Goodbye 2025...

 

Goodbye December & 2025, the door's opening for the next year.  I don't have much good to say about 2025.  My roomie fared far better than me.  Then again, the last 25 years haven't been my year.  I guess that doesn't happen anymore.  

I have no idea what 2026 has in store, I just hope it's better than this year.  This was a rough time for too many of us.   Here's too all those who won't be coming into the new year with us, be they 2 legged or not.

That's it for now, have a very Happy New Year.  May it kind to you & yours.

Cya...

The Now...

 

The Now & I don't have a good relationship.  Even in my head, I'm rarely in the now.  I'm not even this age, It varies where, when & who I am.  Sometimes I'm a little kid, a younger teen, older teen, 20 something, but none of them are here & now.  I'm in places I've been, wanted to be or that never were.  It's not always great, but it's almost always better than the now.  I'm not always in the past, sometimes my thoughts go forward & that's even worse.  Instead of nostalgia & regret; I get angst, worry & dread.  

I don't think I should've ever been.  Or maybe, I should've been a short run concept.  But life as it is & the Now, never felt like they were meant for me.  I was trying to wear someone else's wardrobe & do their lines.   

A new year is crashing in on us & I don't anticipate good tidings, pleasant surprises or opportunities.  I'm waiting for the shoe to drop.  At this point, it's more apt to rain anvils.  Meatloaf had it right.

It was long ago and it was far away and it was so much better than it is today - Paradise By The Dashboard Lights - 1977.

That's it, take care.  The end is almost here, so wrap it up or set it free.

Cya... 

Only 2 Full Days Left...

 

In some ways I'm so ready for this year to be over.  Then I'm also very apprehensive about 2026.  It's not like I've got a choice, but still, the options aren't great.  It would be easier not to focus on it if the orange wasn't present.  Then again, if he wasn't here, things probably wouldn't be so bad. 

This will probably be the last shopping of the year.  Then the last run to the bank & pharmacy.  It's almost over, 2025's bags are packed & it's about out the door.  It'll head off to wherever last years go when their days run out.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Revolving Dread...

 

There are 3 full days left in 2025.  The entirety of the 2000s has been a crapfest for me.  It's ranged from unpleasant to WTF happened & what did anyone do to deserve that?  I can't give any year of the 2000s a rating above tolerable at best.  The flavors & intensities of misfortunes have changed, but they all were horrid in their own way.

2026 is about to roll in & I'm dreading it.  I'd really be fine with not seeing it at all.  I hope good things come for those around me.  But, I don't see anything in my life going any direction but down.  

Some flickers did happen.  A few houses on nearby blocks had some lights.  If I looked the right way I could see them for a brief time.  Last night, the neighbors left their drapes open & I actually saw their Christmas tree lit up.  It was a pleasant surprise.   Did it change overall holiday?  No, but it did make last night just a little easier to handle.

The holiday is over, I'm exhausted & let down.  Now there's the threat looming just over 72 hours away.  I'm not sure why, but there's no reason to expect anything good out of 2026 & the orange bastard.  It'd be nice to be wrong.  

Take care.

Cya...

The Very Lasts of 25...

 

Since the holiday, we've been on the lasts of the year.  This is the last Saturday of 2025.   Next Wednesday will end the year & next Saturday will be the anniversary for this blog & my HIV diagnosis.  In a sense, I'm ready for this year to be over, but I don't have any reason to believe 2026 will be better.

This year has really worn me down.  There was far too much cat issues, breakage, expense, political BS...  I haven't fared well.  I haven't kentsugied myself back together.  In my case, it'd probably be done with knock-off, white glue & have pieces missing.  We're ending 25 years into the 2000s & so far, they've mostly sucked me & mine.   

I hope the rest of the year treats you well, take care.

Cya...

Busy December Morning...

 

We have errands & shopping this morning.   Then we have to take trash out for a postponed pickup.  That'll happen next week as well.  After that, we're heading to a friends for a bit.  This will wrap up the holidays for us.

Yesterday went well.  It wasn't our normal, but, it could be a new part of our holiday to bring my roomie's stepmom along.  None of us many people left in the area.

This season has been a bit disappointing.  Beyond the stress brought by the asshat in orange, there just was so little umph put into the holiday.   The most decor & music I witnessed was at IHOP yesterday.   Even when I was very anti-holidays, I still enjoyed the lights.  There so few of them this year.

I hope your holidays are going well, take care & be kind to yourselves.

Cya...

The Holiday Has Arrived...

 

Christmas is here & we actually have plans.  We'll need to be out of here shortly.   There will more going-ons tomorrow.   Then the holiday can move along until next year.   So far, this round has felt like an obligation only my roomie & I got stuck with. 

I did manage to find an article.   It's a piece out of Florida concerning continuing late HIV diagnoses. Late diagnoses come with different issues & severities.  Give it a read.  This is why testing is so important.

That's all for now, Merry Christmas.

Cya...