Chance of Meh...

 

Even though rainfall averages have been passed, the weather feels the need for more storms.  There's chances for them all day.  The skies will be dark & there may be thunder, but there's not supposed to be much rain, just a lot of meh.

A lot of articles for months now have been about a single topic, funding.  The US's $ stunt has jeopardized the entire world's fight against HIV.  I hope the rest of the world figures out a way to operate completely  independent of US cash.   Maybe then, this country could be treated like it should be & left in a corner like a bad child.  For the sake of egos, wealth & politics, this administration is willing to let the world burn.  To hell with every MAGA, orange asshat & conservative. 

Cya...

Could've Gone Better...

 

This crappy 2026 Spring continues with more haze, drear & storms.   It's gotten hot, but any light has been fleeting.  This muggy, dark mess sucks.  It rained more last night.  A little more & it'll double the monthly rainfall average.  

Neither of us felt well yesterday.  I wound up forgetting something we planned on doing.  It'll have to get handled this morning on top of all the normal Friday stuff.   Way to go me, make more of a mess for yourself.

I need to get around.  We have shopping & errands.  Hopefully nothing else pops up.  

Take care.

Cya...

Still Dark In June...

 

Again June is a dark mess.  It's almost Summer & this looks like a morning in January.  Of course it had to storm.  It was supposed to last night & didn't.  That made sleeping less than pleasant.  I'm just tired of this.  Why the hell did I wake up?

I needed this dark crap to be over, but hey that doesn't matter.  The mood I've been in, the world could burn & I'd be fine.  I'm just too over this to care about much anymore.  I'm tired of being scared, anxious, stressed.  I'm just tired & pissed that I woke up.  

I have a 80s pin somewhere that says, "Life's a bitch & then you die."   That's not right.   Life is a bitch, but you don't just to die, you linger.    You don't thrive, you just exist.

That's it this morning.  To hell with June & its BS storms & drear.  Apparently there is no bright season anymore.  I hope all you cloud lovers choke.

Cya...

Day After Appointments...

 

The day of errands & appointments went alright.   The appointments themselves went fine.  Getting over there & back was a little annoying.   The traffic was weird & patchy.  Then it decided to storm during most of the outing.

We got home & it rained for the rest of the day.  I'm dealing with day after cleaning teeth.  Everything feels a little off & sensitive.   That's handled for the next 6 months.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Forecast Lied...

 

There was no call for dark, noisy storms this morning, but here they are.   Waking this morning has been a challenge.  The bad part of all this, even though the storms won't stop & the skies won't clear, there hasn't been that much precipitation.  We're still short of the monthly rainfall average.

May hasn't been a bad month, but it certainly hasn't been good time either.  I don't why I keep looking for good times.  Those haven't been a thing for while now.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Not So Great Again...

 

I didn't sleep that well again.  It was better than the night before, but not great.   Right before shutting down last night, Windows decided it didn't like a program I've used for years.  It won't even let it open anymore.  So far, I haven't found a workaround.  I looked for replacements & I may have found somethings, we'll see if any work.

Then it decided to storm more last night.  Between yesterday & last night, we got about 2".   There's more rain in the forecast for the end of the month.   We're still short some for our monthly average.  

This morning there was lots of outside noise.  It was too cool for a fan, so there was no buffer sound.  The outdoor cats had a standoff as well.  Let there not be a moment of peace & quiet.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

May Storm Season....

 

It was very muggy yesterday & last night.  It didn't make for great sleeping weather.   It's storming now & has a 50/50 chance to keep storming for the rest of the month.  I'm tired of it being so dark.   I know we need rain, but this drear is rough.

I didn't sleep well.  I'm annoyed by the dark storm crap.  I need to go get a shower.  That's my morning.  Take care.

Cya...

Hail...

 

It stormed again last night.   It was abrupt & not really on the forecast until right before.  It rained about 0.5", but hail was the issue.  We can go for years without any serious hail.  Maybe we get some sleet or pea sized hail, but not lately.   This was the 3rd time in a couple of weeks we've had storms with notable hail.  People east of us got much larger hailstones & the storm did some damage.  This hail BS can go elsewhere.

That's about it this morning.  It should start warming up some.  It's bright this morning.  I actually got started on washing some seasonal things to be put away.  Maybe I'll get through more this week.

Cya...

The Weather....

 

In a little over a week, there's been a nearly 50° temperature swing, astounding pollen levels, storms, winds, hail & over 3.5" of rain.  This hasn't been an easy mid-month.  Most of it's cooler than normal, hazy & humid.  It's making pulling out of SAD very difficult.  The rain's needed, the rest of it was just crap.  Dark mornings, weird light & storm tension have left me a little rattled.  It'd be nice just to have bright, nothing days.  

I did see some articles that looked interesting.  Paywalls blocked them both.  Maybe I'll see the topic somewhere else soon.  I know these people need to get paid & that I'm always low on funds.  But, I doubt very many people could pay for all these paywalls even if they wanted to.  Who cares if they've got great information if no one ever sees it?

Cya...

More Storms...

 

It dumped over 2" on us yesterday in a mix of hard rain, wind & hail.   It was dark & loud.  When it passed, the sky stayed yellow until sunset.   We have chances for more heavy rain storms tonight.  The monthly rainfall averages have been met.

It's April & sometime during this month is our cat, Millie's birthday.  She turned 10 this year.  Not a kitten anymore.  Happy Birthday little boop cat.

Take care.

Cya...

It Was A Dark & Stormy...

 

Not a great morning for waking.  It's dark & has been storming for a bit.  Our area can't just do rain showers anymore, it's always got to be storms.  This has been loud & dark.  I have to go shopping in a bit.  That won't be fun.  

We're getting to the end of April & it hasn't been a great Spring.  There's still a lot going on that we have no real idea about.  Hard to make a plan without any solid info.  

Other than going shopping, there shouldn't be much going on today.  That's it for now.

Take care.

Cya...

Stormy Morning...

 

It's been storming all night.  It's not been too bad, but there's been a lot of rain.  The Weather Channel has us over 2.5".  We need rain.  It'd be nice to make up for the deficit that's been running since January.

There isn't anything else happening here.  I'm fine with that.  We need some down time.  This is it, take care.

Cya...

More Needed...

 

It's going to be a colder, stormier weekend.  We need the rain, but not the storms or darkness.   We've been short on rainfall this year.  

I managed to get a decent night's sleep.  It wasn't enough.  I'm still worn out.  A single night isn't going to cut it.  It doesn't help this morning is hazy, windy & pollen ridden.

It's the 1st of the month & bills must be handled.  Then we'll go be shopping, check mail & hopefully home.  I've had enough outings for a bit.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

More & More...

 

It's been more of things I didn't want; storms, aches, allergies, low blood pressure, off sleep & BS.  I'm tired & achy.  Allergies, low blood pressure & dehydration have wrecked my head.    It was noisy this morning, another thing screwing with my sleep.  

It's been DST since Sunday & there's been precious little daylight during that time.   Even with all these bouts of rain & storms, we're still short on our rainfall average.   So far 2026 has been a little dry.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Ugh Morning...

 

Several factors are threatening the ongoing fight against HIV, much of it is due to republicans.  This 1st piece's topic has been in the news for weeks.  Because of cuts to medicaid & HIV programs, many states are scaling back their assistance programs.  This cost many their coverage & meds.

Due to ICE, people, even US citizens, are avoiding places that could put them in contact with the agency.  This article covers how it's impacting treatment in some communities.

This last piece is about people with HIV in Ethiopia, especially  adolescents & young adults (AYA).  It shows that women carry a higher burden when it comes to HIV, yet the research is on them is much lower than that concerning males.  This may be about Ethiopia, but the same issue regarding women has been prevalent in many studies.  This has been an ongoing complaint against current research studies & standards.

On to my morning.  This morning is dark, wet & fairly yuck.  I'm achy & tired.  It figures the 1st several days after the time change would be miserable storm BS.  I need sunlight.   My jolty morning are ramping up & leaving a depleted mess.  SAD shouldn't last into March.  It did last year & I'm hoping this isn't a thing from now on.

Wow, 3 articles in a single post.  But they're all about how we're failing in the fight against HIV.  The weather is screwing my DST.  Plus there's still everyday crap to deal with.  So, yeah, March is being just peachy.

Take care.

Cya...

It's Here...

 

There were a lot of articles out, but most were the beginnings of ongoing research.   These were brief bits about what researchers are looking at, not what they've found.  A new research technique or method is important, but not a topic for a lay article.  Maybe when these ideas are fleshed out, they'll be something.

This was not an easy morning, but nothing this week has been.  It stormed hard all night & the noise kept waking me.  It's still dark & raining, so waking is has been difficult.   It figures this would happen this week.

Tonight is the time change.  We'll have more light.  Still, I never do well with the changes in the beginning.  This last few weeks have made sure it'll be harder than it needed to be.  There are some things that could've made the ongoing processes so much easier, but instead they added hazards & roadblocks.  To all that hindered us, whatever they may be, may only the worst of things come your way.

That's it.  Articles aren't ready.  Loud storms suck.  There's been too much on the plate.  Some people need to fall in a hole & never climb out.  Dark mornings are horrible.  At least the time change is here.

Take care.

Cya...

Not So Great...

 

For the last several years, I've felt off & not as well as I should.  It's never been a solid thing I could ID & there were always other more pressing issues.  I'd tried to get rest & get through it.   The last couple of years have been harder, but again there was a lot of stuff to handle.  Since September it's been a cascade of issues & appointments.  I really hoped by now, most of this crap would be off our plate, but it isn't.  

Spring is coming & that means seasonal issues; benefit renewals, storms, yard work, etc...  Everything else is still hanging on & not getting settled.  I'm doing my best.

SAD has been a real issue this year.  I was hoping it had passed for now, it hadn't.  For a while I've woke jolty several times during the night & almost every morning.  This is exhausting & takes so much from what little I had left just to get my morning started. 

I need things to stop, to be over, at least for a little while.  No more waiting, getting things fixed, piles of unknowns or difficult idiots.  I'm not fine & I'm not even sure what my best is anymore.  I'm spent & need to be done.

A lot of times, I wish I'd never made it into adulthood.  It had nothing to offer that I needed or wanted.  I wonder what if I'd died at a midnight showing of Rocky, spinning under a disco ball at the rink or even dancing under the lights at a club.  That would've been a good ending.  Instead I'll probably die in some disgustingly substandard, abysmally predictable hellhole. 

It's dark out & supposed to storm.  The upcoming week looks to be the same.  Here comes more SAD & cortisol.   Even if the sun did shine, it wouldn't matter, too much shit is still there & not going anywhere.  Being this tired, swamped by BS & dealing with this life is more than I can handle.   I don't need a refund or exchange, I just want it all gone.

There's my murky morning rant.

Cya...

Still Busy...

 

It stayed dark & stormy the entire time we were out yesterday.  The appointments & errands took much longer than expected.  It was dark when we got back.  

We have someone coming to install a new ceiling fan.  Hopefully this goes well.  Things need to get off the plate.  The holidays are coming fast; 2 days til Thanksgiving & 30 for Christmas.  But the best day is still 111 days out, when daylight saving time begins.

That's it for now.  We still have other errands to handle.  Take care.

Cya...

Busy Last Week...

 

There's a lot to handle this week & most of it has nothing to do with holidays.  It was already hectic before the ceiling fan light went down.  Now that needs to be replaced.  It's the primary light in the living room.  We'll try to pick something up today & get someone out soon to install it.

There are appointments & dinners this week plus our normal routine.  It's storming, let's make it dark & wet.  I'm not sleeping as well as I should & all of this is making things a lot harder.   I'm tired, stressed & fraxious. 

We have to go soon.  My roomie has an appointment & we have to get a ceiling fan.  Maybe the storm will let up before we head out.

Take care.

Cya...

Early Appointment...

 

Not happy I'm up early for a medical appointment.  Earlier appointments tend to mean shorter wait times.  So, I opt for them.  It doesn't help I didn't sleep well.  Nor that it's dark & trying to storm.   A check up is my to-do for this morning.  

I hate the 'Ber months.  We're back to dismal gray.  It could stay like that for a bit.  Winter sucks & we aren't even there yet.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...