My Mistake...

 

It's the time of year when seasonal prep comes into play.  There's some bushes in the yard that need trimmed.   It's still muggy & warm, so I had no plans on trying anything big.  I took the small clippers out with me to have a look.  I let myself think I could do a bit.  That was the mistake.  I did a little & it caught up with me almost instantly.  I was drenched, breathing hard, coughing, eyes blurring & my hands were starting to shake.  

I didn't do hardly anything.  Not near as much as I would've in the past, but that's gone.  I tossed what little I did cut into the pile, gathered myself & the clippers & went inside.  Of course there were damned ants.  Half an hour later & I'm still rattled, hands shaking & my breathing is rough.  I wrecked my sinuses for the day.   The only thing I did accomplish was figuring out I needed to call someone to do the job.  Besides me wiping out quickly, there are things I just can't reach & they're near wires.

That's done.  We'll look for someone to handle it.  I need a shower.   Maybe I'll feel better by noon.  That's all.  Take care.

Cya...

Still A Lot...

 

There's been so much on our plates for so long.  Things shift, but no space really clears.  Yesterday's net outage shouldn't have got to me as bad as it did, but I was already just skating by.  It was just another stupid thing someone or something else inflicted on us.  

This is going to be a busy week & we have so much to handle.   Spring stuff is beginning & I don't know what we'll do about that.  The problem is I can't just break for a while.  Everything else is happening at the same time.   Every time I've broken in the recent past, I've wound up in the hospital.   Those trips may have kept me going, but they only delayed what was happening at home.

2026 is wearing me out & it's only March.  The temp swings are hard.  Less than 2 weeks ago, the overnights were freezing.  It's the low 90°s for this weekend.  Add all the pollen & it's a little rough.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Too Much...

 

I've really needed some nothing days, they haven't been showing up.  I thought yesterday was going to be, but later in the afternoon, my roomie's computer died.  She offered to wait, but it needed done & we might've had to order something.  Now, there's the crap of setting up a new system.

I'm angry that I woke up this morning.  I really didn't want to.   The car screwed up, the computer crashed, the weather's sucked, the phones were being weird; it's more than I can handle.  My body reacted last night & my stomach starting cramping & making me nauseous.  I was in the bathroom a lot from it.  I didn't sleep well & I'm achy.  Waking up isn't anything but a promise of more BS to come.

That's all for now.  At least the trash ran.

Cya...

Soaked...

 

We've doubled our monthly rainfall totals.  The rivers & lakes are overflowing.  The ground is saturated.  We could still get more rain.   Besides the abundance of moisture right now & is it's potential damage, bugs are thriving.  The yard looks like a pasture, but it's too wet to mow.

Now, watch it get hot & instantly steamy.  It'll be our luck, we probably won't get much rain for the rest of the Summer, which is in 5 days.  Hard to tell, with all the drear.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Sore Saturday...

 

I did a bit more than I'm used to yesterday & it shows.  My roomie & I were fairly ill Thursday, I was mostly over yesterday, not so much for her.  It was a decent day & then a freak rain hit for less than an hour.  It was a cold rain, it should've cooled things down more.  It didn't, it made everything a damn steam pit.  

I slept wrong last night, probably due being me, the stuff I did & the rain induced humidity.  I woke & my shoulder was hurting, not just sore.   It's still achy this morning.  I hate being able sleep wrong.  Who the hell decided that should even be possible?  

Hopefully, it will be an easy day.  Take care.

Cya...

Pause...

 

There's been a lot of over stimulation these last few years, probably longer.  The problem is, nothing ever settles & no one gets to come down off the edge.   That's been our life for some time.  We've been trying to trim things back.  It isn't an easy undergoing, but I think we're making some progress. 

Even on nothing days like today, there's stuff flitting around.  Things to do, things we're trying to finish, etc...  Today, there's the constant rustle of annoying wind.  Wind didn't used to bother me, but now it's just another thing rubbing against the grain. 

I don't need to be alone in an isolation zone.  But, I do understand the want to lessen the constant input of stimulation; wind, heaters, cold, fuzzy blankets, to-do lists, day-to-day things, etc...  Sometimes, a switch to push for 5 minutes of nothing would be awesome.  There are times when even listening to songs I like is just too much at the moment.  I'd just like to control where I spent my attention & it wouldn't be on other people's crap or the irritating weather.

If you can, for a few minutes, stop, breathe & tell everything else to F'off.  

Cya...

Too Much...

 

July is proving to be just too much.  I'm tired of being stuck between the Miser Brothers.  Everything is either too cold or too hot.   We need the middle.  I'm not sure how well things are going to go for the blog for the Summer.  Things are staying too much & there have been very few good articles published.

I'll keep looking.  Take care & stay safe.

Cya...

Last March Trash Outing...

 

It's the last time taking trash to the curb for March.  Of course it's a wet, dismal shit of a morning.  Hopefully this will end soon.  March hasn't  made the time change easy. It's mostly been a pissy, grey brat.

I wasn't feeling well yesterday.  It was a weird day for  us & I wound up feeling off all day.  I went to bed a little early.   I did something I rarely do.  I slept a full  8 hours.  I can usually only do that when I'm sick.  I don't like it.  Sleeping that long leaves me groggy for hours.  Of course, it's a dreary damn morning, so waking is even harder.   

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Full Night...

 

I did something rare for me.  I actually got 8  hours of sleep last night.  I'm usually around 7 to slightly over.   Sometimes I get less.  A night or so of getting less is OK.  After that, I start feeling off quick.  The strange thing is 8 hours of sleep always leaves me waking very groggy.   It takes me quite a while to actually feel fully functional.  

I woke to brighter skies, but they clouded over quickly.  We  have more  rain chances.  After that last round, we passed our monthly average.   These grey skies don't mix well with being groggy.  

Maybe some people are meant to get 8+ hours per night.   I don't think that's true for all of us.  Unless I'm sick, it always feel like too much.   I'll be normal here in a bit, but that much sleep, grey  skies & allergies are a lot to move past in the morning.

That's all for me.   In your life, the things people tell you that you need, like 8 hours of sleep, may not always work for you.  That's OK.  Figure what does work & stick to that.  It's your life, it should be livable for you, not others. Take care.

Cya...

Just Off...

 

Nothing wants to settle.  The election, COVID, weather, allergens & none of it wants to calm down or end. I didn't sleep well last night because it got so warm.  I woke & when I sat up my nose began to bleed.  It wasn't bad, but I was so dehydrated that it took a bit to get it to stop.  By then I was awake & never really got back to sleep.  

We'll go shopping in a bit.  I'll probably finish the new PC tomorrow.  I just don't feel like much today.  Maybe, I'll feel better later.  Just take it a step at a time & I'll get through this.  At least, that's the plan.

Cya...