Goodbye July...

 

This is the last day of July.  The month started off alright.  It wasn't that Summery.  It was overcast, damp & fairly mild temps.  Then the tail end got here.  It stayed hazy, while the humidity & temps cranked up.  I haven't handled this part of the month.  I'm not sleeping well & it's leading me to feel off, sick & anxious.  

Tomorrow starts August.   I have expectations for that month & they're all bad.  I think this is going to be a bad month.  It feels like a lot is coming my way & I probably won't be able to handle it.  I think this is going to be a month of loss.   It's the last month of my birth year.  It's the last month I'll be in my 50s.  

I really needed a good Summer.  Just another thing on the list I never got.  I don't need to see September.  I don't need more trips around the circle.  I would gladly just step off the ride.  I'm tired of feeling like this.  I hate knowing my life peaked decades ago & it wasn't that great.  I broke the GenX rule.  I should've died young.  I wouldn't have had to see what a disaster I became.

Goodbye July, you failed at being a good Summer month.

Cya...

Ugh, Failed Rain...

 

It got hot yesterday, about a 100°.  Then the temps dropped & we got a decent little dump of rain.  It dropped the temp down to the low 80s.  Then the rain stopped & the humidity ramped up.  That was actually worse than when it was 20° hotter.  I'll be glad when this heat dome moves on.  It's been a hazy, humid hell. 

The AC might not be on as early today.  We'll see.  Take care.

Cya... 

Not Quite As, Still...

 

Still no luck for articles.  It's not supposed to get as hot today, but it's already warming up.  The AC will be on as early.  Maybe it'll go off earlier & start later tomorrow.  I'm over this swelter.  After a while, it starts trying to turn you into jerky.

That's all for now.  We've have a few errands today.  Take care.

Cya...

Hot & Loud...

 

It's hard to do anything, but feel lousy right now.  It's been hot, humid & hazy.  By the time the haze is gone, the heat has ramped up.  As it cools down, the humidity climbs.  Last night was hot & this morning was muggy & loud.  The electric company is trimming trees.  Tree work on the hottest days is a bit barbaric.  I feel sorry for those people doing all that in this heat.

I only saw articles I had covered before.  None were from a new perspective.   This is it for now.  Take care.

Cya... 

Trampled...

 

My nerves are colliding with the heat, iffy sleep & life in general.   It's leaving me on edge.  I feel rattled & off about everything.  Every little thing is poking at me & testing what little nerve I have left.  To make things worse, I'm feeling worn out.  I wake up, get around & I'm already spent.  I need a breather just to get ready to shower.  Shopping isn't going to be fun today.  

The next couple of days are supposed to be +100°.  We didn't need to hit the century mark this year, but we've been here for a bit.  Hopefully, they stay in July.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Looming...

 

It hate the end of Summer.  Especially when it's been such a letdown of a season.  It's been summery hot & humid, but the light's been limited.  It's like dealing with SAD in a steambath.  Now July's ending & August is the only buffer I had before Sucktember.  

I never do well during that well during September.  My birth month is usually fairly awful for me.  It's not the actual birthday, it's the damned month & the fact it brings the end of Summer.  Screw Fall.

I've been worried about August for sometime.  Then September is always a crapfest for me.  I can't even find anything I'd like to do for my birthday.  I just can't shake the feeling something's about to hit the fan. 

Yesterday my roomie got news that would've been good months ago.  But now, it's landing in September.  The next couple of months are going to be hard on me.  I'm so damned tired of hard things.  All I want for my birthday is not to see it.  I really don't see anything left for me besides stress, fear & other crap happening to make my life harder.

2026 has sucked.  I don't see that changing.  Oh well, who cares what I think?

Cya...

July Lasts...

 

The last days of July are here, no more Saturdays.  This Summer is going too quickly.  Other than being hot, it hardly counts as a Summer.  It's been hazy, dark or rainy so much of the season.  This fall isn't going to be fun.   Then again, these days what is?

There's so much I'm anxious about & nothing I'm looking forward to.  I'm not seeing much in upcoming movies.  Most of the things to-do aren't that great or are expensive & still not that good.  Fun seems to be going extinct, at least for me.  It's really tiring.

That's all for now, take care.  

Cya...

More Options...

 

Merck has announced trials for a monthly, oral PrEP medication.  This piece offers information about  Alimatravir.  This is the only data I can find on this drug.  It's a good piece & a monthly pill could offer options that other forms of prevention can't.  It may not be twice yearly, but it's also not an injection.  For some, that will be a significant factor.

It's dark today & not supposed to get much warmer.  It's also not supposed to get much cooler.  Tonight could be hard sleeping weather.  The last week of July looks to be hot.

I'm trying not to, but I'm already getting anxious about Fall.  Summer has been a bust again & I haven't handled the last 2 falls well.  I doubt I will this time.   I really don't need to see Sucktember.  I don't need all of it's hell drama.  I guess SAD is just a year round thing for me now, like allergies.  

That's all for now.

Cya...

Slept Better...

 

Short post.  I didn't find any articles & we have someone coming.  It was cooler last night, so I managed to sleep a little better.  It was needed.  That's about it for now.

Take care.

Cya...

Research & Heat...

 

There wasn't much for articles, but I found these, A & B.  The prior piece details Gilead's currently ongoing research over prevention & cures.  Both pieces discuss research from Gilead & Merck concerning a weekly pill for HIV treatment.  Neither are long, but contain updates on the process.

Yesterday was hot again.  I didn't fair well.  It's not supposed to be as hot today.  The days are hard, but it's the hot nights that are doing me in.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Culture War...

 

tRump's maga has declared a culture war on anything they see as DEI.  They will use it justify harming anyone or anything.  Unfortunately that included the war on HIV.   These cuts aren't just to PEPFAR & other overseas projects.  They include domestic programs for awareness, testing, treatment & prevention.   

maga's actions could very well lead to a reality where HIV is as dangerous as it was decades ago.   These people's actions aren't out of some profound need to protect themselves from some imaginary boogeyman.  These directives are meant cause harm, mayhem, degradation & even death.  maga is vile.

My hope is that every single person who supported this movement gets this illness & has no means of dealing with it.  Let them & theirs know the horrors of what unmitigated HIV can be.  They deserve it.

That's all for now.  Take care.

Cya...

LAI Roadmap...

 

This piece is a statement from a senior VP from ViiV Healthcare.  It's a plan to embrace decades of research, development & patient input to develop the future of HIV/AIDS treatment with the endgame of ending the virus.

The focus is on long acting injectables (LAI).  Some for prevention, others for treatment.  They could come in varying injection intervals.  This isn't a cure, it's a siege war against HIV.  If the virus can't spread & is contained in those currently HIV+, it will either die out with those patients or be handled if a cure ever is developed.

Like all things with HIV, this is now & will continue to be in development, striving to be the best approach possible.  Again, this isn't a cure, but it's a solid step to ending HIV.

Give this a read.  Take care.

Cya...

Rougher...

 

Yesterday was rougher than expected.  I didn't expect an easy day after handling some yard stuff in the morning.  But it turned out to be harder than I thought.  I never do well after yard work of any kind, but spraying is the usually the worst of it for me.  It got hotter & a lot more humid than it was supposed.  All of that drained me & kept me in the bathroom a lot.  I won't be doing much today except trying to stay cooler.

That's about it for now, take care.

Cya...

1 Thing...

 

I haven't been feeling that great for the last couple of days.  It's mostly been allergies, stomach & bathroom stuff.   Sometimes being in a car for a while can set me system off & I'll be in the bathroom all day.  Add to that all the burning, roadwork & humidity & my stomach was sort of doomed.  

Yesterday was big shopping for the week.  It's always a little more tiring.  We ate at place we hadn't in a while.  It'd changed hands & wasn't as good.  It'll get another try & that may be it.  It's too pricey to be meh to yick. 

Later everyone got mowed, including us.  The yard needed it, but it didn't help me out any.  I felt off for the rest of the night.

Edges of the yard needed sprayed.  It's about to get seriously hot.  I got myself to handle it this morning.  It is probably the only thing I'm doing today.  It may be the 1 thing I do all weekend.  It knocked me down pretty hard.

That's all for, take care.  I hate grass.

Cya...

Not As Planned...

 

Things didn't go as they were hoped for yesterday.  My roomie will need to handle more with her current medical situation.  Between that & a dental appointment, things are going to be busier than normal for the next several weeks.  It seems we seldom get our preferences an more.

We'll go shopping in a bit & handle a couple of errands.  After that, we should be done for the day.  It's supposed to get hot this weekend.   It is July.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

A Little Rush...

 

In a bit of a hurry this morning.  We have to be out of here soon.  My roomie has an appointment.  Not a problem, but I had some stuff to handle & of course other things had to try to pile on.  Other stuff is just going to have to wait a bit. 

There's been a reprieve from the heat, but not the humidity.  By Saturday, the Summer temps will return.  It'd be nice to ditch the humidity, but that probably won't happen.

That's it for, take care.

Cya...

Decent Day Anxiety...

 

I don't have that many "good" days.  I'm lucky to have decent, OK days.  I don't like talking about them, especially while the day is still occurring.  They make me anxious.  I can't remember a day in the last year that was going alright that there was an almost immediate case of fuckery.  Not something me or my roomie caused, but something beyond our control that was screwed with us;  car issues, power outages, internet issues, seriously bad weather...

Yesterday was being an OK day until around 6 then the water pressure all but died.  Some fiber workers broke another water line again.  The water was luckily restored in a few hours, but it's taken a lot longer than before.  Then all the lines have to cleared of yick, off-colored water, including the ice maker.  Was it a big thing, no it didn't turn out to be this time.  Was it something we did or caused?  No, it was not.  Still, it caused stress, anxiety & trashed what had been an alright day.  

Bad days are bad days.  But it's gotten to the point where I'm almost afraid of having good days.  Too much is just waiting to happen.

Take care.

Cya...

A Little Late...

 

It's a little in the Summer to be talking about seasonal change, but here we are.  It took longer to get to the Summer heat this year.  It was about the same time as fireworks, mowing & the town burning debris.  All that has made it a rough shift into the season.  I never handle seasonal change well, especially when it's abrupt.  It always seems to be that way anymore.

Changes like this screw with me.  It makes me feel off, my stomach goes south, sinuses are shot, sleep isn't always great, etc... I eventually catch up, but it can take a bit.  Until then, it sort of sucks.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Well Sorta...

 

I thought I'd found an article.  It was comparing the efficacy of 2-drug vs 3-drug medications.  I was formally on a 3, Triumeq & now I'm on a 2, Dovato.  

The piece seemed like a decent post subject.  Too bad, it was only an abstract, less than half a page.  The very brief point seemed to be that it found no difference in the performance of either regimen.  If so, I'll opt for the fewest drugs in the pill.  That would seem to mean less chance for complications.

Abstracts are better than paywalls, but just barely.  That's it for this morning, take care.

Cya...

Not What They Used To Be...

 

This is the 3rd Summer in a row that's been a let down.   The dark of the year & my SAD dragged on into early June.  Only then did things brighten up & then it was blazing.   On the days it's not been hot & it's still been muggy to the point of being sweltering.  It's another hazy morning.  It shouldn't be AC hot today, but it's dreary & humid. 

My need for sun & seasonal lightness won't be met for another year.  I'll go into the dark of the year even more depleted than before.   There really is no point in any of this.

That's all my wallowing for now.

Cya...