Final October Wednesday & Midterms...

 

It's the last October Wednesday of 2026.  The final trash to the curb run of the month.   The meteorologist say we're leaving the 2nd month of Autumn.  Those who base their time on the moon & seasons, say we just entered the 2nd Fall month last week. 

We have some errands today.  After trash, we need to stop buy mail, pick up my meds & do early voting.  The midterm is already here.  It'd be nice if this went well.  It most likely won't for Oklahoma.  

That's it for now, October's ending & it's time to vote.  Take care.

Cya...

October Lasts...

 

October 2026 is running out, this is the last Sunday.  This is the last week of light before the hellish time change kicks in.  There'll be early voting this week.  It'd be nice if this went well.  I'm not holding my breath.  Oklahoma has a lot of masochistic idiots.  

There wasn't much to post about this morning.  I'll wrap this up.  Take care.

Cya...

The Lasts Of September 2026...

 

Yesterday was the last Thursday of the month.  A couple of more shopping trips & another round of trash to the curb & this month's have-to's will be handled.  As usual, this hasn't been an easy month for me.  The heat & humidity nearly did me in.  There's almost 2 hours less light & the dark days are nearly here.  

I'm hoping September takes the heat with it.   August gave us our highest electric usage bill ever.  September's wasn't far behind.  But last night I only had the table fan near me.  Not the small window fan, the box fan & the giant metal beast going.  The metal fan hasn't been on in a 2 days now.  Last night was the time in months I've only needed the side fan.  Maybe this month's bill will be closer to normal.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Last Days...

 

This is the last day of August.  Weathermen consider it the last day of Summer.   2/3 of 2026 is behind us & the 'Brr months begin.  This is also mine last day being 59.

Here's hoping nothing screws up today or tomorrow.  A hold for the rest of September would be awesome.  I can't remember the last time that month didn't suck for me. 

We had a friend over last night.  It went well.  We have plans for most of the week.  Shopping, bills, errands, appointments, etc..   Tomorrow we'll try to do birthday stuff, a movie & something to eat.  Maybe we can pull that off with any problems.

That's all for now, take care.  Goodbye August, you were too damn hot & no fun.

Cya...

Final Sunday...

 

This is the last Sunday of August.  My year will  end on a Monday.  I guess it's better than starting there.   Labor Day will run late this year.   It's usually closer, if not on, my birthday.  We'll enter the 'Ber months, without any brr.  September's supposed to stay hot.  

We're having a friend over later.  Other than that, not much is going on here today.  That's fine, it's hot again & I really don't want to deal with the heat.

Take care.

Cya...

Ends & Begin...

 

As August ends, so does my year.  I'm really hoping these next few days & the beginning of the next month go well.  I'd like to close out this chapter with as little agita as possible & open the next bit on as much of a positive as I can muster.  

I'd love to tell you some grand things of being 50, but I can't.  It wasn't just about the age.  It was mostly about my situation.  My 50s weren't great, especially not 59.  Then again nothing in the current century has been that awesome for me.  I feel like I've made a phone call & been placed on hold.  Any second now, the calls going to drop & I won't be able to reconnect.  I'm tired of trying to be part of something I don't fit in & never wanted me anyway.  

So what will the 60s be like?  They'll be like this, but worse.  My life doesn't get better.  If it does, something else screws up or it's a fake out.  The people who tell you it's a privilege to get old are full of it.  Getting old is just that, getting older, nothing more & it sucks.  It should never be an end goal. 

Well there's the last Saturday of August 2026 & me being 59.  Take care.

Cya...

A Few Things...

 

The FDA has a approved a new 1 pill daily regimen from Gilead.   This piece also covers the matter.   The med is for suppressed patients who seek a simplified treatment.  

– Novel Daily Oral Tablet Combines Bictegravir, a Guideline-Recommended INSTI with a High Barrier to Resistance, with Lenacapavir, a First-in-Class Capsid Inhibitor with No Cross-Resistance to Other Existing Antiretrovirals –

– Bixlenvo Now the Smallest STR; First and Only STR for Most People on Complex HIV Treatment Regimens –

It'll run about $4,500 monthly.  It will provide another option for those on more complicated regimens.  They  the price is about average, but wow.

This is the last Friday of August 2026.  There's only 3 full days left in my 59th year.  Here's hoping it ends well & 60 doesn't start of with some level of suckage.

Finally, I saw a 3rd hummer this morning.  It was larger & slightly darker.  Unfortunately, the bushes in our yard look like it's late October, so it flit around & then promptly leave.  It was probably hungry & these shrubs had little to offer.  I haven't seen people posting any of the normal hummer pics like I used to.  I guess everybody is having this issue.  It's just too hot & dry.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

The Last Week...

 

The weather was odd yesterday.  It piddle rained, maybe 0.25".  It never left the 80s, but stayed wet.  It wasn't hot, but not comfortable either.  At least it wasn't 100°+ & muggy.

This is the last week of August.  The end of the last full month of Summer.  The last week of me being 59 & the closing out of my 50s.  I've been here over half a century, a over 2 decades living with HIV & I fully believe there should be some way to either request an exchange or fully refuse this existence forced onto us.  

You could probably fit every decent thing that happened in my life into a single year & every really good thing into a month.   If you took every time I felt safe, secure, happy or was truly looking forward to something, I doubt it'd fill a week.  I'm tired of paying for generations of BS, stupidity & bad choices I had no choice in that made my life.  To all of those who came before me, that had a hand in this, to hell with all of you.

That's near the end of things rant for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Goodbye July...

 

This is the last day of July.  The month started off alright.  It wasn't that Summery.  It was overcast, damp & fairly mild temps.  Then the tail end got here.  It stayed hazy, while the humidity & temps cranked up.  I haven't handled this part of the month.  I'm not sleeping well & it's leading me to feel off, sick & anxious.  

Tomorrow starts August.   I have expectations for that month & they're all bad.  I think this is going to be a bad month.  It feels like a lot is coming my way & I probably won't be able to handle it.  I think this is going to be a month of loss.   It's the last month of my birth year.  It's the last month I'll be in my 50s.  

I really needed a good Summer.  Just another thing on the list I never got.  I don't need to see September.  I don't need more trips around the circle.  I would gladly just step off the ride.  I'm tired of feeling like this.  I hate knowing my life peaked decades ago & it wasn't that great.  I broke the GenX rule.  I should've died young.  I wouldn't have had to see what a disaster I became.

Goodbye July, you failed at being a good Summer month.

Cya...

July Lasts...

 

The last days of July are here, no more Saturdays.  This Summer is going too quickly.  Other than being hot, it hardly counts as a Summer.  It's been hazy, dark or rainy so much of the season.  This fall isn't going to be fun.   Then again, these days what is?

There's so much I'm anxious about & nothing I'm looking forward to.  I'm not seeing much in upcoming movies.  Most of the things to-do aren't that great or are expensive & still not that good.  Fun seems to be going extinct, at least for me.  It's really tiring.

That's all for now, take care.  

Cya...

Cloudy Last Friday...

 

It's a cloudy morning & the lasts of June have been here since Wednesday.  No more trash trips for June.  The weather is supposed to get hot.  Maybe it'll kill some of whatever's in the air making it hard to breathe.

I didn't find much for articles this morning.  Other than shopping, we don't have a lot.  That's good, neither of us are feeling that well.  Nighttime skunk walk-bys are making their presence known.  Some nights, the stink really gets to us.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

The Lasts Of May...

 

Today is Memorial Day & the last Monday of the month.  Soon, the whole 1st of the month thing will start again.  I'm not happy with this month.  It's brighter this morning, but most of May has been overcast to stormy dark.  I'm just trying to get my head in a good place & not much seems to be cooperating.

Shopping is the only thing on the list for today.  This week will be a little busier, due to some appointments in Fort Smith.  Nothing big, just have to drive over & back.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Gloomy Final Friday...

 

The last weekend of March looks to be dark & colder.  It's gloomy this morning & it might rain.  Benefit renewals are in process.  My roomie is home from her appointment.   

I saw 2 articles (A & B) on suppressing HIV without meds.  Both pieces detailed an approach to handling HIV with antibodies & T-Cells.  This is a direction researchers have been looking at for a while.  At this moment it isn't widely viable.  This could lead to a new primary treatment of HIV & head away from  traditional medications.  

That's it for now, take care. 

Cya...

The Last February Thursday...

 

This month is wrapping up.  February is never easy for us.  It's the month things break, have to be replaced or we wind up in the hospital.  I'm glad it's nearly over.  

We have no plans for today.  We're both spent after everything this month brought our way.  Tomorrow will be the last shopping trip of the month.  Next week, the new month will begin & things will start all over again.  Hopefully, without all the breakage.

That's all, take care.

Cya...

Last January Wednesday...

 

We have a few things to handle today.  It's last trash day of the month.  Mail can finally get checked.  I almost did yesterday, but the carrier had just arrived & takes a bit for them to sort things out.  It'll be another chance to see how the roads are doing.  My roomie has an appointment tomorrow morning.  We'll probably have to take the long way.  Our normal route may still be too icy.

That's about it for this morning.  January is winding down.  Take care.

Cya...

The 2nd Day...

 

The 2nd day of 2026 has showed up grey & dismal.  It's working it's way into a light, hazy morning.  Today is the last day of my 25th year of being HIV+ & also the end of this blog's year.   I didn't accomplish much, if anything this year.   I was there when some things happened, but not much beyond that.  I have a new dentist, but I didn't have any choice in that.  No matter what I was going to have a new dentist.  I miss the old place, it was nice.  I'd been there quite a while.

Other than exist & see some movies, I haven't done much for myself.   I'm not sure what I could or would even want to do anymore.  I may have helped other  people & some cats since my diagnosis, but my life has been on a fractious pause since that day in the ER.  My physical health is somewhat better than then, but not much else.  I just stayed stressed & standby as other entities make decisions about my life.  Anything I could try, would probably cause me lose what little I do have.  I can't afford that.

Sometimes, going to the ER that day is my biggest regret.  I may be alive, but I'm not really living.  Here's hoping 2026 doesn't screw things over any worse for me or mine.  

Sorry for the bleak 2nd day.

Cya...

Only 2 Full Days Left...

 

In some ways I'm so ready for this year to be over.  Then I'm also very apprehensive about 2026.  It's not like I've got a choice, but still, the options aren't great.  It would be easier not to focus on it if the orange wasn't present.  Then again, if he wasn't here, things probably wouldn't be so bad. 

This will probably be the last shopping of the year.  Then the last run to the bank & pharmacy.  It's almost over, 2025's bags are packed & it's about out the door.  It'll head off to wherever last years go when their days run out.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

The Very Lasts of 25...

 

Since the holiday, we've been on the lasts of the year.  This is the last Saturday of 2025.   Next Wednesday will end the year & next Saturday will be the anniversary for this blog & my HIV diagnosis.  In a sense, I'm ready for this year to be over, but I don't have any reason to believe 2026 will be better.

This year has really worn me down.  There was far too much cat issues, breakage, expense, political BS...  I haven't fared well.  I haven't kentsugied myself back together.  In my case, it'd probably be done with knock-off, white glue & have pieces missing.  We're ending 25 years into the 2000s & so far, they've mostly sucked me & mine.   

I hope the rest of the year treats you well, take care.

Cya...

Busy Last Monday...

 

The next 2 days are going to be rushed.  We have appointments & errands.   We'll go shopping in a bit & then head out for my eye appointment.  Tomorrow will start earlier & last longer.  Wednesday will have some stuff on it & a friend may be over Thursday.  Friday will shopping & 1st of the month stuff.   

September was a difficult month this year.  It usually is for me, but not normally this busy.  Fall suckage is in full swing.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Last Friday Of September...

 

Since Wednesday, we've been in the lasts of the month.  We've left the time of Virgo & entered Libra.  We're going deeper into the awful 'Ber months & dark of the year.  The light is fading fast.  I really hate this.  

I have an eye appointment on Monday.  Here's hoping nothing screws up before or during.  My eyes may have changed a little but my glasses seem fine.  I'll find out then.

Heading out for shopping, so this is it for now. Take care.

Cya...