Bye Bye Baby...

The last day of August is here.  The final day of my year.  Tomorrow I reset he calendar.  For me this is day # 365.  I don't mind the numbers.  I'm sort of glad to be leaving this month.  It's the month another cat passed & after this, we're on the downhill run of the hot Summer temps.

This hasn't been an easy month, but then again it hasn't 1 of the hardest either, not even for this year.   This has been an odd year for me.  In some ways it's been easier than the last couple, but in other it was more trying for both my roomie & me.  

I'll be grateful for the less than hellish weather August usually brings.  I'll be thankful that no major issues with machines developed that demanded immediate attention happened.  There were some close calls, but nothing imminent.   You've been a fairly good August, until next year,

Cya...

Letting Go...

Well, it's time for me to let go of another activity I have.  I hate to do it.  I don't have a lot to do & I have a tendency to hold on to things to long.  But, it's time.  This thing started moderately diverting, then slowly devolved into work & frustration.  Diversions are meant to entertain or distract, not aggravate.

For me, these things become habitual.  They pass the time. Letting go of it means I have to come up with something else or deal with the empty time.  

Like I said, it was time.  This activity had become a serious nuisance.  No one needs an unnecessary irritant in their life, so it had to go.   Still getting used to not doing it, but it'll work out.  Sometimes, things just have to be gotten rid of to make your life better.

Cya...

Getting Hot...

We're heading into another hot day.  We're supposed to get into the upper 90's F.   The humidity is still higher than I'd like.  Can't forget the allergens are hella high.  On top of that, the yard got mowed last night, so my sinuses are in a state of righteous irritation & indignation.   

The drainage has left me sucking on cough drops all day & drinking anything I can't my hands on to keep my throat cleared.   It isn't working very well.  The irritants are giving me slight nose bleeds.  This is sucking.

As usual, it looks like there'll be nada to do on my B-Day.  I'm used to that.  Having a birthday at the end of Summer & the beginning of school is no fun.  The movies have played out & everyone's more focused on the last weekend of Summer.  Oh well, I'll do something later on for it.  It's what usually has to happen.  

Cya...

Humpday...

It's another Wednesday.  The last 1 of August.  The last W'day of the year before my birthday.  I guess all these days this week have been the last of their kind for me this year.   No more Sundays, Mondays or Tuesdays either.  Soon there will be none of any of them.  

I'm not sure how I feel about that.  It's not the days passing or me getting older.  It's something else.  I'm not sure what there is for me in the days to come & there wasn't a lot for me in the days that have already gone by.   I've had some friends, some pets & some diversions.  But, there certainly are no mountains of things.  

Not that I ever really wanted hoards of stuff.  Especially, not after seeing all those television shows over hoarders.  Yikes.

Still, if I passed today all I'd leave behind are some memories, debt & perhaps a bit of chaos due to unfinished things.  Maybe that's all most people get to leave behind.  I'm not sure it even matters to me.

All I ever really wanted was a place to feel a bit more secure in things. That probably isn't going to happen.  I try not to think about these things.  I try not to think about most things.  It won't do me any good.  

Some people might say, I'm depressed or just depressing.  Maybe so, but I've just spent my life feeling like a leave floating on the water heading who knows where.  I'm pretty disconnected with things, people & places.  I'm not sure I'd want to be any different. It seems like people who are connected are always just getting hurt by those things.  

If there is an afterlife, I guess my heaven would be different than some.  It'd be a place where you rolled down the road listening to music, just travelling from place to place. You'd see concerts, eat good food, go to festivals & meet interesting people.  Then you'd be on  your way looking forward to the next adventure. No looking back, no regrets, no what-ifs.  You'd accept those other people had their own paths & that you might or might not meet them again.  Some kind of rambler's paradise.

Tomorrow is Thursday,  It'll  be the last of it's kind.  Then Friday & Saturday.  Sunday will be the 1st of it's kind of my new year.  Somewhere in there is a Janus moment, facing both ways.  So, I guess here's to a bunch more Wednesdays to come.

Cya...

Nada...

Not much going this morning.  The heat & pollen are high & are supposed to get higher.  I spent a large part of yesterday dealing with an off & on nosebleed.   I'm bad about getting them during allergy/fad season.  

My roomie's out for a bit I'm just surfing the web.  Not much of any in article-land I want to go over.  Other than the heat & sneezing, it's looking like a good day.

Cya...

Another Monday...

Not much going on here.  We went shopping this morning & that was the only thing on the had-to-do list.  I'm hoping the heat & humidity don't soar today.  I'd like a day when 87 F didn't feel like it was sitting at 105.  

For a while now Monday nights have been a good thing for us.  TV's been fun.  There's been American Ninja Warrior.  Which should be called bios of unknown athletes who will soon suffer horrible crash & burn situations before being discarded.  Then there's Get Out Alive with Bear Grylls.  Which should be titled, which one of them is going to kill that asshat Bear Grylls.  Finally, the event of the season.  The show so bad, it's good, Siberia.

Unfortunately, those shows will be ending soon & Monday nights will be back to being boresville.  At least for now there's some fun stuff.  Have to enjoy it while it lasts.

Cya...

Readjusting...

This is my ongoing pollen forecast.  It sucks.  It's being caused mainly by ragweed, nettles & grasses.  I hate them all.  The temps are creeping back up.  We may even hit 98 F a couple times in the next 10 days.  That's not high for August. However, usually hot August days aren't accompanied by hella humidity.  Again, I say, "THIS SUCKS!!!"

I know it's almost over, but can't it just pick 1.  It can have hot, humid or hell-weeds, not all 3.  Well, I suppose it can have them, but I don't like.  Not even a little bit.

Hopefully, this crap will settle down soon.  

Cya...