I'm back to the morning light issue again. This morning sunrise wan't until 7:14 AM. I prefer it when it's sometime before 7. That gives me a bit to adjust to the awful idea of getting out of bed. Now, if I want to get up about 7:40, then I have a little over 25 minutes. At that point this A.M, .the sunlight was just a weak suggestion of morning light.
The problem here is that it's beginning to really alter my sleep & my schedule. It's throwing me into waking up at odd times & at small noises. I can usually go back to sleep fairly easily, but not when it keeps happening for days on end.
Then I start getting sleep anxiety for lack of a better description. When I wake up like this, an hour or so before I'm ready to get up, something suddenly pops into my mind. Doesn't matter what it is; it could be $, weather, the cats, health, etc...
What does matter is that my mind grabs hold of it & won't let go. The thing runs through my thoughts. It gets twisted & turned & all sorts of things start to develop. What if something breaks & we don't have the $ to fix it. What if that noise I heard was a cat breaking something in the kitchen. What if I forgot to pay that bill & so on. Most of these things aren't any big deal & a lot things that come into my mind aren't even really likely. But still, my thoughts are focused in on them.
Eventually, I get back to sleep, but not before before getting rattled for minutes 30 or longer over these strange thoughts. When I wake up, it's like nothing really ever happened, except I'm not well rested. I've never been 1 to have nightmares. But I can get some seriously wicked stress dreams. The worse my sleep is, the worse these cycles can become. They aren't good for my health.
I will be seriously happy when the days start to lengthen out again. This is just another seasonal thing that Fall & Winter bring into my life, like allergies & the flu. I think the flu is easier to deal with than screwed up sleep patterns.
Cya...
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