I didn't expect good things out of this month, but it's decided to be a real ass. The house & car have needed work. The time change happened. It dumped a massive amount of rain on us. It's staying dark & getting colder. We've been ill. Everything is just picking at things. Then the nation decided to give a refresher on how much it hates people like me; Gay, HIV+, single, on disability, poor, etc...
Not every night, but often, for as long as I can remember, I wanted the same thing when I went to sleep; to not wake up. If I had to wake up, to at least not be me in my life. 50+ years later, I'm still here & cursing waking up. There are no gods. If there are, they're all sick & hateful things that get off on suffering. Let me make something clear, life isn't precious or sacred. It's just something you have to endure as long it lasts.
To all the people who voted to remind us how much you hate everything, just a reminder that everything probably feels the same way about you.
Cya...
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