Revolving Dread...

 

There are 3 full days left in 2025.  The entirety of the 2000s has been a crapfest for me.  It's ranged from unpleasant to WTF happened & what did anyone do to deserve that?  I can't give any year of the 2000s a rating above tolerable at best.  The flavors & intensities of misfortunes have changed, but they all were horrid in their own way.

2026 is about to roll in & I'm dreading it.  I'd really be fine with not seeing it at all.  I hope good things come for those around me.  But, I don't see anything in my life going any direction but down.  

Some flickers did happen.  A few houses on nearby blocks had some lights.  If I looked the right way I could see them for a brief time.  Last night, the neighbors left their drapes open & I actually saw their Christmas tree lit up.  It was a pleasant surprise.   Did it change overall holiday?  No, but it did make last night just a little easier to handle.

The holiday is over, I'm exhausted & let down.  Now there's the threat looming just over 72 hours away.  I'm not sure why, but there's no reason to expect anything good out of 2026 & the orange bastard.  It'd be nice to be wrong.  

Take care.

Cya...

The Very Lasts of 25...

 

Since the holiday, we've been on the lasts of the year.  This is the last Saturday of 2025.   Next Wednesday will end the year & next Saturday will be the anniversary for this blog & my HIV diagnosis.  In a sense, I'm ready for this year to be over, but I don't have any reason to believe 2026 will be better.

This year has really worn me down.  There was far too much cat issues, breakage, expense, political BS...  I haven't fared well.  I haven't kentsugied myself back together.  In my case, it'd probably be done with knock-off, white glue & have pieces missing.  We're ending 25 years into the 2000s & so far, they've mostly sucked me & mine.   

I hope the rest of the year treats you well, take care.

Cya...

Busy December Morning...

 

We have errands & shopping this morning.   Then we have to take trash out for a postponed pickup.  That'll happen next week as well.  After that, we're heading to a friends for a bit.  This will wrap up the holidays for us.

Yesterday went well.  It wasn't our normal, but, it could be a new part of our holiday to bring my roomie's stepmom along.  None of us many people left in the area.

This season has been a bit disappointing.  Beyond the stress brought by the asshat in orange, there just was so little umph put into the holiday.   The most decor & music I witnessed was at IHOP yesterday.   Even when I was very anti-holidays, I still enjoyed the lights.  There so few of them this year.

I hope your holidays are going well, take care & be kind to yourselves.

Cya...

The Holiday Has Arrived...

 

Christmas is here & we actually have plans.  We'll need to be out of here shortly.   There will more going-ons tomorrow.   Then the holiday can move along until next year.   So far, this round has felt like an obligation only my roomie & I got stuck with. 

I did manage to find an article.   It's a piece out of Florida concerning continuing late HIV diagnoses. Late diagnoses come with different issues & severities.  Give it a read.  This is why testing is so important.

That's all for now, Merry Christmas.

Cya...

Nothing For Eve...

 

For quite a while I hated on the holidays.  Then I grew indifferent to the idea.  My roomie & I had our own things we did & it was fine by me.   For years, I tried to avoid the holidays, now it seems like they're avoiding me.

I watch holiday specials with my roomie.  I probably wouldn't on my own, they're a little too nostalgic at times.  The specials, the songs, the season all seem like hollow promises.  Maybe they were a well meaning trick & eventually we all figure out it's a show.  But the suggestion that there would be good times, friends, family, food, presents, songs, lights, etc... never seems to hold up.

They say it's better to have experienced some things once & then lost them, than to never have had them at all.  I don't agree.   Even with the few good times with my family, the happy holiday events & other moments of seasonal joy, I think I'd rather not have known them.  Now, I have to deal with the reality of it all.  I was a little kid & it wasn't real.  I could've lived without that.

Even though I can enjoy holiday specials, I can see the damage they do & unkept promises they made.  There isn't always tomorrow to make your dreams come true.  You probably won't be rewarded for being good.  The twinkling lights will go out.

Sorry to be a downer, but this year's been weird & rough.  The only light's I'm seeing this year are ours & I just can't seem to get lost in them like I used to.  I've tried listening to the music & I just get annoyed.  This isn't holiday hate or even avoidance.  There just isn't anything there & that feels wrong on a lot of levels.  Even when I avoided holidays, they were still there.  Now, there's this weak, politicized, commercialized suggestion of what used to be.  I feel like I've been sent on a snipe hunt for Christmas.   But, you can't find what doesn't exist.

I'd like to think next year will be better, but things have been going downhill for years.  I doubt another year will make a difference.  This isn't bah humbug, it's just nothing.

For those celebrating, may it be grand time with lights, laughter & song.  

Make some memories.

Cya...

Weekly Pill...

 

Lots of links coming here.  This article & this prior piece, discuss a 2 drug combination medication from Merck & Gilead.  Their drugs, Islatravir & Lencapavir have been combined into a single, weekly dose, oral medication.  These studies show some of the progress & efficacy of the research.  With both meds already having governmental approval, this should be just to prove the viability of the approach.  This could be an option for HIV+ people in the near future.  Personally, I'd opt for the weekly pill over the weekly injection.  

This morning has been rough.  I woke to 70° & it felt hot.  Add to that, wind & allergies are an issue.  My body wasn't ready for this & soon it'll be back to seasonal temps.  

We're trying to get our holiday plans in order.  It'd be nice if the worked.  Things seldom go as planned for us.  But we try.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Belated Yule...

The weekend threw me off my days.  Yesterday was the shortest day of 2025 at 9 hours & 47 minutes.  We'll gain a whole minute today.  Winter is both seasonally & meteorologically here.   9 days remain in 2025.  Add 3 more & it's this blog's & my HIV diagnosis' anniversary.   There are 76 days until Daylight Saving Time returns & about 88 days left until the Spring equinox.

I hope this season brings you what you need.  It'd be nice knowing it was kind to someone or something.  I think we've lost another yard cat.  We called her Goblin.  She was from the cursed line.  A tabby male may be her uncle, but I can't get a good look at him.  All these tabbies look alike at a distance.   There's a yellow male, Sharkling, left from her litter mates.  He's the last remaining & he knows it.  He's gotten very skittish.

My roomie got a lot of things underway this year.  The white car is no longer our issue.  She's got plans.  I won't say the year was easy on her, but she fared better than me.  I didn't fare horribly, but not well either.   Each year just takes more & at some point there won't be any more to lose.  

Like it or not (I don't), Winter is here.

Cya...