Crap Morning...

 

This is a crappy morning for several reasons.  1st off, it's morning & we are always contrary to each other.  My roomie is ill & I'm still not feeling well.  I was supposed to have a medical appointment right now, but it got rescheduled last minute.  It's now at a less convenient time next week.  If I'd known sooner, I could've schedule the repairman to fix the roof issue earlier.   But that would've been considerate.

Finally, we have proof that Democrats can't pick an electable candidate.  People choose that orange bastard over her.  He can do a lot of damage in 4 years.  I hate a lot of people right now.  But the Democrats have their own culpability here.  For too long they've lived in a world of ought-to-be's & wouldn't-that-be-nice's.  They've kept their heads in this pretty, rose colored version of should-be, instead of what actually was.  I don't think people voted for that bastard as much as they voted against her.

Maybe we'll get through this.

Cya...

More Frustration...

 

We had almost no rain in October & were short in September.  Instead of being normal, the damned weather decides to dump 10"+ on us in 2 days.  That makes up for this month & the last 2 with change left over.  That's only 5 days into the month.

There's flooding & it caused some issues with the house.  We'll have a handyman over tomorrow.  Hopefully, he can get this fixed.  We didn't need this.   

Just more frustration & it's election day.

Cya...

Irritating Conclusions...

 

There have been articles lately purporting anxiety & depression may be impacting HIV viral suppression.  I'm not posting links to these for 2 reasons; none of them were clear of what they were actually discussing & nor were they clear on causality or correlation.  

Meaning, none of these pieces were clear on what was causing what.  Is there a relationship between anxiety & suppression?  Is there non-adherence or is the mental state affecting the body to the point of suppression interference?

Another point, many doctors & researchers treat anxiety, stress & depression as merely mental issues.  Any of them can be mental health diagnoses.  However, sometimes life is & continues to be stressful, depressing & anxiety ridden.  Not all anxiety or depression is due to a mental disorder.  Many meds can induce anxiety or other factors like sleep interference or emotional reactions.

Until definitions are clear & direction of correlation or causality is shown, this research is at best a discussion point.  Putting abstracts out like these does no good.  It supports a hunch & may put further stress on patients trying to maintain suppression.  IMO, unless there is more not shown in these articles, these should not have been published at this time.  At this point, they came across as jargon supported conjecture.

Take care.

PS - we had 7" of rain in 24+ hours.  We passed our average & made up for October.

Cya...

Standard Time Sucks...

 

It's the 1st day of standard time & I hate this BS.  It stormed last night & will again tonight.  So much for early morning light.  It'll dark by 5:20.  For anyone who likes this crap, there are caves or basements you can live in, damn troglodytes. 

Another 126 days until we get a chance at proper light again.   I hope something in the darkness is the end of those who like standard time.  They should just stick to DST.

Basically; it's dark, wet, chilly & I hate it.

Take care.

Cya...

Last Day Of Light...

 

The days were already getting really short, less than 11 hours.  This is last day before the time change.  Tomorrow's sunset will be about 5:20.  Before it's over, there will be days people in school or with day jobs will barely see sunlight.  

I had a reprieve yesterday & felt better.  It didn't last.  I woke to a dark room & at 10, it's still dim out.  I don't feel great, I'm a bit foggy & dehydrated.   This time of year sucks.

It will be 127 days until the next time change.  I wish I could just sleep through it.  Little, if any, good happens during the dark of the year.  

My SAD has gotten to the point, that from late August through September & October I just feel this dread about the rest of the year.  It's very difficult to enjoy any of it.  I try very hard to stay in the now.  But, it's not always a very attractive option.  None of the above, should definitely be a choice in situations like those.

Take care.

Cya...

November Begins...

 

November is here & I'm not holding out any hopes for a good month.  Those don't seem to happen any more.  We're also into the holiday season.  Add to that, the election is this Tuesday.  I wish I could trust people not to be stupid asshats.  But, I can't.

This article is over a new approach to PrEP.  I'm not going discuss it much, because I think it's rather ridiculous.   It's about using a medicated, anal douche before sex to prevent HIV transmission.  If people can't/won't use condoms, regular PrEP meds, or choose different sexual outlets; what makes anyone think this stands a chance of working in the real world?

There's the article, give it a go if you want.  Other than that, take care.

Hello November.

Cya...

Happy Halloween...

It's Halloween & I hope it goes well for everyone.  It's also the last day of October.   Good bye month, we've had wore this year, but you could've been better.  

I wish I could say I was into the holiday this year, but I'm not.  I doubt this will be a good day for me.  I'm trying to feel better.  It'll be just the cats & me today.

That's it, let's get this day over with.  Not like I expect anything better from November.

Happy Halloween.

Cya...