Unpleasant Ending...

Woke to our hottest morning so far this season.  That wasn't fun.  The heat combined with the humidity made things stifling.   Got the house opened up to let some muggy air out.  The AC will be on today.  We've got to go shopping & get meds this morning.  Other than that nothing much.

We've had some bad luck with movies lately, stuff we thought we'd like.  Turns out a lot of it was just boring, cheap & highly unoriginal.  Oh well, I suppose they can't all be winners.  But do most have to be bombs?

Goodbye June, you were no fun.  Get a grip on yourself before next year. That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

It Did It...

 

Well June went & did it.  We briefly hit 100 yesterday & this has been our hottest morning so far.  Yet the haze remains.  That's means it's going to be muggy for a while longer.   It's supposed to hotter today.  Maybe, it'll burn off some of this humidity.

June is the month of Gemini & Cancer.  I don't do well with either.  I have 3 siblings born under those signs & they're difficult people.  I've never dealt well with either of the signs.

Hopefully, June will take it's bad attitude with it when July rolls around.  Enough of this dreary then steamy crap.   Take care & stay cool.

Cya...

Probably Triple....

 

Somehow, last year we made it through Summer without hitting the century mark.  That's not going to be the case this year.  We'll probably hit at least 100 today, oh joy.  It's starting off hazy, so this could be a crappy, humid hell day.   Well, it is Summer.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

National HIV Testing Day...

 

It's back.  This is the national day for testing.  This article is from Hiv.gov.   It's about the day & getting tested.  Google the day for testing centers near your location.   Get tested.

Cya...

Hazy, Humid & Hot...

 

Yesterday wasn't horrible, but it did get hot & stayed muggy.  It keeps threatening to storm at night.  So far, no storms or rain, just humidity.  The last week of June looks to unfun weatherwise, hot & humid, with an extra helping of both. 

Yesterday was the 1st day we turned on the AC.  Most people already have had theirs on already.  This old house can move air well.  Not a great thing during the Winter, but helpful during the warmer months.  The AC will probably be with us for the duration.

Stay safe & as comfortable as possible.  

Cya...

Not Today Apparently...

 

I've been trying to find something to write about here.  Something to feel some motivation about.  That didn't happen.  It seems my lack of creativity even annoyed Blogger.  It kicked me out twice this morning.   Maybe it's trying to give me a hint.

Some people might feel off about that, I don't.  It'll happen when & if it does.  I can't change what gets posted on the net.  I can only sift for anything I want to blog about.  Lately there's been very little.  

Summer's here & June looks to go out the dreary bitch she came in as.  It may be hotter, but it's just as dreary.  It's actually more humid & muggy.  For the last several years, June has been a sucky month.  It was the last pleasant month when I was a kid.  After that, you had to wait for September.  Now, even September is contemptuous. 

Here's hoping people find the fun & happy.

Cya...

The Lasts...

 

It's the beginning of the lasts for June.  This is the last Saturday, by next week, it'll be July.  The 1st half of 2023 is wrapping up.  It's not been the worst year, but it hasn't been the nicest either.   It hasn't been easy on me.  It's Summer & I'm still waiting on some consistently sunny mornings.   It's getting hot, but it's hazy days.   That's not helping.  It just holds in the heat & humidity. 

We've faced a lot of challenges in the 2020s; weather issues, disease, social unrest, judicial failures, horrible politics, disturbed masses, gun violence & even crappy entertainment.  The real problem is that we didn't overcome these things.  No, a lot of people wallowed in them.  So far, the 2020s aren't just a disappointment, they're an embarrassing failure.  

The 4th of July is less than 2 weeks away.  What will people actually be celebrating?   From what I can see, it's mostly hate, hot dogs & intolerance accented with percussive pyrotechnics.  Hopefully, I'm wrong.

Cya...

Yard Done...

 

The yard got mowed yesterday.  That's good & not.  It needed it, my allergies didn't.  It looks better & I feel worse.  It needed to be handled, but the trade off isn't great. 

We have to go shopping in a bit.   That's about it for today.  I'm glad, my eyes are still rough from the cut grass.

Take care.

Cya...

Some Handled...

 

It's another hazy morning, this 1st full day of Summer.  We don't have anything planned for today.  It's not supposed to be as hot as it was yesterday.  Sunday could be the 1st triple digit day of the year.  I hope not.  We made it through last year without any that I can recall.  It'd be nice to avoid as many 100+ days as possible.  

The trash is gone.  They also hauled off some brush we had to take to the curb after the last heavy rains.  It's a service this town actually offers that's useful.   Now, just waiting on the lawn guy to mow.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Hello Summer...

 

Would have loved to have started this with, "Good day Sunshine," but instead I got haze.  It got hot yesterday.  The heat's here for the duration.  It was the 1st night I used the bedside fan.   

Okay Summer, try to do better than Spring.  I need light & hold off on the storm drama.  I'd say that seems simple enough, but nothing I want ever seems to be that easy.

That's all for now, Happy Solstice.

Cya...

Last Of Spring...

 

This is the last full day of Spring for 2023.  Tomorrow at this time will be the Solstice.  Spring has been difficult for me this year.  I'm really hoping Summer will be a little easier on me.  Trying seems to be the most I can do anymore.  Mostly just trying, not necessarily getting anything done or handled.  

My appointment yesterday was OK.  It went as expected  & then I spent the rest of the day exhausted.  It didn't help there were a lot of people burning stuff yesterday.  When I finally went to bed I sore, sickly & spent.   I slept a little late this morning.  I think I'm doing a better.  I'll try not to over do it today.  I need to recover from that.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Early Appointment...

 

I have a regular appointment with my primary this morning.  It's a quarterly thing.  I wish it wasn't so early.  But, if I take a later appointment I wind up waiting forever in the office.  I'll have to wait some as it is.  But the later in the day, the longer the wait.  I have no patience for waiting for doctor's who can't manage their schedule well.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Just Do It...

 

We're a few days from the Summer Solstice & I woke to another damned, dark, morning.  F'Off June, obviously you can't get it up where the sun's concerned this year.  It's been as dark as April & utterly damned useless.  This month may not have been hot so far, but in every other regard it's been crap.  We're going to stay dark & muggy & then still probably not hit our rain totals for the month.  

Next topic.  Every time I hear people talk about directed approaches to the HIV fight I get irritated.  Very seldom have these things worked.  The HIV fight should've been a blanket issue for everyone since the 90s.  Instead, they tried to focus on various groups.  The results haven't been great & have left other groups isolated.  In the US, women have the hardest time being included in HIV matters, yet the focus is on ethnic groups & trans.  In Africa, where some HIV matters take a different course, the group being left behind is young men.  There, a lot of focused programs target young girls.  HIV doesn't target groups.  It's treatment shouldn't either.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Not Much...

 

Not much is a sentiment that seems to filling up more of my life.  There's not much going on.  I don't have much.  I don't want much.  I'm not sure why it happened, but it did.  There used to be lists of things I wanted or wanted to do, not now.  There were movies, books, albums that I was eyeing in that near future.  I don't have that now.  Maybe a lot of that's me, but not all of it.  Sure there are higher ticket items I'd like, but nothing within my range.  Even most of those high cost things are more of a need than want.  

I spend a lot of time looking for things to want.  I sift through youtube for new music.  Occasionally I find something, but I don't want to make myself sick of it.  So, I only listen to them here & there.   My reading's off again.  I have things, I'm just not in the mood at the moment.  That could be due to the abundance of crap that's been in the air for months making my eyes itchy.  

I'd like to blame it on getting older, but a lot people older than me have vast interest they pursue.   Right now, everything I watch on TV could end & I'd be alright with it.  I'd wonder what I was going to watch, but I'm not attached to any of those shows.

I guess that's why I'm staying as pissed off about the Netflix DVD cancellation as I am.  At least it was something to have coming.  Soon that will be gone.  All I'll have in abundance is being utterly underwhelmed with diversions.  There lies the rub, the things I did enjoy are gone or have been replaced by really crappy alternatives.

Enough complaining, take care.

Cya...

So Typical...

 

Nothing much going here this mid Friday of June.  We had storm warnings all night, so the house was mostly closed up.  Woke up this morning, not a drop & it's fairly bright outside.   Just as I get the house opened, the skies darken & the drizzle begins.  We'll see if amounts to anything.  

That's all for now, we'll go shopping in a bit. Take care.

Cya...

Iowa Fatally Stupid...

 

This article is brief, but it goes to show just how F'ed conservative states really are.   Iowa has made it illegal to teach high schoolers any curriculum concerning HIV.  This block is the gist of the piece.

With 1 in 5 new diagnoses being people ages 13-24, this dangerous law could potentially leave students -- uninformed and unprepared in preventing, testing and treating HIV.

One again HIV has been directly tied to being Gay & that is being used to harm the youth of this state.  Way to go Iowa, show the world how mentally deficient the people governing your state really are.  

Cya...

Feeling Off & Nearly Forgot...

 

I woke up feeling out of it.   The thing they don't tell you about blood pressure is that low can be hell as well.  I normally only have to deal with it during the warmer months.  Then I can waking up groggy & dehydrated.  I'm not sure if the low pressure leads to it or vice versa.  Either way, until I'm very hydrated again, I feel like crap.

That happened this morning & I nearly forgot to post anything.  Take care.

Cya...

Marker Events...

 

Today was a 1st marker event day.  There were 2 of them.  The 1st happened as I opened the back door this morning.  I saw a little figure darting around the Rose of Sharon blooms.   The 1st Hummer of the year has arrived.  It looked decent sized, but not quite adult.  That's a very good way to start the morning.

The to bring it all down, I check Netflix to see if the DVD I sent off had registered.   It hadn't yet, it might not until tomorrow.  It was sent off in the later mail.  I noticed there was an extra movie in my queue.  When I looked, it was a dvd that had been on my Saved list.   Then I saw it, my Saved list was at 0.  

It hasn't been at zero in over 20 years.  My queue was at 50 & hasn't seen a number that low in about 2 decades.  This service that got me through so much, it's really going away.  I will miss the little red envelopes, the movies only available on dvd & the routine.  There's another thing gone, another tradition swept away & I'm told how surprised people are that I still used it.

I hate this.  When the dvd's are over, so is my time with Netflix.  They've taken a bit from my small pool of joy.  I can't forgive them for that.  I know it wasn't personal on their part.  But, it most certainly was on mine.  If this is to be the way of company that brought tiny moments of escape, then I wish for them nothing.  Nothing is what they deserve; not good, not bad, just nothing.  Maybe with that, it's all Netflix will be, nothing.

Thank you little hummer for the joy you brought me.  To Netflix, the thief that stole from my resources to make it through, kindly F' Off!  There always has to be a Bruce.

Cya...

It's The Little Things...

 

The saying talks about the little things in life.  It's said they matter most in life.  What it doesn't tell you is that's not necessarily a good thing.  When big crap happens, I might freak out for a bit.  Once that's out of my system, I can get to finding a fix or get around.   But the tiny little things are like splinters or pebbles in your shoe.  Any 1 of them may be annoying & easily handled.  But, they never come as singles, when it rains, it pours.  They dump a continuous stream of little nuisances into your life like walking across a floor covered in debris.  You can dodge the glass & nails, but what about the sharp bits of gravel, tacks & children's toys?  The glass & nails might have done more damage, but eventually you'll wonder if the tiny detritus wasn't just as bad or worse.  At least you can see the glass to pull it out of your foot.

This morning will be filled with little things.  What joy.  Adding to that, it's another dark, June morning.  Seriously Summer, WTF?!

Cya...

Nothing Big...

 

We got some rain & it stayed dark most of yesterday, but there weren't any storms.  We need the rain, not the storms.  It's hazy bright out today, not the easiest on the eyes.  It's supposed to start warming up later in the week. 

There isn't anything going on here.  That's it for now,  take care.

Cya...

Dark & Stormy...

 

This will be short.  It's dark & storming.  The power & net could go out, so this is it for be today.  Maybe this weather will knock the smoke out of the air.  That'd be nice.  The air's been rough for a bit due to all the smoke.

Take care.

Cya...

Easier Meds...

 

HIV drugs have progressed to be more tolerable & effective.  Just as important, it's become far easier to access meds & testing.  In the past only a few places carried HIV meds, due to understanding, price & stigma.  The same was true for testing.  This article details how over time how Walmart & other retailers like CVS & Walgreens are handling these things in house instead of via a mail program.  

Having a local pharmacy that can handle some of your HIV matters, even if just your meds, is a huge thing.  Switching from a by-mail program to a local storefront, helped me immensely.  The amount of stress it removed was amazing.  Having local access improves lives & well being.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

More Errands...

 

This is turning out to be the week of errands.  After today's, we'll just need to finish up bills tomorrow.  Then the 1st of the month stuff will be handled until the next go around.  

I didn't notice any newer articles.  This is it for now.  Take care.

Cya...

Surprise Rain...

 

The past couple of evenings we've had unexpected, abrupt showers.  They didn't last long, but they were windy & dark.   We need the rain & it cools things down a bit.  It can keep doing the showers & I'll be fine with that.  Where I grew up, out of nowhere, afternoon showers, we're pretty common.   I'd rather have those than pounding storms.

That's all for now.  We have some errands in a bit.  Take care.

Cya...

Late 1st Tuesday...

 

It's the 6th & finally we get the 1st Tuesday of June.   It's sort of throwing off our bill paying, but things will get handled.  There isn't much going on here today.  My roomie is having a friend over & that's about it.  More tomorrow.

Take care.

Cya...

Kick A.S.S. ...

    

It's a little late to start, but we'll handle most the monthly bills today.  This will be a busier morning for us.  We have to handle shopping & some errands as well the bills.  There's still weird light here & it's supposed to start getting hotter the next week or so.  It is almost Summer, even if it doesn't look it.

Today is HIV Long-Term Survivor Awareness Day.  This doesn't quite include me.  It's for people living who were diagnosed before most modern meds (1996ish), those born with it & 25+ & those living with the virus for 25+ years.  I'm not in any of those slots just yet.  This day coincides with the date of the 1st official case of AIDS in 1981.  There's a video over AIDS Survivor Syndrome.  This a video for that, Let's Kick ASS.  Sorry but Blogger won't let me directly post a non Youtube video.  Here's the Let's Kick ASS site.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Rough Day...

 

It didn't storm like it was supposed to yesterday.  It got fairly dark & rained a little.  There were some minor power fluctuations that caused my PC to shutdown.   Nothing was exceptionally bad.  Still that much dark after so few days of sun caught up to me quick.  I normally notice the dark days, but his was like getting hit by a brick.  It was just there & then so was the SAD.  I felt anxious & edgy all day.  It never  got better yesterday.  I hate this.  Once it sets in, it's hard to get past.  I didn't need another damned dark day.

It's not bright this morning, maybe it'll lighten up later.  Take care.

Cya...

Maybe Storms...

 

The sky's looking a little weird & there are storms in the forecast.  I'll post something for now.  It's not like there were any good articles out today.  They keep posting pieces about how well the HIV numbers are in the US, but then have to bring it down by stating there's still racial inequity in the fight.  What do they want?  Are people supposed to track down HIV+ POC & test/dose them?   If people of other races & ethnicities refuse to get on board with the fight against HIV, what is everyone else supposed to do?  I'd like so serious answers to that question.

Cya...

1st Friday Of June...

 

It's the beginning of June & the 1st shopping of the month.  There isn't much going on this morning.  Starting Monday we'll handle bill stuff.  I have a doctor's appointment later in the month.  That's about it for this Friday morning.

Take care & have a good weekend.

Cya...

Hello June...

 

June's begun.  I'll be glad when it takes.  I've spent months dealing with SAD.  It doesn't just end with a  couple of sunny days.   That just lets the recovery begin.  I'm still feeling it, so I hope the light stays.  On top of that, there's been a series of weird little things that were disappointing, irritating & annoying happening.  None of them were much on their own, but they keep piling up, little unwanted surprises.  Spring hasn't been happy, light filled season of flowers.  It's a been a dreary, wet nuisance.

Here's hoping for June.  I'm really tired of waking up & being so on edge & irritable.  BTW, all the squeaky birds, shrill pups & screaming idiots can please just STFU.  Some people are actually trying to sleep & wake up somewhat peacefully.

That's all for now.  Hope June goes well everyone.

Cya...