Autumn is here & I'm not doing well with it. I did OK with my birthday this year. Seasonal change is weird for me. This year the weather went back & forth. It really messed me up. I know I should be happier. The'll be no more mowing, fewer bugs & it'll be cooler.
But, there won't be any flowers, hummingbirds & bright insects. It means shutting the windows & closing the house for the season. There'll be less light, less diversion. It's just more time for me to be in my head & I don't need that. I do my best not to think about things anymore.
For me, 1 of the biggest issues with HIV, is its solitary, permanency. The knowing it's never going away. The longest relationship of your life, could wind up being with a virus trying to kill you. Oh f'ing joy!
It's only 10 something in the morning & I'm already tired. I need to get a shower. Maybe I'll watch a movie. That's been hard for me lately. My head won't stop long enough for me to focus. My roomie will home about 5. Pretty soon, it'll be dark by that time. I hate that.
I'm just rambling now, so I'll write more tomorrow. Take care.
I wish you a joyful moment today.
Cya...
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