Some Good News...

 

Since the government has reopened, the benefits have been restarted.  I checked this morning & they are posting.  However, there was a lot of harm done to people & small businesses during the closure.  That hasn't & probably will never be addressed.  There's no telling the fallout from this closure & its resolution. 

I saw some articles but most were lacking.  There were a few on new medications being developed, but nothing far enough along to be of interest.  There were some concerning vaccines, but they didn't offer much & were highly jargonized. 

We're nearly halfway through November.  There 13 days until Thanksgiving, 41 until Christmas & 47 days left in 2025.   More importantly there are still 114 days until daylight saving time.  I have my priorities. 

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Something At Least...

 

There's a little progress on the shutdown.  It's still not over, but it's a step.  There were partial payments on some people's benefits.  Maybe they can get this wrapped up soon.  

The cold weather looks to be out of here for a bit.  The forecast doesn't show any overnight temps needing drips or heaters soon.   That's better for us.

That's about it for today.  Articles are still duddish.  Maybe tomorrow.  Take care.

Cya...

Not Handled Well...

 

The time change happened last week & I never handle them well.  Add to that, all the issues happening right now.  We have a lot going on & the government crap is still happening.  Our area is supposed to get it's 1st freeze tomorrow, oh joy.  

The change of light is being rough.  Now, it's dark by 5:30.  That'll be 4:30 in December.   Being dark that early throws me off.  We still have 120 days until this switches back. 

Between weather changes, the government crap, all the to-do's & the darkening, I'm not OK.   The biggest problem, there isn't anything I can do about any of it.  So, no, I'm not doing that great.

Cya...

1st Week Of November Done...

 

The week is handled & it doesn't look like next week will be as busy.  Shopping & Friday errands should be all there is today.  It'd be nice to have a quiet weekend.  Too bad it's supposed to get cold.  This could be our 1st freeze.  

The benefit matter is still up in the air.  The government shutdown is ongoing & the current administration is utterly useless & debased.  This needs to get fixed soon.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

1st November Tuesday 2025...

 

This 1st week of November is filled with stuff to handle.  We handled most of the bills yesterday.  We should handle the rest today.  My roomie has a lot of appointments throughout this month & I have 2.  I have a regular meeting with my medical provider & a cleaning scheduled with my dentist.

It's the beginning of holiday season.  Halloween's done.  There 23 days until Thanksgiving & 51 before Christmas.  Next Tuesday is Veteran's Day.  The mail's going to be so off.  Not that we get much anymore since most of ours went online. 

The shutdown is ongoing & the benefit situation is still not settled.  There are some elections happening across the states today.  We'll see how that plays out. 

That's all for now.  Take care.

Cya...

They're Back...

 

2 things returned that I didn't want.  We've had overnights in the 30s.  Nobody in this house wanted that.   Then the damn time change happened.  It'll be dark at 4:30 soon.  They say it's for the children & school.  BS, it'll still be dark when most of these kids are going off to school.  What it will do, is make it so some people never see sunlight.  It's dark when they go to work & dark when they get out.  DST should be year round.  Make Winter hours if you want.  A lot of places had those when I was a kid.

The benefit thing is still up in the air.  The orange stain & his cronies are evil asshats.  They call themselves christians.  I guess they are.  That's how most religious people have always treated me.  Their disdain for everything is palpable.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Slight Change...

 

The government shutdown is still impacting us, but there's been a slight change.  It's a delayal, not a fix.  Maybe something can happen in the meantime.  These politicians aren't looking at the people at the bottom of this dogpile.  The people on top are irritated.  Those in the middle are feeling some constraint.  The ones at the bottom are getting crushed.  Not that these senators & congress people care.  It's just a game to them.

It's a dark, windy morning. We have stuff to do today, less than expected but still a lot. 

Take care.

Cya...

Storms & Busy...

 

It stormed last & it's raining.   We've had well over an inch dumped in that time, probably nearing 2".  It's going to be dark all day.   Tomorrow is supposed to be windy.   Great, we'll still be having to deal with stuff.  Next week, will be busy as well.  

There wasn't much posted about HIV that I haven't already discussed.  This situation has me rattled, so that isn't helping.  I wish I could say when this might get better, but I don't know.  As usual, the things impacting my life aren't my doing or something I can control.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Busy Week...

 

This is going to be a busy week for us & it'll be followed by the 1st of the month stuff.  Little of this is of my doing or volition. The benefit crap has put us in a bind & there are lot appointments, errands & regular week things to be handled.  

It's a dark, wet morning & I'm already tired.  So far, being 59 has absolutely sucked.  Nothing good comes from the dark of the year.  A few sparkles, bits of candy & holiday specials can't fix these crapfest months.  On top of that, the time change is this weekend.  It'll be even darker.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Routine in Aberdeen...

 

Sorry for the bad rhyme in the title, but this article about a new practice in Aberdeen, Scotland's A&Es (ERs).   They are making it routine for everyone needing lab work to be automatically tested for HIV, hepatitis & other blood borne illnesses.  They had success with their trial run & plan to keep the practice.  I've thought this should be standard for years.  It could help people be diagnosed & treated sooner.

The benefit drama continues.  We started our plan yesterday & will continue this week.  It doesn't look like the asshats in DC will get things fixed anytime soon.   I don't know how this will play out.  I hate this.

It's still dark & raining.  We got over 2" yesterday.  It came down slowly all day & night.   There will be more.   That could help get the area to this month's rainfall average.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

So Unsure...

 

My roomie & I have a plan how we're going to approach to the benefit cuts coming.  It isn't a solution, that's beyond us.  It's a buy some time strategy.  I hate this.

A lot of things I depend on are shifting & there's nothing I can do about it.  I'm tired of being at the whim of others.  People who aren't on assistance or disability have no idea how little control you have over aspects of your life.  Just when you think you've figured out the system, they change it or kill the whole thing.   They want you desperate & broken.  What they really want is for you to suffer & then die.

I haven't slept well in a while now.  It rained last night & I overslept this morning.  A train jolted me awake & I've still got the shakes from that.  Waking up is generally the worse thing I do every day.   Nothing good comes from it.

That's all for now.  I'm not sure when I'll be back to being me again.  I'm just an exhausted bundle of nerves & stress now.  Something needs to give soon.

Cya...

Worn Down...

 

I'm to the point where doing much of anything seems like a monumental effort.   This Summer sucked.   The weather was mostly dismal or blazing, yet still somehow dark.  Among all the appointment, our youngest cat passed.  Then the other had to go to the vet.  There were the endless trips of taking the car to fixed.  This Summer cost us.  

Then the days got shorter & the damn 'Ber months showed up.  There was my hellish birth month.  It's dark earlier & I've had to get the house ready for Winter.  The yard is handled & most of the house is closed up.  Each window I closed felt like I sealing myself further into some dark hole.  There's no breeze, little light, no fans to buffer noise, it's just grey.  Soon, the time change will happen & make it all worse.

2025 is in the top 5 of my worst years.  Now this orange stain & his asshat army have screwed up & my benefits will be suspended.  His followers have no sympathy, decorum or grace.  It'd be nice if there was a plague to end them all.  If that happened, I bet they be better treated than they would've treated anyone else.

I'm barely doing anything.  If given the option for a good out, I can see myself happily taking it.  There are things left for my roomie, but not me.  There hasn't been for some time.  If all I can muster is just an anxious existence than I'd rather not.

Sorry for the downer.

Cya...

Summer Ending...

 

Today is the final day of the season.  I hate this.  It wasn't much of a Summer.  Neither was last year's.  It stayed dark almost to July, with haze & rain.  Then it jumped into the heat & made everything steamy.  But was never really that sunny for long, just hot.  

It was a hard season of loss, expense, breakage & hurrying about.  It wore me out & depleted resources.  I needed Summer to recharge & that didn't happen.  Now we're heading into the dark of the year.  I really wish I could just sleep through it.  Precious little, if any, good will come out of it for me.

It's a hazy, warm & muggy.   There have been so few pleasant days this year.

Cya...

PS - I forgot to write that I finally got my new card in from the state for the Goprogram on Friday.  That was only month after they emailed to inform me it was coming.

Last March Wednesday...

 

This won't be much of a post of this last Wednesday.  Monday was loaded after an early start.  I was on hold 90+ minutes Tuesday for benefit renewal & then there was another appointment.  This morning my PC was glitchy.  I think I've got it fixed.   All of March has been hectic, trying & full of crap.  I'm tired & the day's not even started.

OK March, take your business & odd weather out the door.   That's all.  Take care.

Cya...

Phone Hold...

 

It's benefit renewal time & I did the application last night online.  The I got a text, apparently I've been selected for a phone interview.  I called & the wait time is at least 20+ minutes.  So, I'm listening to annoying muzak.   I guess most on-hold music is fairly annoying when you're just trying to get something done.

I'll do this & get cleaned up.  We have to run my roomie back for a follow up appointment.  There will be a few of these.   This won't be the easiest process.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Ugh Over...

The ugh is over for now.  I got up early & called to speak to a caseworker.   The state has stupidly closed the physical offices & made them work from home.  Now, no one has an assigned caseworker.  It's just whoever's on the line when you call. 

For some reason my application was only making it to part of the system.  Go figure, a computer glitch screwed me, how cliché.  I was expecting a huge wait time, but I actually got on the line a couple of minutes before they opened for business.  Their system has a lot on the frontend of the call to get through.  I talked to the 1st tier for a couple of minutes & then got transferred.  Luckily I was 1st in line & had no wait time.  The whole thing took about 25 minutes.  Far better than what my roomie's been on with them.

All seems well for now, but I didn't need that stress.   Why is it streamlining businesses only seems to help the business's wallet & never the people using it?

That's all, take care.

Cya...

Ugh Continues...

 

The waiting game continues.   I can't find out about my renewal until Monday.  I slept a little better than the night before.  At least it's a brighter this morning.  

I've never been the best with stress.  But, it's to the point I really can't handle much of anything well these days.  I don't bend anymore, I break.  Sometimes it feels like I shatter & never get all the pieces back.  Even if I do they don't seem to be in the right order.  Stressors are beyond difficult for me, they're wrecking me.  I try to do what I can to avoid them, but there's always something.

Tomorrow morning I'll find out what I can.  Until then, I wait.  I hate waiting.  There's no reason for the government not to be 24/7.

Take care & I'll try to do the same.

Cya...

Ugh Weekend...

 

This weekend went south.  I was already tired from the week.  Then the weather turned into a dreary, wet & cold mess.  Add to that my benefit renewal application has apparently gone sideways.  I can't even find out what happened until Monday morning.    

Being tired, the weathers sucking & bad news arriving makes for a crap weekend.  Add to that, I didn't sleep well.  There was too much weather noise, cat ruckus & nerves for me to settle.  Another shoe drops.  

Cya...

Renewals...

 

It's an ick morning, dismal, wet & chilly.  So much for Spring.  We got notice, our benefit renewals were due.  Mine went through last night without a hitch.  Of course that was too easy.  When my roomie's could be done, halfway through it, the internet went down.   It finally came back & the renewal was finished.  Thanks net, add to the drama.

I'm running a little behind due to this.  I need to get showered & go shopping.  We also need to run a  couple of errands.  Hopefully, it won't rain much while we're out.   It probably will.

That's it for this morning, take care.

Cya...

A Dip...

 

I was doing a little better.   Then every yard in the neighborhood got mowed on Thursday, including ours.  That was followed by some very gusty rain.  Friday was nothing but ballistic wind basting pollen & debris everywhere.  

I'm not as bad, but it was a definite step backwards.  To hell with all the mowing.  Screw the damn wind.  I need to get over this crap, it's exhausting.

We got our DHS benefit renewals in & I think handled.  I say, "I think" because I'm never sure how we did with that damned site of theirs, it's so glitchy.  I guess, we'll see.

Cya...