I've Had Enough ...

2017, Thank you, but I've had enough.  Can you please leave & just let 2018 start now?   I was hoping this year would be better than 2016, but 2017 has actually been worse.  Thanks a lot. 

To add to all my gripes I've already had with this year, my doctor's office called yesterday & dropped another bomb on me.  My doctor will no longer be accepting or meet some criteria to accept my insurance.  Scary dum dum dummmmm sound!!!!

Apparently, he started working for another nursing home & won't be directly in his office enough hours a week for the state's medicaid not to pitch a fit.  I'll still going there, but apparently my processing will go through the office now & not him,  

They assure me this will all work out fine.  I really hope so.   Right now, I'm scared & angry.  I've had enough scary,  awful, stressful crap this year.    I don't think I can deal with much more.   I don't have any plan-B's for this situation.   

I'm not pleased with much of anything right now, but I definitely know that I hate 2017.  It needs to go right now.  Before it screws me over again.  2017, you are seriously bad luck.

Cya...

Last Friday In September...

My title sounds like a Barry Manilow song.    We went shopping this morning.  Past that, we don't have much in store for the rest of the day or the month for that matter.   

We got the electric bill in this morning.  It's weird still & may be up to a year.  For now, it's not bad.  

The mornings are staying darker & the sun is setting earlier.  I already miss my Summer beasties.   At least yesterday's drizzle brought out all the sparrows to play.   I'm glad the grass won't be needing mowed for a while, but I really hate looking out my window at all the yucky brown.  I know, I can't be happy.

Enjoy the last moments of September.

Cya...

Slight Drizzle...

It drizzled this morning, less than an 1/8".  They say we'll get more. maybe up to 1/3".  That'd only leave us down 4+" for the month & well over a foot & a half for the year.   This has been a dry year for us.   It's been hard on everything.

The drizzle may not have been much, but it was appreciated.

Cya...

Elder Transmission....

According to this article, HIV transmission rates are edging upwards in UK & European populations 50 & older.  The problem is a prevailing image issue, that HIV is not a virus mature people get.   That's BS.  HIV doesn't care about demographic factors.   These people aren't being educated about HIV, their risks or being tested.  Many are in advanced stages of the illness when finally diagnosed, complicating the matter further.

It pisses me off that this far out, people are still so under educated & unaware of HIV.  This is beyond ridiculous, it's borderline criminal.    There is no reason any one living today in a reasonable level of society should be this dangerously ignorant.

Cya...

Fall Funk...

Autumn is here & I'm not doing well with it.  I did OK with my birthday this year.  Seasonal change is weird for me.    This year the weather went back & forth.  It really messed me up.   I know I should be happier.  The'll be no more mowing, fewer bugs & it'll be cooler.  

But, there won't be any flowers, hummingbirds & bright insects.  It means shutting the windows & closing the house for the season.   There'll be less light, less diversion.  It's just more time for me to be in my head &  I don't need that.  I do my best not to think about things anymore.  

For me, 1 of the biggest issues with HIV, is its solitary, permanency.  The knowing it's never going away.  The longest relationship of your life, could wind up being with a virus trying to kill you.  Oh f'ing joy!

It's only 10 something in the morning & I'm already tired.   I need to get a shower.  Maybe I'll watch a movie.  That's been hard for me lately.   My head won't stop long enough for me to focus.  My roomie will home about 5.  Pretty soon, it'll be dark by that time.  I hate that.

I'm just rambling now, so I'll write more tomorrow. Take care.  

I wish you a joyful moment today.

Cya...

Lost Another 1...

When we moved into this house there was an abundance of shrubs & bushes.  Over the years we've lost some.  Due to soil conditions, heat, drought & possibly something living in the soil.   We've lost a rose bush, most of a Rose of Sharon bush, half of an azalea & a good part of a wild rose bush.    It seems another Rose of Sharon bush is falling as well.  I went to check on some dead leaves last night & most of the bush fell over onto the ground.    I might be able to salvage the stump.  

The past several years have been hard on growing anything.   It's either feast or famine in regards to rainfall.  There have been numerous very hot Summers.   Those hot, dry years combined with the near floods have weakened the plants & they're dying off.   I'm not sure how much longer any of these shrubs will make it with this weather.

Hopefully, they'll last.  They're what attracts the hummingbirds & other yard animals.  I'd hate to lose those as well.  

Cya...

Heat Issues...

My roomie & I have felt like hell for the last week.  We weren't ready for the resurgence of heat.  It quite literally kicked our ass.  We  both feel queasy, achy & exhausted.   Between the heat, fans & allergens my body is dried out. My skin is dried & cracking.  My sinuses are raw & I'm dealing with nosebleeds.  I'm going through lip balm like crazy.

This heat is supposed to be gone soon.  I hope so.  I really need to get past all this mess.  

Cya...