2026 didn't start out bad for us, especially compared to 2025. There were new things, ideas, routines, etc... Things were clicking. I was still dealing with the dark of the year stuff & SAD, but it was moving along. I guess that was it; there were plans, momentum & maybe just a sliver of hope things might improve.
I'm not sure why I let myself buy into this. I guess I was just tired & distracted not to see the inevitable repeat of things. The new things starting breaking, the routines ended, plans & ideas seem to lose focus. The momentum was gone & it was just sliding back into breakage, stress, anxiety & frustration.
I did this to myself. I let myself think things might change in a good way for once. Yet again, I was wrong. I don't need to see 60. None of this is going to get better for me. It might level out, but then it'll dive back down again. People can keep their plans, ideas & maybes. I just can't anymore.
Cya..
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