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Friday, December 5, 2025

Krampusnacht

 


It's Krampusnacht & there are so many places he should visit.  I wonder if he takes adults that act like spoiled children?  If so, the orange thing should be on the list.  That'd certainly be a holiday present.  

After shopping, this week should be wrapped.  Most of our business will be handled.  Next week will be a little busy again, both of us have appointments on top of regular things.  At least it's supposed to be a little warmer.

Times running out.  There are only 16 days until Yule, 20 until Christmas & 26 left in the year.  2025 is almost out of here.   It's time to wrap things up.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Thursday, December 4, 2025

Another Hurried Morning...

 

There's a lot going on today, so this is barely going to be a post.  We've got bills, errands & other things popping up.  Hopefully things will slow down some soon.  This is tiring.

Take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, December 3, 2025

Regimen Add-Ons....

 


TV commercials show people using add-ons to the boost the effectiveness of their current meds.   This is usually with medications for depression or other psychological disorders.  The approach is also used with HIV meds.  I was on Norvir for a while as a booster to another med.  

This article is about using Spironolactone as part of an HIV regimen.  This medication aided in inhibiting the virus & lowering viral levels.  This helped with inflammation.

It was an interesting read.  It would've gotten more coverage if the US hadn't backed out of World AIDS Day.  Give it a look.  

Cya...

Tuesday, December 2, 2025

Busy December Week...

 

We have a full week.  There's bank & 1st of the month stuff going on.  There are other pieces still moving about that we need to get into place.

It's still cold, but at least it's bright this morning.  I haven't been feeling that well.  I'm trying to get past whatever this yick is. 

That's about it for this morning, take care.

Cya..

Monday, December 1, 2025

Hello December & World AIDS Day...

 


December is here & 2025 is closing out.  Here's hoping for a good month.  We have some hold ons from last month that need handling & then on to new business.

It's World AIDS Day & thanks to the orange stain this year's theme is, Overcoming disruption, transforming the AIDS response.   This is a link to WHO's page on the matter.  Thanks to his orangeness, it will be harder to find info on the matter.  Google it & your area to see what's available.   This administration has severed ties with the event & had slashed funding.  Some states, not Oklahoma, are still promoting it.  This is an announcement from the republican governor of Alaska still publicizing the day.

These people are the biggest danger to the fight against HIV/AIDS in decades.   If this is something you care about, remember we are nearing midterm elections.  These people could be voted out & make the orange asshat impotent.  Please vote.

That's all for now.  May December treat us all well.

Cya...

Sunday, November 30, 2025

Goodbye November...

 

November is wrapping up.  At least it's ending on a bright note, even if it is frigid.  This hasn't been an easy month, but what has in 2025?  We'll have some carry over business into next month.  Hopefully that will get resolved quickly.  

I don't have a lot to say about this month that haven't already discussed.  We're moving on the end of the year.   I hope the month ends well for everyone.  Take care.

Cya...

Saturday, November 29, 2025

Cold, Wet & Dark...

 

The last Saturday of the month has opted for miserable weather.  It's dreary & sprinkling.  The next several days with have overnights below freezing.  It's supposed to be bright tomorrow.  That'd be nice.

I've not been doing that well.  There's been a lot going on & I've been trying not to get sick for some time.  I've felt off for quite a bit.  It'll be nice when some of our going-ons are handled.  2025 has been rough.

I guess that's all I have this morning.  Take care.

Cya...

Friday, November 28, 2025

Last November Friday...

 

This is the last Friday of November.  There are only 4 more remaining in 2025.  The holiday came & went.  I hope everyone got what they needed or wanted from the day.   

The countdown is really on.  There are 27 days until Christmas & 33 left in 2025.  In 36 days this blog & my HIV diagnosis will be another year older.

That's all for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Thursday, November 27, 2025

Thanksgiving 2025...

 

It's the holiday.  Eat up & move on to the next festivity.  I have cats & my roomie in my life.   Most everything is near the bare minimum.  I do know things could be worse, but sometimes it'd be nice if they were better. Here wishing everyone a happy holiday.

There's stuff I could've posted about, but not today.  Some days you should just set back & let things go for a bit.  Maybe tomorrow, but not today.

Take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, November 26, 2025

It Begins Today...

 


Since everyone's holiday plans are so busy & scattered, there'll be a late lunch stand-in today.  After that, it's the holiday rush.  There'll be holiday stuff, appointments, errands, bills & car things to be handled.  There's so much & possibilities of screw ups, I probably won't be anywhere near calm for a while. 

That's a problem for people in chronically bad situations, even good things can be stressful.   Just it's presence is so out of routine, it comes with risks & stress.  Will this actually work or am I just getting myself psyched up?  What if this doesn't work or worse it screws up?  Until this stretch is behind us, I'm going to be somewhat off.   Even then, I probably won't trust it.

I've got to get around.  At least the fan got installed.  There's light in the living room.  Here's hoping it doesn't screw up.  That's it for now.  

Take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

Still Busy...

 

It stayed dark & stormy the entire time we were out yesterday.  The appointments & errands took much longer than expected.  It was dark when we got back.  

We have someone coming to install a new ceiling fan.  Hopefully this goes well.  Things need to get off the plate.  The holidays are coming fast; 2 days til Thanksgiving & 30 for Christmas.  But the best day is still 111 days out, when daylight saving time begins.

That's it for now.  We still have other errands to handle.  Take care.

Cya...

Monday, November 24, 2025

Busy Last Week...

 

There's a lot to handle this week & most of it has nothing to do with holidays.  It was already hectic before the ceiling fan light went down.  Now that needs to be replaced.  It's the primary light in the living room.  We'll try to pick something up today & get someone out soon to install it.

There are appointments & dinners this week plus our normal routine.  It's storming, let's make it dark & wet.  I'm not sleeping as well as I should & all of this is making things a lot harder.   I'm tired, stressed & fraxious. 

We have to go soon.  My roomie has an appointment & we have to get a ceiling fan.  Maybe the storm will let up before we head out.

Take care.

Cya...

Sunday, November 23, 2025

Bad Morning....

 

It's been a bad morning.  The living room light is screwing up & we're having to figure a plan.  Of course, it's this week.  There's appointments & stupid holiday BS.  In addition, it's dark & probably going to rain for the next couple of days.  I hate mornings & I'm not fond of holidays at the moment.

Cya...

Saturday, November 22, 2025

Palliative...

 

This piece is about palliative care for those living & aging with HIV.  This is the article's primary site, Get Palliative Care.  This is an area of medicine many people are unfamiliar with & often misunderstand.  While, often associated with end of life care, that isn't all it does.  It can help with people who face serious illness, usually chronic, like HIV.  It isn't about curing the patient, but improving their quality of life.

This can include helping with actual medical side of things & the fallout from that like side effects & other symptoms.  It can be assistance in handling the daily things of life.  It may guide with future planning & networking.  Often it's about finding support, emotional & otherwise.  Palliative care is an across the board approach to wellness management for people whose well health isn't going to improve.  

This kind of care isn't just for the patient.  It's also for family, friends & caregivers.  This is a link to stories of how this approach helped people.  

None of this is anywhere near me.  But maybe it's near you or someone you know.  Give these sites a look.  This is something a lot of people are going to need in their life.

Take care.

Cya...

Friday, November 21, 2025

Appointment Recap...

 

My appointment went well.  She did a routine thyroid test. It's a little out of range for this lab, but not bad.  It's been higher & my meds weren't altered.  Overall, it went smoothly.  It's just the day that sucked. We get over an inch of rain.

It's brighter this morning, but we're heading into cooler weather.  Midweek could be getting into frigid, overnight temps again.  It'd be nice if it didn't or at least not last long.

Thanksgiving is next Thursday & Christmas is a little over month out.  Nothing feels like the holidays any more.  I see stuff at the store, but it doesn't feel like anything but a cash grab.  Maybe that's all it ever was.

That's all for now, take cae.

Cya...

Thursday, November 20, 2025

Early Appointment...

 

Not happy I'm up early for a medical appointment.  Earlier appointments tend to mean shorter wait times.  So, I opt for them.  It doesn't help I didn't sleep well.  Nor that it's dark & trying to storm.   A check up is my to-do for this morning.  

I hate the 'Ber months.  We're back to dismal gray.  It could stay like that for a bit.  Winter sucks & we aren't even there yet.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

Still

 

The wind is making breathing a bit of an issue.  It's blowing stuff about & not letting anything settle.   This week will probably be the end of the unseasonably warm reprieve.  Then things are supposed to be normal for November.  There could be another overnight freeze next week.  I hope not.  We're not even into Winter yet.

There are some errands & things today but not much.  Tomorrow, I'll see my medical provider.  If things go well smoothly, this should be an in & out kind of thing.

That's about it for now, take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, November 18, 2025

Windy Tuesday...

 

It's  gusty this 3rd November Tuesday.  The flying debris isn't helping my head.  We don't have much planned for today.  There are some errands & outings tomorrow.  Thursday I have a check up in town.  

There weren't many articles to work with today.  Most the news was about Lenacapavir rolling out in Africa.  The rest is about the orange stain.

That's it for now, take care.


Monday, November 17, 2025

2025 & Ignorance...

 

This article isn't professional but it has a point.  The piece is about a woman who lost her "best friend" after revealing was HIV+.  I put those words in quotations because a person who genuinely cared for another might freak out, but not abandon a person over a virus.

This wasn't in the olden days of HIV/AIDS.  This was 2021, decades into the fight against HIV.  The woman in this piece details her situation & what she wish had been different.  

It's the 2020's & ignorance & stigma are alive & well.  The problem is they always will be with us.  Stigma is a result of ignorance, hate, control...  A + diagnosis threatens those things.  They can't punish a virus, so they go after the person.  I think it's time to stop fighting stigma & just help people learn how to handle those situations as best they can.  You can't control other people.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, November 16, 2025

Early Ruckus...

 

Yesterday morning started with a split tree crashing into a fence.  It was loud & blew debris everywhere.  My sinuses paid for it.  I spent the day congested & sneezing.  Today looks to be worse.  The neighbors had people out to deal with the tree mess.   They cut the thing way back.  It should come back next year.  For now it looks like a bad buzz haircut on some unfortunate boy.

It's another warm day, but not as windy.  It's bright out, so I'm trying to focus on that.  By the end of the week the warm reprieve will be gone.   For now, the sky's clear & shiny.

Take care.

Cya...


Saturday, November 15, 2025

Day After Shot...

 

We handled our Friday stuff then went for the last round of the shingles vaccine, Shingrix.  They said there could be fluish like reactions.  So far I'm doing alright.

There was a surprise this morning.   I was waking up when there was a loud noise outside.  Part of my neighbors tree had fallen.  Between the wind, remaining ragweed & that; my sinuses are shot.   I've been sneezy & congested this morning.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Friday, November 14, 2025

Some Good News...

 

Since the government has reopened, the benefits have been restarted.  I checked this morning & they are posting.  However, there was a lot of harm done to people & small businesses during the closure.  That hasn't & probably will never be addressed.  There's no telling the fallout from this closure & its resolution. 

I saw some articles but most were lacking.  There were a few on new medications being developed, but nothing far enough along to be of interest.  There were some concerning vaccines, but they didn't offer much & were highly jargonized. 

We're nearly halfway through November.  There 13 days until Thanksgiving, 41 until Christmas & 47 days left in 2025.   More importantly there are still 114 days until daylight saving time.  I have my priorities. 

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Thursday, November 13, 2025

Cleaning Handled...

 

My dentist appointment went OK yesterday.  I will need a couple of small fillings.  It's been years since I"ve had to have anything besides a cleaning.  Best to get it handled now, while it's a minor thing.  That'll happen the beginning of December.

The government shutdown has come to an end.  I'm not sure how soon things will return to normal for benefits.  We'll see how badly this screwed everyone over.

That's it for today.  Take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Appointment Brief...

 

I have a dental cleaning today.  There's stuff to be handled before & after.  This is going to short so I can get around.  Then I need shower, eat, take out trash & get on the road.

There isn't much else to write about at the moment.  I'll post again tomorrow.  Take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

Something At Least...

 

There's a little progress on the shutdown.  It's still not over, but it's a step.  There were partial payments on some people's benefits.  Maybe they can get this wrapped up soon.  

The cold weather looks to be out of here for a bit.  The forecast doesn't show any overnight temps needing drips or heaters soon.   That's better for us.

That's about it for today.  Articles are still duddish.  Maybe tomorrow.  Take care.

Cya...

Monday, November 10, 2025

Shared Issue...

 

There are many angles being researched in the fight against HIV/AIDS.  Improving the means to detect, treat, eradicate & hopefully cure the virus.  Including new & novel medications, gene therapy, stem cells, antibodies, various techniques, etc...  

These approaches vary,  but all share some issues.  HIV is a difficult problem to solve.  Research takes time, skill & funds.  The orange stain & his idiots have gutted funding.  Who knows how much damage this administration has done to HIV & medical research?  These were deliberate choices to bring harm to those with HIV & other illnesses.  

The shutdown may be ending.  I'm not sure what all this will mean.  The timeline for things is still unknown.  It'd be nice if it were now.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...


PS - Last night was the 1st night we went below freezing, had faucets dripping & had a stove on overnight.  Looks to be the same tonight.

Sunday, November 9, 2025

November Dark...

 

It's dark this morning & the temps will drop this evening.  The next couple of days will be our 1st dip into frigid temps.  I didn't need or want this.  

Other than the yuck weather, there isn't much else going on.  Nothing good has popped up in the news, but all the crap is ongoing.  I really hope all those needlessly endangering the wellbeing of so many people suffer.

There wasn't anything notable in HIV news today, so that's about it for now.  It's less than 3 weeks until Thanksgiving.  I don't think is going to be a good year for holidays.  This shutdown will have major ramifications for the rest of 2025 & beyond.  This won't just be for the people either.  A lot businesses will suffer because of this.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Saturday, November 8, 2025

Not Handled Well...

 

The time change happened last week & I never handle them well.  Add to that, all the issues happening right now.  We have a lot going on & the government crap is still happening.  Our area is supposed to get it's 1st freeze tomorrow, oh joy.  

The change of light is being rough.  Now, it's dark by 5:30.  That'll be 4:30 in December.   Being dark that early throws me off.  We still have 120 days until this switches back. 

Between weather changes, the government crap, all the to-do's & the darkening, I'm not OK.   The biggest problem, there isn't anything I can do about any of it.  So, no, I'm not doing that great.

Cya...

Friday, November 7, 2025

1st Week Of November Done...

 

The week is handled & it doesn't look like next week will be as busy.  Shopping & Friday errands should be all there is today.  It'd be nice to have a quiet weekend.  Too bad it's supposed to get cold.  This could be our 1st freeze.  

The benefit matter is still up in the air.  The government shutdown is ongoing & the current administration is utterly useless & debased.  This needs to get fixed soon.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Thursday, November 6, 2025

Maybe Nothing Much...

 

Other than driving my roomie to something, my day should be free.  I hope it stays that way.  These last 2 weeks have left me winded.  I didn't even do much yesterday, besides get around a little earlier.  It's my roomie doing most of the appointment stuff.  I do have a dental appointment next week, but that should be relatively easy.

Here's hoping my day stays event free.  Take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, November 5, 2025

Rough Tuesday...

 

I drove my roomie to an appointment yesterday.  We'd done this gig once before.  The 1st time it took a little over an hour.  There was less being done this time (so we thought), we figured it'd take less time.  

We were very wrong.  There were less tests, but these were more comprehensive & thorough.  Then there was a technical glitch with their internet.  Communications between the techs & the doctor broke down.  Eventually, after 2+ hours, I left to handle some other errands that needed done.  Finally, she got out.  There were still a couple of errands to handle.  We didn't get home or eat until pretty late in the afternoon.  

It was an exhausting day & my roomie's week has a lot more in it.  Luckily, most of that doesn't include me.  I can rest up while she's trekking between appointments.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, November 4, 2025

1st November Tuesday 2025...

 

This 1st week of November is filled with stuff to handle.  We handled most of the bills yesterday.  We should handle the rest today.  My roomie has a lot of appointments throughout this month & I have 2.  I have a regular meeting with my medical provider & a cleaning scheduled with my dentist.

It's the beginning of holiday season.  Halloween's done.  There 23 days until Thanksgiving & 51 before Christmas.  Next Tuesday is Veteran's Day.  The mail's going to be so off.  Not that we get much anymore since most of ours went online. 

The shutdown is ongoing & the benefit situation is still not settled.  There are some elections happening across the states today.  We'll see how that plays out. 

That's all for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Monday, November 3, 2025

Yardlings..

 

Since we moved to this house, porch & yard cats have come & gone.  We've done what we could.  Some of them move on other neighbors or areas, some just disappear.  Some don't make it.  I can only hope if something happens to them, it's quick.  Most won't let me touch them, so I can't do much to help them.  They're just to scared.

About a year & a half ago, we noticed a scraggly cat with a kitten.  The kitten grew but stayed near her mother even after the next litter arrived.   At some point the kitten had grown & we didn't see it anymore.  The new kittens were growing & there was the girl Shark (she'd dart out of nowhere to get food), Little Spot, the reclusive Grey girl & the talkative Stripe.   Shark was never friendly & after Little Spot passed, she was even less so.  Stripe was interactive, but skittish.  He eventually wandered off.  During all this the mother cat got pregnant again.  She didn't look well.  She vanished & was never seen again.   That was over a year ago.

During this time, Shark had a litter.  Grey & Stripe had left.  I'd occasionally see them for a while.  Shark had 4 kittens; 3 yellows & a greyish calico.  They were named after sharks.  I could never tell the yellows apart.  The 1st kitten died about 2 months ago.  He was just lying on the drive, barely breathing & then not.  A little over a week ago, it happened again to another yellow.  The last yellow, seemed to have the most health issues & has a hazy eye, but he's still here.  The grey calico, Goblin is still here.

Recently, Stripe showed back up with a flea collar on.  Maybe he found a person (I hope).  This morning I saw a cat lying in the road.  I'm fairly sure it was Shark.  Stripe may be the last of generation & then the 2 kittens.

Please be kind to strays & ferals.   Their lives are hard enough without anyone bringing them harm.  Days like this are rough.  I can barely keep myself going & can't help those who need it. 

Sorry for the downer, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, November 2, 2025

They're Back...

 

2 things returned that I didn't want.  We've had overnights in the 30s.  Nobody in this house wanted that.   Then the damn time change happened.  It'll be dark at 4:30 soon.  They say it's for the children & school.  BS, it'll still be dark when most of these kids are going off to school.  What it will do, is make it so some people never see sunlight.  It's dark when they go to work & dark when they get out.  DST should be year round.  Make Winter hours if you want.  A lot of places had those when I was a kid.

The benefit thing is still up in the air.  The orange stain & his cronies are evil asshats.  They call themselves christians.  I guess they are.  That's how most religious people have always treated me.  Their disdain for everything is palpable.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Saturday, November 1, 2025

The 3rd 'Ber Month...

 

November is here.  It'd be nice if it weren't a disaster like the rest of 2025, but I think that's a pipe dream.  It'd be great if life was a magic slate.  The kid's draw toy where you can lift the sheet & erase everything.  I''d lift everything back to before 2000.

The 80s were fun, the 90s were OK, but everything past that got progressively worse.  The politics, the economy, the social scene, etc... it all went to hell.   I got my roomie, some cats & saw some movies.  Other than those things, delete it all.

This is going to be a busy month for us.  It'd be nice if everything just got in line & played along.  I doubt that will happen, but it would be awesome if it did. 

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Friday, October 31, 2025

It's Halloween, Goodbye October...

 


It's Halloween & I really hope it's a good night for everyone.  I really tried to care about this, but I'm just too spent on everything else.  This month has been hard & November's not looking any easier.  

As much I wish scares, thrills & candy to everyone, I just want this to be over.  I'm really over being this tired & burned out on things.  I'm just not seeing a fix.

Goodbye October.

Take care.

Cya...

Thursday, October 30, 2025

1st Cold Of The Season...

 

Yesterday was the 1st time we had the front room stove going.  It wasn't freezing, but it was definitely cold.  We usually need to have it going somewhere from here to mid November.  There was a year that it didn't get lit until Thanksgiving, but that only happened once.  Windows are closed, no fans, blanket are out & stoves are lit.  That's never a good combination for my eyes or breathing.  It's back to the time of year I have to decide, do I want to breathe or be warm?

Tomorrow's Halloween.  Yay, I suppose.  This used to be a big day for me, not so much for years.   I'm not warring with holidays any more, but they just don't seem to matter.  If anything, they're sort of a nuisance & the mail doesn't run.  I'm not seeing upsides to them anymore.  They're just reminders that I haven't been in on the joke in years.  Nothing feels like the holidays anymore.  It feels like people are celebrating nostalgia more than the holiday, glory days & all that.

The shutdown BS is still ongoing.  There's no sign of any change soon.  It'd be nice for once in my life not to be on losing team that all these people seem to hate.  Guess it's a little late for that.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

Slight Change...

 

The government shutdown is still impacting us, but there's been a slight change.  It's a delayal, not a fix.  Maybe something can happen in the meantime.  These politicians aren't looking at the people at the bottom of this dogpile.  The people on top are irritated.  Those in the middle are feeling some constraint.  The ones at the bottom are getting crushed.  Not that these senators & congress people care.  It's just a game to them.

It's a dark, windy morning. We have stuff to do today, less than expected but still a lot. 

Take care.

Cya...

Tuesday, October 28, 2025

Storms & Busy...

 

It stormed last & it's raining.   We've had well over an inch dumped in that time, probably nearing 2".  It's going to be dark all day.   Tomorrow is supposed to be windy.   Great, we'll still be having to deal with stuff.  Next week, will be busy as well.  

There wasn't much posted about HIV that I haven't already discussed.  This situation has me rattled, so that isn't helping.  I wish I could say when this might get better, but I don't know.  As usual, the things impacting my life aren't my doing or something I can control.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Monday, October 27, 2025

Busy Week...

 

This is going to be a busy week for us & it'll be followed by the 1st of the month stuff.  Little of this is of my doing or volition. The benefit crap has put us in a bind & there are lot appointments, errands & regular week things to be handled.  

It's a dark, wet morning & I'm already tired.  So far, being 59 has absolutely sucked.  Nothing good comes from the dark of the year.  A few sparkles, bits of candy & holiday specials can't fix these crapfest months.  On top of that, the time change is this weekend.  It'll be even darker.  

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Sunday, October 26, 2025

Vaccine & Cardiovascular Health...

 

This article states getting vaccinated for Zoster, shingles, can significantly lower risks of cardiovascular illnesses, like heart issues & strokes.  The decrease ranged from the mid 20s to high 40s% less risk for these events in the vaccinated.

Shingles or zoster can be vaccinated against.  There are different types depending on age & health status.  I've had the 1 of 2 doses of the Shingrix vaccine.   It was more suitable for my age & for people with immunity issues like HIV, cancer, TB, etc...

There has been more published on the benefits of vaccinating against shingles.  Give this material a read & come to your own decisions.  With my health, it only made sense.  I'll finish the doses in mid November.

That's all for now, take care,

Cya...

Saturday, October 25, 2025

Routine in Aberdeen...

 

Sorry for the bad rhyme in the title, but this article about a new practice in Aberdeen, Scotland's A&Es (ERs).   They are making it routine for everyone needing lab work to be automatically tested for HIV, hepatitis & other blood borne illnesses.  They had success with their trial run & plan to keep the practice.  I've thought this should be standard for years.  It could help people be diagnosed & treated sooner.

The benefit drama continues.  We started our plan yesterday & will continue this week.  It doesn't look like the asshats in DC will get things fixed anytime soon.   I don't know how this will play out.  I hate this.

It's still dark & raining.  We got over 2" yesterday.  It came down slowly all day & night.   There will be more.   That could help get the area to this month's rainfall average.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Friday, October 24, 2025

So Unsure...

 


My roomie & I have a plan how we're going to approach to the benefit cuts coming.  It isn't a solution, that's beyond us.  It's a buy some time strategy.  I hate this.

A lot of things I depend on are shifting & there's nothing I can do about it.  I'm tired of being at the whim of others.  People who aren't on assistance or disability have no idea how little control you have over aspects of your life.  Just when you think you've figured out the system, they change it or kill the whole thing.   They want you desperate & broken.  What they really want is for you to suffer & then die.

I haven't slept well in a while now.  It rained last night & I overslept this morning.  A train jolted me awake & I've still got the shakes from that.  Waking up is generally the worse thing I do every day.   Nothing good comes from it.

That's all for now.  I'm not sure when I'll be back to being me again.  I'm just an exhausted bundle of nerves & stress now.  Something needs to give soon.

Cya...

Thursday, October 23, 2025

Worn Down...

 

I'm to the point where doing much of anything seems like a monumental effort.   This Summer sucked.   The weather was mostly dismal or blazing, yet still somehow dark.  Among all the appointment, our youngest cat passed.  Then the other had to go to the vet.  There were the endless trips of taking the car to fixed.  This Summer cost us.  

Then the days got shorter & the damn 'Ber months showed up.  There was my hellish birth month.  It's dark earlier & I've had to get the house ready for Winter.  The yard is handled & most of the house is closed up.  Each window I closed felt like I sealing myself further into some dark hole.  There's no breeze, little light, no fans to buffer noise, it's just grey.  Soon, the time change will happen & make it all worse.

2025 is in the top 5 of my worst years.  Now this orange stain & his asshat army have screwed up & my benefits will be suspended.  His followers have no sympathy, decorum or grace.  It'd be nice if there was a plague to end them all.  If that happened, I bet they be better treated than they would've treated anyone else.

I'm barely doing anything.  If given the option for a good out, I can see myself happily taking it.  There are things left for my roomie, but not me.  There hasn't been for some time.  If all I can muster is just an anxious existence than I'd rather not.

Sorry for the downer.

Cya...


Wednesday, October 22, 2025

Hard To Focus...

 

I'm not doing well this morning.  It was announced yesterday, unless this government shutdown is handled soon, many could lose access to their benefits.  These programs are generally referred to as SNAP, but there are other programs being hit as well.  If this happens, it will be a serious issue for me & I don't see a work around.

Sorry for the limited post, but I'm trying to deal with this.  Every time I have things working, something beyond me happens & my actions sinks the ship.  I can't do anything about this.  Yet, I'll be caught in it's wake, where the congress people won't be.

Cya...

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

New School...

 


According to this article, Yale Medical School is opening a interdisciplinary center.  It will focus on HIV & aging.  The goal seems to be how comorbidities; such as alcohol intake.  There are many issues that will affect a HIV+ patient as they age.  

This is new endeavor.  It probably should've been started a decade ago, but it's here now.  It'll be interesting to see what comes from this effort.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Monday, October 20, 2025

Hide & Seek, HIV Survival...

 

HIV's ability to create hidden reservoirs throughout the body is it's most insidious aspect.  There have studies on this years & techniques developed; "Kick & Kill"  So far, these haven't been that successful beyond adding to the research pile.

More research has developed.  Inactive HIV becomes a provirus.  These remain hidden & inactive until certain conditions are present.  It's viral, program bomb waiting to go off.  This article deals with that.  How the virus targets specific types of tissue throughout the body; gut, colon, brain, blood...  The virus has a precise concealment for each tissue type.  Greatly increasing it's chance of survival & spreading.

There are many provirus's in human bodies.  They can range from herpes simplex to influenza.  They include Epstein Barr, hepatitis & HIV.  Dealing with any of type of viruses or the provirus predecessor is complex & difficult.  With current research, sometimes they are impossible to eradicate.

While this research doesn't directly move us towards a cure or vaccine.  It does provide vital information for developments ahead. Give this piece a read.

Cya...

Sunday, October 19, 2025

It's Here...

 

Once again, there will be no real transition between seasons.  I'd put off most of the yardwork, because it had stayed in the upper 80s.  Now, it looks like 70s might be a rare thing after this week.  Instead of gradually cooling, we're dropping off a ledge.

This morning was bright, but fairly chilly.  I'll have to close up the house completely soon.  I hate that.   The fans we be stowed & the outside noise will creep in.  Not to mention relearning the various sounds the house  makes that the fans buffered. 

It's getting dark early.  There's just a little over 11 hours of sunlight.  Soon, the damn time change will happen.  Then it'll be dark stupidly early.   I hate the dark of the year.  

I say "to hell" with the 'Ber & 'Ary months.  I bet they'd say the same to me.  

Cya...

Saturday, October 18, 2025

So Far This Morning...

 

I'm angry this morning.  Yesterday could've been a good day, but it wasn't because of someone else's crap.  My computer worked, the car actually worked, shopping went well.  Still it sucked because the water was out.   Do you know what you can do in a town when the water's out, basically nothing.   

Even though there's commercials about  calling 811 before you dig because of utilities, they didn't.  What makes it worse, is they worked for the gas company.  They knew to call, but didn't.  The water went out at 10AM.  The break wasn't fixed until past 8PM.  It took over an hour to get any pressure.  Then almost 3  more for the water to run clear & not stink.  It wasn't until this morning, we had any water pressure.  So over 12 hours for the fix and 12+ more things to be close to normal.  

We went to Fort Smith & ate before going to a friend's for a bit.  The place we ate had gone down hill.  That's how things go over there.  We find a place & it's good or even great.  Then a few times later, it's not as good, then shortly after, it's just bad.  Inconsistency is the biggest problem with eateries in Fort Smith.  Then it's the ridiculous costs & subpar service.

That's it for this morning.  I'd like for today to go well, but storms are in the forecast.  I'm just hoping they're not bad.  We've had enough crap to last us for years to come.

Take care.

Cya...

Friday, October 17, 2025

Always Issues...

 

I was having a relatively good morning for me.  Things were going along OK.  Then I tried to rinse a glass out & there was only a trickle of water.  Apparently, this is city wide.  Something just had to happen.  There can't be a good morning.  I hate waking up.  It always sucks.  Now I can't even shower & we have to go out.

I'm too annoyed to do more this morning.

Cya...