While April wasn't a bad month, it wasn't a good time either. There were issues with renewal, bad weather, dark days, being sick, etc... It's also the month I learned about Netflix's DVD issue. Not a good month at all. Well, it's nearly gone for this year. Hopefully May will do better.
Cya...
I'm not sick, but I'm spent. The crap weather, incessant rain, high allegen levels, burning & weird light have sapped my strength. I hope some of ths gives soon. If not, I'll probably be sick. I haven't felt that well in a while. Waking up is even more difficult than usual. I'm tired & it's starting to feel more than that.
The beginning of May is supposed to be more seasonal. I hope so. I need it. Some the plants in yard may be dying back again or just not here yet due to crappy conditions.
We have to go shopping & then it's home. Take care.
Cya...
When I first started dealing with SAD, it mainly occurred during the late Fall. Generally, once the new year was rolling around I was doing better. That hasn't been the case for a while. Like the seasons & light, my SAD experiences have shifted. I can still experience some in the late Fall, but I'm generally doing better until late February. In recents years that's lasted well into March. This year, well it's still here & it's almost May.
The longer this lasts, the harder it is. I have less & less strength left to handle it. We've had a few false starts to a sunny Spring time. I'm thinking Spring has skipped the year & just left us with a dark, rainy season. Then it'll be Summer. I haven't put WInter things away. I haven't handled some yard things, I'd normally have handled in late March. It's been too dark, cold & wet.
For those of you that don't face SAD, count yourselves fortunate. But do know, people can develop it at different ages, especially if the light conditions change. That's all for now, take care.
Cya...
I read an article this morning about Glaxo Smith Kline, GSK. The article wasn't that important, the sentiment was. They were developing a novel approach to stop the maturation of HIV cells. They were working on this with 2 new meds. The drug they dropped had seemed promising in prevoius write ups. However, the company didn't find it's results different enough form the rest of the market to proceed.
That means that even if it was a great medication they didn't see the financial viability of the product. Never forget these big pharma companies are just that, companies. They are owned by stock holders & are primarily concerned with accruing wealth for sharsholders. If that doesn't happen, oh well, so long new product.
Until such a time HIV drugs are terribly cheap or there's a new viral scourge on the horizon, these companies will never be motivated to cure HIV. Curing illnesses isn't in these companies' interest. It's a short term money grab. Don't forget GSK & all the others are businesses here to help themselves, not you.
Cya...
Even though it's colder than I'd like, the seasonal change is happening. Part of the problem with that is that in the morning for a short blip I'm getting enough light to start waking me. Lately that's been accompanied by a lot of noise. If noises are consistent or familiar, I'll sleep through them. I'm not sure what's waking me. I hope it goes away or I acclimate to it soon. It's screwing with my sleep. It's waking me & then I'm falling back into a really deep sleep. That makes waking at my normal time awkward & often a little stressful. I don't need something messing with my sleep. I've got enough issues.
That's it for me. I'm waking up cold & fairly off. It's off to go shopping. Take care.
Cya...
It's late April & we're still having temps dip into the 30s. It's supposed to get warmer & brighter. It keeps swinging & making me feel like crap. It looks like the the overnights in the 40s will last into May. It needs to warm up. I hate cold, dreary weather.
Cya...
I was up a little later fixing an annoying computer issue on my system. Turns out a web page I frequented decided to be an issue. I was using the home page, start.me. It's now loaded with subframes that'll slow down anything.
This article is about stigma. It's still here folks & isn't going anywhere. What makes this worse is it's dealing with a TV character's HIV, not even a world person. Still the actor has faced some qustionable reactions after the portrayal. It's not the 1st time for this . Many actors who have portrayed gays or HIV+ people have faced serious issues after the part. Take Harry Hamlin & the film Making Love for instance.
In short, start pages can cause issues. Stigma over HIV & being gay is still alive & well. Does anything ever really change? It seems to always be able to get worse.
Take care.
Cya...
It's another dismal morning. April looks to finish out in an on & off crapfest of rain, storms & drear. March used to be brighter. Then I had to wait for April. Now, even this month is dark. My tolerance for this was low in March & it's been tapped out all this month. I hate waking up, it's always too damned hard. Add all the pollen & other ick to make these mornings even harder. I'm just very tired.
I need to get cleaned up & go shopping. Yay, the highlight of my social life, getting groceries. Sometimes I wonder what I did in a past life to get this crapfest. Whatever it was, I really hope it was worth it. Maybe I set the whole world on fire & laughed while it burnt. I think for a lot of us, if there is a hell, this life we're living is it.
That's all for now, take care.
Cya...
2023 hasn't been a good year for me. The best times have been the blah, nothing moments. So far, most everything else has been stressful, chaotic or ill. I'm trying not to write off the whole year this early. But after being ill, dealing with the stupid drama, bad weather, darkness, renewals & everything else I was spent. I finally got the renewal settled & then the Netflix news dropped. I'm pretty much back to disdain for most things. I'll probably get past it again, but there's always a cost. I'm never quite as whole. I always wind feeling a little less.
The only good thing going on around here is happening with my roomie. Something she's been working on for a while is moving forward. How far will it go? Who knows, but for now it's happening. I'm happy something around here is working.
Hopefully everyone else is in a better place. Take care.
Cya...
In the past there were a lot of things I used or had in my life that were reliable. They may not have been the greatest, but they were dependable. I have very few of those left. Over the years I've lost a pharmacy, a mechanic & dentist. I've lost confidence with the local mail & I'm not sure how much longer my primary doctor will be in the game. But yesterday something altered I wasn't expecting.
Netflix announced it will no longer be in the DVD business. It will end the service in September. I've been a member since March 2003. I joined so I could something to watch. Most the video services in our area were dying out. Those red envelopes helped get me through those early years with HIV & being on disability.
This sudden announcement throw me. I was suddenly right back there all those years ago looking for something. It's not then, but I guess I am looking for something. I just doubt I'll find something to replace this service. I don't want to go back to a single DVD with late fees type service again.
I know these are businesses, but I was loyal to them & tried to build as much a rapport as possible. But, each time in the end, I was nothing to be concerned with. Netflix & others casually discard people who depended on their services. They wonder why there's so little brand loyalty these days. Many people don't have good enough internet to stream. Frankly, Netflix's streaming isn't worth it. Other than the very few theatrical releases they still get, they're original content in beyond subpar. Their stuff is more like early an 80s cable access show. Cute for then, not tolerable now.
I'm a little crushed at the moment. I'm losing something I've had for over 2 decades. Some people are thanking the company for the years. Yeah right. Screw you Netflix for being yet another good thing that just left. May your future business ventures be as well crafted as you crappy original programming.
Cya.
It's April, it's Springtime, why is it still so cold? This month has promised warmer weather several times only to pull back into the chilly darkness. Apparently April just wanted to dive in the pile of suckfest with everything else. It's suppose to storm later in the week & we could actually dip into the 30s. Screw that, it's April. I need some warmth & light. There are no longer good months. Are there even good weeks? Or do we just have to settle for days now or even hours? This sucks.
Cya...
The temps dipped into the 40s last night & will again tonight. There have been a weather shifts, winds & high pollen levels for some time. It's making it very hard for me to get over being sick. Unfortunately, this crap could repeat next weekend. It may be May before I get all the blankets washed.
I wish this crap would end. I'm tired of being sick & dealing with crap mornings. It's been Spring for almost a month & more so according to the weathermen. Why are we still getting Winter weather?
That's all for now, take care.
Cya...
The 1st half of April is nearly over. It hasn't been too bad, but I'd preferred a little better. I didn't need to get sick & the renewal thing is always nervy. It'd be nice if the pollen levels would go way down, but they won't. I know things aren't that bad, but I'm really tired of knowing things could've been better or a little easier.
OK, enough of that. Take care.
Cya...
For the last several years, somethings, mainly actions by conservative asshats, have caused turmoil in the medical world. That's especially true with matter dealing in anyway with sex; reproduction, HIV, general testing. These horrible people have continuously attacked these areas & weakened them a great deal. With that, most articles have focused on these things & not actual medicine. This current texas judge bastard's decision could wind up being devastating in ways people may never have seen coming. I hope he & his dies soon. That's the nicest thing I can say about them.
So for now, there are lot less useful articles. There's nothing I can do about that. I'll catch them when I can.
Cya...
There isn't much happening. It's supposed to be cooler this weekend. Not drastically, but back into the low 40s. I wish this would end. All the back & forth ; warm/cool & light/dark, is making it hard for me to adjust. I feel off & a little anxious. I just need things to settle for a bit. That's probably not going to happen.
Oh well, take care.
Cya...
I'm still waiting for Spring to figure itself out. It's brighter & slightly warmer, but not enough. I want more sun & less chilly nights. I'm still waking in the middle of the night & it's just a little too cool. Most of the blankets are still out. I want them washed & stowed for the season. I'd like some warmth & light. BTW trees, your blasted orgy has gone on long enough. Chill with all the damn pollen-gasms.
That's it for now. There were some pieces about the expected uptick of HIV & other STD's due to texas' ass-hattery. I know I didn't capitalize the state name. But that thing south of us is an embarrassment & doesn't deserve a capital letter. F' texas & every other bigoted southern state, including oklahoma.
Take care. Just waiting for real Spring & reasonable people.
Cya...
There isn't much going on here this morning. It's bright & that's great. I still haven't heard anything about my assistance renewal yet. I hate this process. I don't like having to wait for things like this. Just tell me yes or no.
That's about it for this morning. It'd be nice if articles picked back up again. For now, it's just stuff I've gone over a lot.
Cya...
I called in a refill to my pharmacy on Friday. As of yet, I'm not sure it's in. I'll find out when I get there. They say they think it's there, hopefully it is. It's a shopping morning & a little warmer. Our Easter meal went fine. We keep things small & simple now, so there wasn't much to mess up.
That's all for now. I hope your Spring festivities have gone well.
Cya...
Hope everyone has a happy Spring holiday season, whatever you celebrate. It's starting to warm up slightly here. Maybe it'll stick this time. Pre & actual Springtime has been rough the last several years. I've been sick to some degree & my roomie hasn't fared better. It's also the time of year my SAD is at its height. It's taking until April for me to be a little more normal. There should be an option of hibernating through the Winter.
Cya...
Shifting weather, winds, allergens & cooler temps are trying to bring my cold back for an encore. I'm doing my best to make sure that doesn't happen. It's not being easy with these cooler temps, wind & debris. This ick needs to be gone & stay that way.
Not much going on here. The articles are angry rehash & OpEds. So, that's it for now.
Cya...
It's too late in the year for these chilly mornings. It's dim, humid & cold. It should be much warmer & bright. We have to finish bills this morning & then go shopping. There isn't a lot past that. We'll get whatever we're going to for Easter. It won't be much. That's all for today.
Take care.
Cya...
Not much going on this morning. It got cooler again & I wish it hadn't. I began washing blankets yesterday, so of course it had to get cold again.
We don't have much planned for today. A friend's coming by for a bit. After that, not a lot. I'm good with that, still getting past this cold crap. I hope it gets brighter than this dim overcast going on at the moment.
That's all for now, take care.
Cya...
My sleep has been off since this sick thing started. Even though I'm getting better, the weather & allergies are being extreme & weird. I'm having low grade fevers at night as I'm getting through this crap. When I wake up, I'm overheated & dehydrated. It can be nauseating. It takes me a bit to get back to normal. This isn't the type of heat like when you're out in the Summer time. That comes from the outside. This is from the inside. I need this crap gone & for the weather to calm down. Like I can control any of that.
Cya...
I'm getting better. I'm also having to adjust to the new season's temps & how I sleep. It was warm & muggy last night. It'll be warm today, then rain/storm, then cool off for a few days. The cooler days are on the way out. Finally, these blankets can get washed.
That's about it for now, take care.
Cya...
Today is supposed to get pretty warm. Tomorrow will be as well, but then there could be storms. Past that the temps will dip back to the norms for this time. Too bad some overnight temps the end of this week look to be in the 40s. This may be the last week of lower 40s overnights. At least then, some of these covers can get washed.
I'm trying to get better, but the weather isn't cooperating. Neither are the allergens. Everybody in the area has been mowing more. I hate that about warmer weather. All the damn mowing, trimming & cutting. There's just so much noise & plant stink.
That's it for now. We have 1st of the month stuff to handle.
Cya...
Apparently my body needed more rest & I overslept. Unless I'm very ill, I hate doing that. It leaves me very groggy. I'll be fine in a bit, but for now it's like being in a thick fog.
Not much going on here or in the way of articles. Take care.
Cya...
I was doing a little better. Then every yard in the neighborhood got mowed on Thursday, including ours. That was followed by some very gusty rain. Friday was nothing but ballistic wind basting pollen & debris everywhere.
I'm not as bad, but it was a definite step backwards. To hell with all the mowing. Screw the damn wind. I need to get over this crap, it's exhausting.
We got our DHS benefit renewals in & I think handled. I say, "I think" because I'm never sure how we did with that damned site of theirs, it's so glitchy. I guess, we'll see.
Cya...
