan White programs are being impacted.  I'm not a big trans supporter, but what's happening in Kansas is disgusting.  If that state can do what they want, then it might spread to others & for other groups.  Some states are wanting the right not to recognize same sex marriages.

If any of this affects you or someone you know, thank the damn republicans.  If someone in your life voted for these people, then they voted against you.  It's that simple.  This is a midterm election year, make sure you vote.  They're trying to make it harder to vote.  All that means is that they're afraid of losing.  

This isn't just about Gays, trans or people of color.  It's about anyone who isn't a 1%er or above, conservative, straight, white man.  I doubt anyone meeting those criteria is reading my blog, so this is aimed at you.  Just vote.

Cya...

November Suck...

 

I didn't expect good things out of this month, but it's decided to be a real ass.  The house & car have needed work.  The time change happened.  It dumped  a massive amount of rain on us.  It's staying dark & getting colder.  We've been ill.  Everything is just picking at things.  Then the nation decided to give a refresher on how much it hates people like me; Gay, HIV+, single, on disability, poor, etc...

Not every night, but often, for as long as I can remember, I wanted the same thing when I went to sleep; to not wake up.  If I had to wake up, to at least not be me in my life.  50+ years later, I'm still here & cursing waking up.  There are no gods.  If there are, they're all sick & hateful things that get off on suffering.  Let me make something clear, life isn't precious or sacred.  It's just something you have to endure as long it lasts.

To all the people who voted to remind us how much you hate everything, just a reminder that everything probably feels the same way about you.   

Cya...

Crap Morning...

 

This is a crappy morning for several reasons.  1st off, it's morning & we are always contrary to each other.  My roomie is ill & I'm still not feeling well.  I was supposed to have a medical appointment right now, but it got rescheduled last minute.  It's now at a less convenient time next week.  If I'd known sooner, I could've schedule the repairman to fix the roof issue earlier.   But that would've been considerate.

Finally, we have proof that Democrats can't pick an electable candidate.  People choose that orange bastard over her.  He can do a lot of damage in 4 years.  I hate a lot of people right now.  But the Democrats have their own culpability here.  For too long they've lived in a world of ought-to-be's & wouldn't-that-be-nice's.  They've kept their heads in this pretty, rose colored version of should-be, instead of what actually was.  I don't think people voted for that bastard as much as they voted against her.

Maybe we'll get through this.

Cya...

Health Policies...

 

The election is coming up.  This point is simple, republicans are not good for healthcare, affordability, accountability or need based assistance.  They have touted reducing or getting rid of medicare, medicaid, Social Security, SNAP & like programs.  Put bluntly their policies make it clear they hate the poor & women.

This article is over Harris's health policies she's promoted so far.  I'm not going to say I agree with everything she's for, but it's a hell of lot closer to what I need than the other option.  If you or someone near you is in a position to need assistance or guarantees of good health options, then conservatives are simply a bad choice.

I've seen quite a few elections.  I know that no candidate will ever match up perfectly with what I'd like.  But, no other candidate has been further from the wants & needs of myself & those around me than trump.

Take care.

Cya...

That's Awkward & Stressful....

 

As if the election wasn't already stressful enough, Biden dropped out of the race.  It's not like he was getting a lot of support from anyone.  The very things they bitched about with him, he's done forever.  But some people think it's time to move on to a younger person.  I can't disagree with that, but the timing sucks.

I can't really even make comment about anything else with this at the moment, nothing's set.  It's most likely Harris, but the DNC hasn't stated that yet.  There's still the issue of most viable running mate. 

I was already nervous about this election.  Now, I'm even more so.  All I can do is vote for whoever isn't trump or a trumper.

Cya...

Day 2 of 366 & Last Day...

 

It's the 2nd day of 2024 & it's a leap year, so we get an extra day.  Great, a +1 for more political talk, since it's also an election year.  We can't forget the Summer Olympics either.  Well, actually you can.  I won't watch any of it & I'm sure I'm not the only non-viewer.  2024 will be a year of political & sports crap, oh joy.

Today is also the last day of my year as far as my blog & diagnosis are concerned.  Tomorrow will be their new year.   I've had hiccups in both.  The blog wasn't as strong as it could've been.  It hasn't been since COVID.  COVID is still very present among the articles concerning HIV.  The pandemic & it's after effects have caused hell for the fight against HIV & other communicable illnesses.  

There won't be any promises or resolutions for myself or the blog.  I'll do my best & hope things aren't like last year.  2023 was a year loss, breakage, stress, anxiety & anger for me.  It did a good job of reminding me of place in the scheme of things.  As far as most things are concerned, I'm not even on the social ladder.  I don't expect that to change, but maybe less things will constantly remind me of my station.

2 days into 2024 & so far, we're faring well.  Only 364 more days to manage.  Take care.

Cya...

Not Surprised....

 

Irritated, but not surprised.  Yesterday, a majority of the people showed how disgustingly predictable they were.   Americans & Oklahomans, both choose to dig deeper into the mire instead of looking for a way out.  A lot of voters were party zealots.  Probably more,  were just impatient brats that didn't get what they wanted out of the Biden administration on Day 1.  I'd love to blame it on voting being a scam.  But, I think it's just the sheer hateful, indulgent stupidity of voters.  This is why I can't stand most people.

Cya...

Election Day...

 

It's election day.  Most articles are focusing on safe rehash or zooming in on the election.  Either way, not much for my blog today.  That's all for now.

Take care & go vote.

Cya...

Tomorrow...

 

Tomorrow is the midterm election.  How will this go?  Who knows?  I've done what I can.  Now, it's up to  Oklahomans & Americans to remind us how awful they can be.  Midterms are always stupid pendulum swings by impatient, impractical people who didn't get their way day 1.  Elections always show us how willing people are to vote against their own best interest, just so they can scream at someone else.  The American political system only serves to show the indulgence, ignorance, hate & greed of the people living here.

I don't have high hopes.  I never do when people are involved.  I'd love it if they surprised  me, but let's be realistic.  

Cya... 

Still Not Much...

 

I was hoping the articles would increase.  They haven't.  People are focused on the election & COVID.   There's talk of vaccines & lockdowns.  

I'm in a  hateful mood right now.  All of this should've & very easily could've been handled by now, both COVID & the election.  Both of which were sabotaged by the same groups; the indulgent, belligerent & idiotic.  AKA  the super conservatives & hyper denialists.  I'm doing my best not wish bad things on people, I'm not succeeding. 

Take care, be safe.

Cya...

Not Great...

 

I'm not having a great morning.  I generally don't anymore.   Ever since I began recovering from being out of the hospital at the beginning of the year I've been dealing with other people's BS.  Some of it's mine, but mostly others.  People have been stressed, fraxious & difficult.  I'm done with it.  I can't even have a moment to tend to my own needs without being exposed to other peoples'.  

My computer is still a mess & will have to be replaced.  I hate that process.  The tool I ordered for the yard is still lost in limbo & no one's certain about it.  I wish they'd just give up & refund it.  The yard help "may" be happening.  The weather is weird.  The light's not great.  I need to get labs drawn.

Add to this, the lingering election crap.  I'm done.  I can't care about any more of it.  I haven't been able to come down since March.   Between COVID & this election, people have used up my last bits of strength.   I can't handle any more of anyone else's BS.  Not when no one's really helping with mine.  COVID is here & the election will be what it is.  Done.

Cya...

Finally, An Answer...

 

We have an answer, Biden won.  Now, let the tantrum drama begin.  The orange asshat is sure to pull every nasty trick he can.  That's just his character.  He used every disgusting method he could to get to the top.  It's time to let all those horrid gambits come back to him as he falls.  I betting a lot of the rungs he stood on to climb up are no longer there.  It's time for trump to get the Disney girl experience.  He soared high, now he gets to crash on the rocks.

Good riddance you orange monster.

Cya...

Ongoing Nerve-fest...

 

I can't believe this election isn't settled.  It's Saturday. Nearly everything is focused on this, articles are all but non-existent.  I saw an interesting topic, but all the sites had paywalls or really annoying sign-ups.  

The title of these pieces stated the UK is experiencing a 20 year low in HIV transmissions among Gay & Bi men.   If I could have read the piece, I'd have more info.  I hope the lead in was accurate.  It'd be amazing to have a historic low like that.  Maybe I'll find the piece later.

That's about it, take care.

Cya...

Uggh...

 

Sorry, but this election has me distracted. It's been days.  I'm hoping for the best, but it keeps lingering.  I think people are going to lose it if this doesn't end soon.  Hopefully, I'll be more able to focus once this is resolved.

Take care.

Cya...

Hanging On...

 

I'm sorry but there wasn't much to post about this  morning.  With COVID & the other insanities of 2020, articles had slowed down to a trickle.  With this stalled election, everything is basically trapped in amber.

Hopefully, we'll have a result today & things can begin trodding along again.  We'll see.  This has been the weirdest election.  It's also been very telling of the people in this country.  It's not pretty.

Take care.

Cya...

Not Sure...

 

The election is still undecided.  This is making things tense.  What I do know is that Oklahoma can F' off.  Kissing orange ass won't get you anywhere.  If I could move I would.  This place is just a hateful embarrassment. 

We have to finish bill stuff today.  The water bill is on  hold until the place opens again.  Apparently, it's closed for another week due to COVID.  But trump is doing such a great job with corona.  

That's all for now, take care & be kind.

Cya...

Today...

 

It's election day.  Either winner will have an impact on me & mine.  I have no idea which way this will land.  I'm trying not to look.  I did last time & was very disappointed.  I'll save that for later.

No matter which this goes, it won't be pleasant. It might be exciting, aggravating, tiresome...  But, it won't be nice.  It will tell a lot about us as a people though.   Will we hold on to yesterday's fears, hate & hucksters?  Or will step in the unknown of the future? Going backwards never bodes well.

Go vote.  Be kind. Take care.

Cya...

November...

 

It's the 1st day of November & the 1st morning after the time change.  I'll hate it come this afternoon, when it gets dark ridiculously early.   This season is hard enough as it is without making most of the day darker.  

This will be a busier week for us.  I need to pick up something I ordered in Fort Smith, probably on Monday.  Then it'll be time to handle bills.  A couple of bouts of shopping & whatever else needs handling.  Luckily, we've already voted.

I was nice last time & let most people hang around on my Facebook page after the election.  I'm not sure I can do that again.  These people have too much hate & rage to tolerate. You put rabid animals down.

Here's to a good November.  Don't engage the crazies, you can't reason with them. Take care.

Cya...

Countdowns...

 

We heading to some endings. Halloween is in a few days.  It marks the ending of early fall as we head into the holiday season, such as it will be this year.   October is ending & taking Daylight Saving Time with it, damn.  I hate falling back & losing the afternoon sunlight.  Who wants an extra hour of 2020 anyway?

For better or worse, it also marks the end of the electoral campaigns.   Election day is November 3rd.  I hope trump is gone, we'll see.  Articles have been a near deadzone his entire term.  I'm not entirely sure why, but articles dried up soon after his election.

November will mark a lot of endings & beginnings.  We'll have to wait see which is which. Take care.

Cya...

More 2020 Drear...

 

Another yucky morning & still no articles.  There are some unfortunate insights that can be gained from this 2020 nightmare.   Many are showing more honest versions of themselves.  We're seeing those who are stepping up, helping, pushing to be creative, remaining considerate...  Then there are the others.

Many are showing how inconsiderate, angry, fearful & hateful they are.  They refuse to wear masks, they endangers lives & businesses, they confront & accuse.  People have been attacked vocally, physically & emotionally simply for trying to protect themselves from COVID.   

During this time, we've also seen people's truest selves peek through into everyday life.   Sides are being chosen; good, bad & hide til it's over.  The bad are going to blame stress & the times when this is all over.  BS, everyone was under that same stress.  Everyone faced COVID, isolation, election insanity, grocery outages, etc...  Some chose to maintain civility, while others did not.

In the end, how people are treating you now, is probably the most honest version of them you're ever going to get.   They may be tired, scared, stressed, etc... but this is them.  Some people are being creative, some helpful, some raging, some attacking, some hiding, some demanding, some manipulating... 

Whatever they're showing you, trust the honesty of their behavior & don't forget it.  Most of us are  in the same boat, no one gets excuses during this ride.  So stop rocking the damned boat already.

Cya...