This soggy, dark month is finally ending. Maybe May can be a bit brighter. April wasn't a terribly bad month, but it wasn't great either. At least we met our rainfall average. It's still a bit chillier than I'd like. There's still overnights in the 40s in the forecast.
We don't have much going on today. A friend came over & that'll be about the extent of today's activities. I'm fine with that.
Take care.
Cya...
April is ending in a haze. This isn't making mornings easy. The forecast doesn't show sunny days for a while. That's not great for me.
May is almost here. Maybe it will be a bit brighter. There's a lot we had hoped would be handled this month, but that didn't happen. The waiting limbo continues.
There's not much going on today. This is the last trash day of the month. Other than that we'll check the mail & that's about it.
Take care.
Cya...
Twice this week we drove by someone mowing/dealing with their yard. That's expected this time of year. But when we went by these yards they had something in them that sent me into coughing, sneezing fit. Both times the coughing & sneezing last for some time. This messed with me for hours.
We've had a ton of rain, but that didn't help with these issues. Actually, it made them worse. I don't know if the moisture set something off or caused some mold. But the rain didn't wash the matter away.
It's hazy & we're expecting more rain today. We don't need more & I'd be fine if it didn't. There's been little sunshine this week. Oh well, there's always something to gripe about with the weather.
Take care.
Cya...
Some of my roomie's health equipment went on the fritz last night. There was noise, bad smells & some dust. That led to late night calls & waiting. She's still waiting on someone to arrive to handle the matter.
It didn't set the place on fire, but it was a little unnerving. We didn't know what had happened. Most likely they'll just replace the machine. Still, we're left waiting, because something had to go & break.
This didn't use to be a problem. Service techs would come to & check on things every 6 months or so. That stopped years ago. It stopped before the last machine conked out & this was has been in the house since 2019. I'm surprised it lasted this long.
That's all for now. Take care.
Cya...
In a little over a week, there's been a nearly 50° temperature swing, astounding pollen levels, storms, winds, hail & over 3.5" of rain. This hasn't been an easy mid-month. Most of it's cooler than normal, hazy & humid. It's making pulling out of SAD very difficult. The rain's needed, the rest of it was just crap. Dark mornings, weird light & storm tension have left me a little rattled. It'd be nice just to have bright, nothing days.
I did see some articles that looked interesting. Paywalls blocked them both. Maybe I'll see the topic somewhere else soon. I know these people need to get paid & that I'm always low on funds. But, I doubt very many people could pay for all these paywalls even if they wanted to. Who cares if they've got great information if no one ever sees it?
Cya...
It dumped over 2" on us yesterday in a mix of hard rain, wind & hail. It was dark & loud. When it passed, the sky stayed yellow until sunset. We have chances for more heavy rain storms tonight. The monthly rainfall averages have been met.
It's April & sometime during this month is our cat, Millie's birthday. She turned 10 this year. Not a kitten anymore. Happy Birthday little boop cat.
Take care.
Cya...
Not a great morning for waking. It's dark & has been storming for a bit. Our area can't just do rain showers anymore, it's always got to be storms. This has been loud & dark. I have to go shopping in a bit. That won't be fun.
We're getting to the end of April & it hasn't been a great Spring. There's still a lot going on that we have no real idea about. Hard to make a plan without any solid info.
Other than going shopping, there shouldn't be much going on today. That's it for now.
Take care.
Cya...
I've slept better the last couple of nights. However, the actual up waking wasn't so great. It's been dark, overcast & threatening storms. This is making for some rough mornings getting started. It dampens the whole day.
My roomie had an appointment yesterday. It shouldn't have been any big deal, but sometimes driving to Fort Smith can be a hassle. The last 2 times over have been. It can take up any way from 30 minutes to an hour. It all depends on traffic, drivers, weather & other uncontrollables. It can be a very easy trip or absolute nuisance.
With these mornings & yesterday's outing, I'm a bit tired. At least there's nothing really happening today. That's needed for both of us.
Take care.
Cya...
Merck has a new drug med coming this May. IDVYNSO is a combination of doravirine & islatravir. It is not recommended for people currently on some meds, such as lamivudine. It could lower the med's effectiveness & cause possible toxicity. It's unclear how long a person would have to off lamivudine before they could start this. This is the only non-INSTI 2 drug med without tenofovir given orally currently available.
This could be a great new option for people. These are newer meds comprising a new combo. Islatravir is the only med in a new category of NRTTIs. This a significant step.
Give this piece a read.
Take care.
Cya...
My roomie has an appointment tomorrow, so we're handling something today instead. It's not a big deal & at least the appointment isn't early in the morning.
It's a nice morning, still a bit cooler though. There's likely to be more rain as the month ends. We've met our monthly rainfall average & then some.
That's all for now, take care.
Cya..
While I've never read a anything solely devoted to the idea of HIV & premature aging, I've seen parts of other works reference the concept. The research says it could be by as much as a decade. Some think it's due to inflammation, others, just ware & tear of the immune system. This piece addresses that. It also states that treatment can lessen or even reverse the aging effects of HIV.
Give the piece a read. I don't find many articles these days. Take care.
Cya...
There haven't been many articles in a while. Those that do get posted are mostly rehash & restatements. This happens sometimes, but this time is different. The dearth of HIV news seems to be due to a single factor, funding.
Ever since tRump started screwing with monies that weren't his to handle; treatment, testing, outreach & research have begun to wither. It's not just HIV, many areas of medicine are feeling it. While the orange asshat may have led the charge, it's congress' fault for not doing more.
Let's be clear, if you support tRump, MAGA, MAHA or their other enablers, you are part of the problem. You are helping to harm people. Don't ever consider yourself a good person. You're a vindictive twit who wanted to hurt people who weren't like you. Problem for you it that things like this don't stay contained. It will eventually take you with it as well. Enjoy the ride.
Cya...
This makes the 3rd Saturday morning in a row I was woke up by some horrible noise. Heavy trains moving so fast they sound like small aircraft are a given these days. Add wet or cold tracks & the noise is even more intense.
But these last Saturdays the source has been over zealous yard work. Each time, it's been just after rain, but still they mow, trim, weed-eat & make their cacophony of seussian noise with their yard machinery. This morning was a tree being taken down by obnoxious chainsaws. Then there were loud trucks taking things away. Racket & asshats always seem to go together. Both are loud & annoying.
Cya...
I'm running late. I didn't sleep well & jolted awake. I got agitated when the net dropped out on us right before going to bed. Then the outside noise kept waking me. I fell back asleep & then overslept. Noise startled me awake & now I'm running late.
Optimum sucks & is somehow worse than Suddenlink. I blame the fiber. Ever since they shifted to fiber, the net's been down a lot more & takes the cable with it. The worst part of it is that's rarely an issue near us, they don't give not repair time estimates & they never say what happened.
I'd call Optimum rude, but you're mostly dealing with AI crap. When you do get a person, they rarely have enough experience to help you. That's if you can understand them.
That's all. I need to head out.
Cya...
Since the beginning of HIV treatment, the game has been the same. Medications have to be accessible, tolerable & reliable. Then there's adherence. The best meds in the world won't matter if they aren't taken regularly.
90 - 95% adherence is what's needed for HIV meds to be effective & help prevent resistance. The aim was to create regimens that were accessible with ease of regimen maintenance. We went from handfuls of pills to a few, to a single pill. Now there are injectable options given weekly, monthly, quarterly & at larger intervals. Until a cure is found, they'll probably aim for annual injections.
For many adherence is a serious challenge. Injectables could be a much better option for many. After taking handfuls of pills daily, a single dose at wide intervals would be astounding. Even if it was a weekly pill, that would be a drastic improvement.
Adherence makes this all work. Any threat to that is a threat to that person.
Cya...
I'm trying to get more sleep, but these hazy mornings aren't helping. I'm still tired. Things could get chilly weekend. I was hoping to be to a point where it was warmer, brighter & we had more of the BS on our plate handled. That's not happening.
Yesterday's outing didn't go as well as hoped for. There's more left up in the air. The bees are still here & I'm beginning to think the guy we called flaked out.
I wish I could post something about HIV or less negative. There weren't any good articles & I haven't had anything good to post about in a long time. This is it for today.
Take care.
Cya...
We have another outing. At least it wasn't super early this time. We'll head out soon.
I slept better, but not so much on the waking part. It's cloudy & may rain tonight. Mornings like this aren't good for me. Then again nothing much regarding my sleep has been all that great for some time.
We have things to handle & I'll get through them, but I'm already tired. I wish I had something that would make all of this easier on me, but I don't. I'm doing what I can & it's seems to be less & less.
I need to get around, take care.
Cya...
I didn't sleep well last night. Everything kept making noise. The stupid cat kept charging the window to shoo an outdoor cat. I had to push her out of my room & close the door. She tried to get in & rattled the door for a while. It made my room stuffy.
I tried to call for a refill with my pharmacy, but my medical provider hadn't provided new refills. Now I'm waiting for that. It'd be nice if people could just do their jobs.
There's a lot going on & there will stuff up in the air for a while. I'll be lucky if crap settles down before Summer starts. A lot of people just need to die for making everyone else's life so much more difficult.
That's all for this morning. I still have shower, go shopping & yes I'm running late.
Cya...
We had a bit of good news Friday & I should've known that wasn't actually a good thing. A single thing off our load & we got more dumped on us almost immediately. Besides the ongoing issues with this damn house. There's another health issue & the asshat bees have returned. I can't do anything about either issue.
We're still finding out things & who knows how long this take. Of course the weather is supposed to crap out. Add to all of this, a male cat has decided he's a singer & won't shut up. He's been going all morning.
Yesterday was hard. I'm not sleeping well. I spent most of the day with a low, anxious buzz. I'm so over it even my cheeks feel tired. I'm want everything to shut up & work. If this is all that's left in my life, just let me off the ride.
Cya...
For a long time this neighborhood was pretty empty & little too quiet. It bordered on creepy. Then people moved in & there was more presence. That in itself was not a bad thing. Sure some of our neighbors are mow junkies, but that's not usually a problem.
For a while now, the traffic in our area has increased. These aren't locals, they're passing through. They're very noisy. The trains running in our area have increased, gotten faster, longer & far louder. I used to just sleep through trains, but now a lot of them wake me. I'm not sure why, but we have an abundance of sirens at night. They don't come nearby, they're just cutting through.
This morning some asshat decided to mow at dawn with a giant mower. It was loud & stupid. I understand mowing early when it's hot, but we're may hit 80° today. It also dumped nearly 0.5" yesterday afternoon. The grass is still soaked.
I'm glad we have neighbors & the area isn't a ghost town any more, but the noise is ridiculous. Still most of it isn't the people living nearby, it's jerks passing through, trains, sirens & landlords with huge lawn mowers.
There's my rant for this morning. Take care.
Cya...
Even with the light, mornings have been really hard lately. I wake up & I'm fine for a little bit & then it hits me. It's not panic. It's just a sense of everything being off & so much that I'm practically vibrating.
My cat can vibrate when she's angry, but this is something else. I'm not raging or panicking. It's like I'm trying to expel or shed something. Everything in the morning seems so much more urgent, demanding & loud.
Whatever it is, it's overwhelming & tiring. It takes me a while to shake it. It's usually passed by the time my morning routine is done. During that time, I'm an irritable mess. Maybe this is my body finally dealing with all the SAD issues & trying to rid itself of it. Whatever it is, I hope it fades soon.
Cya...
It's sunny this morning & it might be the last bright morning for a while. Storms & rain are in the upcoming forecast. Again, we need the rain, but I need the light.
I've been trying to get out of this funk I've been in for a while. It isn't working well. There's too much ongoing & newly added crap buzzing in my head. The light won't stay more than a day or so.
The weather could lighten up some. It'd be nice if some things just fell in line & got out of our lives for a while. Maybe.
Cya...
I've been trying to get better sleep. I think I actually am, it's just not doing any good. It's a bright morning & I woke up well enough at 1st. I didn't jolt or anything. For a bit I'm fine & then I'm not. I'm just lowkey anxious, irritated & overwhelmed.
Things haven't been that great for me. It's be a lot of going. Now, it seems like I'm going to lose some things. There's a sense of something. Dread's too strong a word, but something unpleasant is headed my way & I'm not going to be able to avoid it.
I'm tired of losing, confrontations, stress, illness, feeling so spent, etc... I'm really over sounding like a sound-bite. That's my life, suck on repeat. There is no better, it's only downhill. Everytime I think there may be something else, I'm shown how wrong I was.
That's my meh post for this morning.
Cya..
We're almost 100 days into 2026. It was OK for a bit. But since then, I feel like I've just been sinking & getting mired in things around me. I haven't felt well & things just keep going by & adding on.
I don't have much for distractions or simple pleasures left in my life. The main 1 had has gotten to the point of not being maintainable. 2 years ago, it was half the price & lasted about a month. Now, with the price doubled it's going by way too fast. Another thing, I'll let go of. That's getting close to the end of things. I guess this what they mean by not being able to have nice things.
I'll try to look at it in a way that I'm saving money & calories. Still, it wasn't something I wanted to do. But, there it is. Another thing gone. I'm done.
Not a good morning.
Cya...
Spring is supposed to be about renewal. I'm not seeing that. It's all just the same old, same old & sliding into worse. To be supportive, I have to let myself believe something isn't just possible, but at least somewhat feasible. The same patterns have played out again & now the slide has happened. It's nothing new & I can only focus on myself for being complicit by trying to be encouraging. That's on me.
It's a couple of steps forward & then years backward. I just need to accept, this is the best it's going to be & things probably only get worse from here out. I'm not angry at anyone but myself, just a little disappointed.
So much for happy renewal. It's just the same muddy, BS trenches. I should've known.
Cya...
Ostara has passed & Easter is here. It's sunny this morning. It doesn't look like there'll be much of that this month. There's a 10 day steak where it could rain or storm. The rain is needed, but I need the light.
I'm sleeping better & waking hasn't been jolty. Still, I'm still tired & needing everything to line up so I can get more rest. Maybe a bit more of this & I won't feel so spent.
Happy Easter, good hunting.
Cya...
It's been storming all night. It's not been too bad, but there's been a lot of rain. The Weather Channel has us over 2.5". We need rain. It'd be nice to make up for the deficit that's been running since January.
There isn't anything else happening here. I'm fine with that. We need some down time. This is it, take care.
Cya...
It's going to be a colder, stormier weekend. We need the rain, but not the storms or darkness. We've been short on rainfall this year.
I managed to get a decent night's sleep. It wasn't enough. I'm still worn out. A single night isn't going to cut it. It doesn't help this morning is hazy, windy & pollen ridden.
It's the 1st of the month & bills must be handled. Then we'll go be shopping, check mail & hopefully home. I've had enough outings for a bit.
That's all for now, take care.
Cya...
The yard work of 2026 has begun. April 1 was the 1st mowing & spraying. There'll be more of both. It rained last night, so it'll be a bit before I can handle bugs & any plant stuff that needs hauled to the curb.
I was already not feeling good. Add weed spray, mowing, pollen, wind, etc... & I'm pretty done in for the moment. I'll get over it, but it's going to take a bit.
That's all for now, hopefully no more early runs for a bit. I need the sleep. Take care.
Cya...
April is here. I hope it turns out to be easier than March. This will be another short post. We have to head out soon for an appointment. Yet another early morning. I hope these wind down a bit. I don't handle mornings well.
That's all for now. Hello April, be nice.
Cya...
