Sometimes I wish life had a pause button. There are points when I just need a bit to collect my wits & catch my breath. I've been trying for sometime just to come down off the anxiety & nerves, but there's always something. That doesn't even have to be a bad thing, it's just another thing to be handled. I've been running on empty for a while & fumes ran out sometime ago. I'm just barely coasting, trying get back.
March is here & it's a notoriously sketchy month. The light & dark, really warm meets too cold, nothing & everything. March is a month of contradictions & it's hard on people. It's especially rough on those dealing with SAD. It's still here, no it's ending, no it's back. Enough with the indecision, just give me a moment.
It's the beginning of the month & we have a lot on our plates. Besides all the normal bills & errands, there are appointments. There's a venture into an unknown for us. Well it's an uncertainty, so it's bound to cause trepidation. None of this means things will go badly. It just means they have to be handled & there might be fallout.
Add to that all the uncertainty due to the orange stain & the world's a rough place right now. Everyone's looking for a foothold & there aren't that many. There's only so many high points & everyone's playing king of the mountain.
I'm fairly sure we'll get through this. I'm just not sure how. I'm spent, tired & anxious. I don't see any change soon. It'd be nice to be wrong & get a respite.
Take care.
Cya...
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