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Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

A Little Late...

 

It's a little in the Summer to be talking about seasonal change, but here we are.  It took longer to get to the Summer heat this year.  It was about the same time as fireworks, mowing & the town burning debris.  All that has made it a rough shift into the season.  I never handle seasonal change well, especially when it's abrupt.  It always seems to be that way anymore.

Changes like this screw with me.  It makes me feel off, my stomach goes south, sinuses are shot, sleep isn't always great, etc... I eventually catch up, but it can take a bit.  Until then, it sort of sucks.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, April 26, 2026

The Weather....

 

In a little over a week, there's been a nearly 50° temperature swing, astounding pollen levels, storms, winds, hail & over 3.5" of rain.  This hasn't been an easy mid-month.  Most of it's cooler than normal, hazy & humid.  It's making pulling out of SAD very difficult.  The rain's needed, the rest of it was just crap.  Dark mornings, weird light & storm tension have left me a little rattled.  It'd be nice just to have bright, nothing days.  

I did see some articles that looked interesting.  Paywalls blocked them both.  Maybe I'll see the topic somewhere else soon.  I know these people need to get paid & that I'm always low on funds.  But, I doubt very many people could pay for all these paywalls even if they wanted to.  Who cares if they've got great information if no one ever sees it?

Cya...

Monday, March 23, 2026

Busy Drop...

 

In the past week we've gone from the mid 20s to mid 90s.  That's a 70° swing.  With the pollen & wind, it's no wonder people are sick.  It dropped 20° today.  Tuesday & Wednesday will be warmer & then it should be seasonal temps.

This is will be a busy week.  In addition to our normal routine, my roomie has an appointment.  It'll require getting around very early & a return trip the following day.

Still waiting for other things to happen so we can move on with finishing our current matters.  But there's nothing more I can do at the moment.  Maybe soon.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Saturday, March 14, 2026

Warm, Windy & Ridden...

 

Today is sunny & warm.  It's also windy & with lots of pollen.  This will be the end of the sunny & warm for a bit.  Tomorrow is supposed to be colder & storm.  Then the forecast calls for 2 nights under freezing.  This weather switching & pollen may be normal for this time of year, but it's still rough.

There isn't much going on today,  I'll try to enjoy the sun while it's here.   Monday will start another busy week.  After that, it'll be more roller coaster weather.  That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, March 10, 2026

Still Adjusting...

 

The problem with this time of year is the wide swing of things.  The light levels are getting better, but dark storms are common.  It's warming & there are 80s in the forecast for highs.  Then again, the same forecasts calls for a couple of overnights just around freezing.  So, it's weird light, high pollen, storms & a 50+ temperature range.  

Those aren't easy things to adjust to.  I probably won't until things settle down some.  For now, I'm achy, tired & my morning blood pressure has been too low.  Transitions have never been my forte.  I'll get there, but for now, this sort of sucks.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

Not So Great...

 

Winter is getting to me; I'm cold, achy & anxious.  This week hasn't been easy so far & it's going to get worse.  Sunday night the internet went out.  It was back on by the morning.  But Monday morning, I was dealing aches, nosebleeds & then the car had an issue.  Tuesday's appointment started early & lasted throughout the day.  We didn't have everything wrapped up until around 4 PM.  This morning I woke to no internet again.  Optimum won't even give time estimates any more.  There's supposed to be bad weather all weekend.  I'm just exhausted already.

There was nothing going on last night, but I still felt anxious.  My body felt like it was vibrating, even though I was OK.  I'm tired of everything being a challenge or problem.  

There are some improvements happening for my roomie.  There are plans.  I should be happy, but everything these days makes me anxious.  These are good things & need to happen.  I'm just worried about the process, fall-out & possible disasters.  

I haven't been in a good place for a long time.  I don't see that happening anytime soon.  I'm on edge.  Too much could screw up or change badly.  The worse thing is, so little of these things are in our control.

Life shouldn't be like this & I realize so many people have it a lost worse than I do.  If I was them, I really think, I'd already checked out of life.  None of this is worth being this constantly anxious & distressed.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Friday, January 16, 2026

Mid Friday...

 

This is the midpoint of January.  There shouldn't be much going on today besides shopping & some errands.  It hasn't been a pleasant morning.   I wasn't sure if I'd have internet this morning.  It dropped out late last night.  The weather is being a pill.  It's stayed warm enough for some of the highest winter allergen level this state has had & it's been very windy.  With little rain & the winds, it's been a fire hazard.  Now the temps are dropping again & clouds are blocking most of the light.   

I'm coughing, sneezing & dealing with watery, itchy eyes.  No, this isn't a great morning.   Maybe, the day will improve.  That's all for now.

Take care.

Cya...

Friday, December 12, 2025

Feeling Rough...

 

I'm doing my best not to get sick.  But, I'm feeling pretty rough.   I never do well with seasonal changes in weather.  But, the temps keep swinging back & forth.  There's been a lot of wind.  I'm not sure if it's allergies or just windblown debris, but I'm congested.  My eyes are watering, I'm coughing & my breathing has been raspy. 

We've got shopping then some errands.  After that, it should be home for the weekend.  I hope nothing comes up.  We could both use the rest.   

Take care.

Cya...

Friday, October 24, 2025

So Unsure...

 


My roomie & I have a plan how we're going to approach to the benefit cuts coming.  It isn't a solution, that's beyond us.  It's a buy some time strategy.  I hate this.

A lot of things I depend on are shifting & there's nothing I can do about it.  I'm tired of being at the whim of others.  People who aren't on assistance or disability have no idea how little control you have over aspects of your life.  Just when you think you've figured out the system, they change it or kill the whole thing.   They want you desperate & broken.  What they really want is for you to suffer & then die.

I haven't slept well in a while now.  It rained last night & I overslept this morning.  A train jolted me awake & I've still got the shakes from that.  Waking up is generally the worse thing I do every day.   Nothing good comes from it.

That's all for now.  I'm not sure when I'll be back to being me again.  I'm just an exhausted bundle of nerves & stress now.  Something needs to give soon.

Cya...

Sunday, October 19, 2025

It's Here...

 

Once again, there will be no real transition between seasons.  I'd put off most of the yardwork, because it had stayed in the upper 80s.  Now, it looks like 70s might be a rare thing after this week.  Instead of gradually cooling, we're dropping off a ledge.

This morning was bright, but fairly chilly.  I'll have to close up the house completely soon.  I hate that.   The fans we be stowed & the outside noise will creep in.  Not to mention relearning the various sounds the house  makes that the fans buffered. 

It's getting dark early.  There's just a little over 11 hours of sunlight.  Soon, the damn time change will happen.  Then it'll be dark stupidly early.   I hate the dark of the year.  

I say "to hell" with the 'Ber & 'Ary months.  I bet they'd say the same to me.  

Cya...

Thursday, October 16, 2025

Regimen Changes...

 

The earliest HIV regimens or cocktails contained many types of meds & often dozens of pills.  By the time I was taking meds, I was on about 2 dozen a day.  In a few years that lessened by 18 pills.  The med Fortovase was dropped in favor of an adjacent drug Invirase with a Norvir booster. 

After a few more years, another med Didanosine or Videx was discontinued & I was put on Triumeq.  For a little more than a year now, I've been on my latest med, Dovato.

My early meds were replaced due to causing many health issues dealing the heart, lipids, blood pressure, etc.  Some of the early drugs were fairly toxic. thus a lot of testing to see how your body was handling them.  Some of them ruined my hair & were hard on my teeth & skin.  These meds came with a host side effects, many gastrointestinal. 

Now I'm on a 1 a day - 2 drug med.  They're developing PrEP that can be taken monthly or biannually.   There are long acting injectable HIV meds that can last months.  Weekly and monthly oral options are in development.  That would mean between 12 - 52 pills a year.  In the beginning that wasn't even 3 complete days of meds for me.  

The meds are more effective, safer & easier to manage.   Biannual PrEP could functionally put a hold on HIV.  The only threats are ignorance, hate, greed & the orange stain.  If these obstacles can be overcome, there might be a chance to control HIV.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Thursday, September 4, 2025

Swing Weather...

 

The weather has been swaying back & forth from warm to cold, high to low humidity, & varying light levels.  Mabon or Autumn equinox may nearly 3 weeks away, but Fall weather is here.  It's shifting from 60s at night to nearly 90 during the day.  The humidity is ranging from 30% - 90+%.  It's so cloudy, the light's shifting throughout the day. 

All of that plus ragweed is making things hard.  Pour on some car drama & I not doing so great.  It'd be nice if something could just cooperate.  That's not going to happen.

Had my telemed appointment.   Everything went as expected.  They want me to get the shingles vaccination.  I'll see about getting that started.  It's a 2 dose process.    I'll see them again in 6 months.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Thursday, August 21, 2025

Alright, No More...

 

My roomie & I really do try to plan for things.  Even if those "plans" are only tentative, contingent or just thoughts on strategies for this or that.  We do put in an effort.  Too bad, more often than not, other things, often nonchalant people, trash our plans. 

We had this week laid out.  It was going to be busy as it was.  But yesterday, my roomie found out her appointment had been moved.  Instead handling that today, we'll have to move shopping & she'll go tomorrow.  It's doable, but this was done last minute,  without regard for any fallout on her.  We don't have to be at the top of the list, but I'm really tired of us being an afterthought.

Things like this cause wrinkles in every other plan following.  It shows a certain level of disrespect.  It's hard, aggravating & eventually it takes a toll on your well being.  No one wants to last on the list or just plain forgotten everytime.

That's all for, take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, August 13, 2025

Never Ending...

 


Being 58 has been like being at a really bad buffet where they keep loading your plate with things you never wanted.  There's been more of the typical crap like car stuff & house crap.  Then there were trips to the vet for both cats & now we're down to just Millie.  It's been hurry up, wait, spend a lot & stress even more.  Add to that, the crappy people of this country elected that orange bastard.   Him & his ilk are always  a threat.

My SAD hit early last year & I think it will again.  I'm really noticing the changing light.  I've got labs to be drawn & a telemedicine appointment coming up.  Big, new stress could be lurking on the edge.  I won't say much about it, because I'm not sure of anything.  I just know, I don't trust the situation.  I could be wrong, but so little goes our way.  During all of this, my roomie has had several ongoing health matters she's been dealing with.  They seem to be going well, but they take effort & planning.

We haven't really had our normal holiday routine since COVID.  We're trying, but things just aren't cooperating.  58 has been about stress, expense, lose, worry & exhaustion.  Life needs more off ramps.  I need to step away from this plate that things keep piling crap on.  I've had way more than my fill.

Cya...

Thursday, May 8, 2025

2 Things...

 

This article is looking at an association between NRTI HIV drugs & a decrease of Alzheimer’s disease numbers.  This study is in early days & is very limited.  The researcher reviewed 20+ years of medical records of people 50+, who were taking these meds for HIV, PrEP or hepatitis.  These records were from the Veterans Health Administration Database.  It's worth noting these records were mostly of men.

At a glance these meds did seem to impact Alzheimer's incidence.  However there is much more that needs to be known before this can be considered a viable avenue for prevention.   Add to that many of these medications are very old & come with a host of side effects, issues, costs & other reactions.   Still, it's a novel start in a new direction.

Next up, my dentist office is closing.  I'm not happy about this.  I've been going to this place since about 2008.  Another keystone place I had is gone.  I'll never be in that building again.  I liked that place, it was comfortable, easy to get to, attractive & very nature oriented.  You could look a their garden during your appointment.  You'd see a host of birds, squirrels  & some other beasties from time to time.   The dentist that got me on this journey left some time back, then the receptionist, then my hygienist.  Now the whole building will be gone & I'm starting all over.  I hate this, but nobody asked my opinion.  This was my last solid place left.  Hopefully, the new place will be nice.

At least my cleaning went well.  Take care.

Cya...


Monday, April 28, 2025

Season Change & Noise...

 


It's the time of year when it's not quite hot or cold.  It changes through the night along with the humidity levels.  I'm not sleeping like it's either warm or cool, but somewhere in between.  It's leaving me tired, achy & dehydrated.   

I'm not using fans yet, so there isn't anything buffering the outdoor noise.   The neighborhood has gotten loud.  For some reason, our street has become more popular as a pass through.  There was a lot of noise last night, some of it being made by our cat.  Past 4:30, it woke me nearly every hour.  I got back to sleep, but not well.

It's a shopping day & then home.  I hope that's all.  I don't think I can do much more.

Cya...

Monday, April 14, 2025

Rough 2nd Monday...

 

We're at the time of year when the temps can't figure out where they want to be & getting comfortable can be challenging.  There's tons of pollen & the winds are blowing debris, so allergies are acting up.  I need to crank up the water, it might help me to not wake up so dehydrated & achy.  

Today is a shopping day & we'll stop by the pharmacy as well.  I think that's about it for us.  I just need to get over this morning's cough fits & stuffy nose beforehand.  

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, April 13, 2025

Sorta Off...

 

While I'm glad it's getting warmer & brighter, the winds, pollen & temp swings are rough.  I've been waking dehydrated with low blood pressure.  That leaves me sluggish.  The temp swings & pollen are making me ache, cough & deal with bad sinus issues.  

It's going to be in the upper 80s today & could be in the mid 40s tomorrow night.  Those shifts aren't fun.  Maybe after this week, the lows will bottom out in the 50s.  Then I can start stowing away the Winter stuff.

Other than a lot of neighbors doing yard work, yesterday was fairly quiet.  That was nice. 

That's all, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, March 23, 2025

Odd Busy Sunday....

 

Today's going off norm.  We're doing Monday's shopping because my roomie has a day of appointments tomorrow.  Today will be odd, but tomorrow's going to be tiresome.   We have leave out early & spend most of the day handling things.  

My roomie's heading into a challenging process.  It should make things better for her though.  It's going to be a process.  The problem during times like this, is life goes on, no matter how you're doing.  She's done what she can to prepare, now it's just doing it.

I will try to post tomorrow, hopefully I won't forget.

Take care.

Cya...

Saturday, March 22, 2025

A New Start...

 

Come Monday, my roomie will start a new "project" for herself.  It's a health matter, so I won't go into too much detail about it.  But, it will be a big deal for her & change a lot in her everyday life.  The process won't last forever, but will take some adjustments.  While it may not seem like it in the beginning, this could improve her well being.  The problem with health issues is that it's always a process.  We're rarely told that bit.  It's going to be a busy start of the week.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...