Goodbye Stress-tember...

 

I've never got along with my birth month.  September is a quarrelsome time.  I Googled September stress & got a lot of hits.  This is a stress period for people.   They listed things that no longer apply to  my life, schools starting & projects piling onto your workload.  Still I find this time disagreeable.  It's a gateway to  darker, colder months.  To me the dark of the year is far smaller & almost claustrophobic period.  It's like someone closed a door & there's only so much of anything left.  You're left waiting for someone to come  open the door again.  I hate waiting.

2022 hasn't been a good year.  So far, only August  has been decent.  The rest of it was a crapfest.  Maybe I should be more hopeful.  But we're heading into the dark months & Holiday season.  I've seldom been on good terms with either.

That's all for now, goodbye September.   You were a ball of stress.

Cya...

Not Great...

 

Things have been a bit much for me lately.  There've been stupid levels of stress over things that should've been handled or not issues in the 1st place.  But everything had to have it's moment & be another issue to handle.  I haven't been sleeping as well or much as I'd like.  Hopefully, that will happen more often for a while.  When I don't sleep well, things tend to fall apart.  To every thing & person who caused me undo  stress this month, please just fall over dead.  There was no reason for the BS this month.

Rant's over. Take care.

Cya...

Bad Night Net...

 

3 times this week Optimum has screwed up both the cable & internet.  The last 2 nights just past midnight, both dropped for about an hour.  The techs are boarish asshats & do nothing. They won't even admit there's an outage.  Suddenlink was awful, but Optimum took the challenge to do worse.  Definitely having to look into alternatives.

Too spent to do more. Take care.

Cya...

40's...

 

It was in the mid 80s yesterday.  It dipped down to the upper 40s last night.  The temp swing we've had in the last few days was over 50 degrees.  Allergy levels are still high & mowing isn't helping.  I wouldn't bet on things mellowing out any. 

I heard men outclearing lines this morning.  They're trimming & running fiber line for cable.  Once it's through, we'll have to look into it.  Optimum, has actually caused more problems than Suddenlink.  I didn't think that was possible.  We've  been replacing a lot of things these last few years; stuff we bought, services & providers.  Once we find something, we don't typically change on a whim.  No, each time we were left with no choice but to seek alternatives.  Once we have to do that, we will, & most likely won't come back.  There are some services that could see a change coming.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Cooler Morning...

 

I woke to a cooler morning.  That should be a good thing, but we've had so many temps swings lately that it's not.  It's 20 degrees lower than yesterday.  A couple of days ago there was a nearly 50 degree jump in temps from an overnight to the next day's high.  Between these swings, allergies & the diminishing light levels, I'm feeling pretty off.  I had a weird wake up  this morning.  It wasn't jolting, but it was unsettling & I never could back to sleep.  I don't know what woke me, but it wasn't appreciated.

Summer was hard, all of 2022's been a pain. Still, I'm dreading Fall.  That's all  for now.

Cya...

Last September Sunday...

 

September is winding down.  Hopefully, the Summer heat will leave soon.  Other than my birthday & school getting revved up, this used to be a good month.  It was the last month you could enjoy being outside without a jacket.  Now, you've got until November.  There really isn't a Fall here anymore.  The leaves just go from green to brown to gone.  It'd be nice to have  a decent Autumn.   I doubt that will happen.

Cya...

Trying To...

 

This has not been a good year, not even a decent decade so far.  I have no reason to assume either will get any better.  I can only ask they not continuously worsen.  There are health matters, climate issues, but  worse of all, the pure crapfest that so many people have allowed themselves to devolve into.  They wallow in anger, greed, misery, blame & so much worse.  Then they fling it like excrement from their foul diapers.  

I don't foresee better times.  I'm just trying to hold on to what little I have so I can keep muddling through.  I might be able to do that.  It won't be pretty, nice or  fun, but I might be able to keep going for a while.  Maybe that's all most of us can do anymore.  The just barely's of it all.  

Sometimes there are reasons people don't trust psychiatrist.  This is a hard time, my life isn't pleasant.  At times it's nerve wracking & depressing.  Do I get depressed?  Yes.  That doesn't mean I have clinical depression.  It means my environment, health, life are in trying, depressing states & I'm reacting.  No psychiatrist is fixing these matters.  I don't know if anyone can.  This path was chosen by the masses.    The masses will have to die off or choose another path for these things change.

Sorry to be depressing, take care.

Cya...

Bad 1st Day Of Fall...

 

I had a bad start of Autumn.  I was already feeling a little off.  Allergies & the weather weren't helping any.  My stomach held a revolt most of the day.  Then things decided to get worse.  Optimum, the company bought out Suddenlink this time, decided to let the cable & internet crash & stay off for several hours.  Very little got handled yesterday.  I was exhausted when I went to bed.

Other than shopping & running by the pharmacy, we have nothing else to do today.  I'm glad about that.  I  doubt, I could handle much more.

Take care, hope your 1st day of Fall went better.

Cya...

September Equinox...

 

3 things; we're having company this morning.  It's the Equinox.  Fall's supposed to be here today, but  Summer won't leave the building.  Finally, there's this  article.   It's about treating HIV with gene therapy.  This may be something, someday.  At the moment, it seems very jargonny & non-committal.  

That's all  for now, take care.

Happy Fall Equinox & Mabon.

Cya...

Unusual Piece...

 

This is a odd piece.  It poses that lentiviruses, the kind of virus which includes HIV, have been around millions of years.  Studies of lemurs, rabbits, rodents & other animals have shown traces of these viruses in the  animals' systems.  Even though present, the viral agent isn't affecting them negatively.  At some point, these animals adapted to the presence of the virus. Now we study a similar virus in monkeys, SIV.  All of this may lead to a better understanding of this viral family & how to come to terms with HIV.  Will we overcome it?  Or, will we adapt to it, to the point it's no longer harmful?

Interesting read, give it a go.  take care.

Cya...

Getting To Me...

 

I can handle a lot of different weather.  I just need it to transition in a reasonable manner.  That's not what happens here.  Less than a week ago we had overnights that dipped into the low 50s.  Now we're getting close to the century mark.   That's a 50 degree jump.  We're dropping back into the upper 60s.   The cooler nights let a person sleep, but the pendulum effect gets old quick.  Between that & allergies, I didn't have a great time yesterday.  I did me in a bit.  Hopefully, I'll do better today.  

That's for now, take care.

Cya...

Hot Weedy Week...

 

I'm not sure what kind of mood Ill be in this week.  There've been precious few articles in some time.  What few showed, were lacking.  Add to that, this week is supposed to be hot.  We've had no relief from ragweed, burning or other airborne gunk.  There's bound to be more of all that & mowing.  This is not going to be a good week for breathing.

That's the mini rant.  I need to get a shower & go shopping.  Other than basic stuff, there shouldn't be much happening this  week.  That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

3rd Sunday & Hotter...

 

I'm sounding like a broken record;  it's hotter, damn ragweed, no articles, nothing happening, in September.  But, that's about all there is right now.   The seasonal transition decided for a bake off  instead of a chill down.  The ragweed is at stupidly high levels.  There are no articles  & nothings happening on this 3rd Sunday in September.

That's about all for now, so take care.

Cya...

Warm Round...

 

September has ordered another heat wave to close out Summer.  The warmer temps should last just past the Equinox.  It wouldn't be so bad if allergies weren't being such a beast.  Between those, the dryness & people burning yard stuff, it's been a difficult couple of weeks for for breathing & seeing anything.  There's just too much gunk.

That's about it for now.  Other than shopping & getting back into British Bake Off, we didn't do a lot yesterday & won't this weekend if we don't have to.

Take care.

Cya...

Mid September...

 

We're midway through the month.  Bills are paid & we have nothing much planned for a bit.  Other than shopping & starting the new season of Bake Off, I think we're completely off any schedule for a bit.  Yay!

I needed yesterday off & I needed it to do better than it did.  It wasn't the day's fault.  That goes to  damnable ragweed & people burning stuff in their yards.  My eyes were shot yesterday.  I kept using eye drops to deal with the redness & irritants.  It helped some.  Allergy pills did little to help my breathing or sinuses.  Choose people; you can have ragweed, yard mowing or burning, but not all 3.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Not A Thing...

 

After what feels like a month of starting & stopping for bills, shopping, errands & appointments, we have nothing to do today.  I have every intention of keeping it that way.  I'm spent & would like to not think about going anywhere or doing anything for a day.  I don't want to have to get myself ready for any more appointments for a bit.

Speaking of which, my dental cleaning went fine.  I have another new tech.  She's another Cindy & she's been there for some time.  Until yesterday, she'd not worked with me.  So far, so good.   Hopefully this will be the last change for a while.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

Early Appointment...

 

I have an early appointment this morning.  Not as early as some, but those are local & don't require driving to Fort Smith.  I hate early appointments.  I hope  everything goes  well.   Most likely, neither of us will be in the best of moods.  Oh well, maybe I can get back on track next time.  This round of appointments was a crapfest.

Take care.

Cya...

Rough Yesterday...

 

Between allergies, temp changes, shopping & who knows what else, I didn't fare well yesterday.  My breathing was off, I was  tired & my back was sore.  It got worse through the day,  I took something for my back & it got some better, but I was still tired.  

I slept better last night.  It was still cooler, but I was expecting it.  I woke with a little coughing from all the allergies & dust from mowing.   At least that's handled for a while.  

Tomorrow is my dental cleaning.  Unless of course they cancel again.  Right now, it wouldn't surprise me.  I'll be glad when appointments are behind me for a bit.

That's all, take care.

Cya...

Chilly Night...

 

Last night got brisk.  My sleep was in a bad combo of  Summer & Fall mode.  I started with my fans on low, I turned 1 off before I fell asleep.  I woke up later nearly & turned off the other fan.  I eventually pulled the Summer blanket over my legs.  

Between the neighbors mowing their pasture (knee-high grass yard) with who knows what growing in it & the temp switch, my sinuses died yesterday.  I woke  stuffed up & itchy eyed.  I'd had a little bit of a  nosebleed from the irritation.   I hate allergies & early Fall brings my worst enemy, ragweed.

Articles are still on pause & we'll be heading for  shopping soon, so this is it.  Take care.

Cya...

Cool Morning...

 

We've had a couple of cooler late nights, but this is  our 1st cool morning.   These temps won't last, next week is supposed to get warm again.  But Fall is upon us, just 11 days until the Equinox.  For the North it's the beginning of Autumn or Mabon.  For the South, it's the beginning of Spring.   That means the dark of the year is nearly here.  Not liking that, this year's already been a piss.

That's all for now, take  care.

Cya...

Distractions...

 

There are a lots of things stalling good articles at the moment.   That's understandable, with schools revving up, the Queen's passing, Texas striking down part of ACA, etc...  Texas' suit against the ACA & PrEP wasn't  a surprise.  Neither was the conservative judge's ruling for them.  Still, the fallout could be drastic.   Most of the other diversions of the moment have little to do with HIV, so I"ll let  other people discuss those.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Full Start...

 

The beginning of September rushed us.  There was something to do or deal with almost every day.  After shopping this morning, we get a reprieve.  I have a dental cleaning next Wednesday & that should be it for appointments for a bit.  I'm over medical pros for the moment.

That's about all for now, take care.

Cya...

Post Telemedicine...

 

My telemedicine appointment went as expected.  We just went over labs, which were good.  I'm currently on Triumeq.  A drug in it has been related to coronary issues in some  patients.  They talked to me about switching to Dovato.   It's basically the same med minus the problematic medication.  I'll consider it.  

Starting my next appointment, I should have a permanent attending, instead of people on rotation.  It's taken them a bit to replace the last attending in this position.  When he arrives, I'll discuss the change with him.  There are reports of increased inflammation with some streamlined HIV meds.  I need to know my options & their issues better before I make a choice.  I also need to make sure my pharmacy can get the medication.

That's all for  now, take  care.

Cya..

Tele Appointment...

 

I had a hard time getting to sleep last night & then something kept waking me.  This is going to be a short post.   I overslept & I need to get a shower.  Then I have to eat & brush my teeth again.  I need to get  this all done before I head out for a telemedicine appointment in a few hours. 

At least bills got mostly handled yesterday.  That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

OK Bills...

 

Now that the holiday has burnt a day, we can get on with bill stuff.  Monday holidays always use up at least  a day & maybe more if mail is involved.  I really hate it when Sunday holidays are observed on Monday.  That's sort of double dipping.  

We'll handle our morning stuff & then go out.  Thanks to the delayal of the weekend & the holiday, things will run later today.  This is basically a Monday.

That's the plan for today.  Tomorrow I have a telemedicine appointment.   Then next week a dental cleaning.   After that, I should be caught up with all the appointments that should've been in August.

Take care.

Cya...

Holiday BIll Delayal...

 

We should've went out pad bills today, but it's  Labor Day & nothing bills wise is open.  That'll get postponed until tomorrow.  I hate Monday holidays, they throw things off for the rest of the week.  Now, the rest of our week is going to be a bit more crunched.   It'll add to tomorrow & I have an appointment on Wednesday.

I'm getting to the point where most things are just annoying me.  I'm not seeing things get better.  They just keep breaking down & for my part, I'm tired of trying to mend them.  I had little to nothing most of what's screwing up around me, yet I'm getting caught in its wake. I'm really tired of me having to do things to compensate for others' issues. 

I guess the only good thing I've had this week was a  band I like putout a new song.  A least it's a diversion for a while.  The Struts - Falling For me.

That's it for now, take care.

Cya...

Nothing On Sunday...

 

The 1st Sunday of the month is here & there's not  much happening.  Most of the bills stuff will start tomorrow.  So far, it's a nice morning, I'm sure others will find this afternoon too hot.  I've been mostly fine for a while.  Articles have been annoying lately.  When they're not absent, repeats or rehash, they're not really related.   Yes, they concern HIV issues, but not generally applied or dealing with matters related to  me or my area.  Not saying they're useless, but not very worthwhile for my purposes.

That's all for now, take care.

Cya...

1st September Saturday...

 

It's the beginning of the month & that means bills need to be handled.  We'll probably head out in a bit to get started on that.  We could wait until Monday, but that's always an iffy option.  There's not much else going on here & I didn't spot any notable articles.  This is it for now, take care.

Cya..

Non-Technical Issues...

 

My birthday started off alright.  Then the weather decided to add it's opinions on the matter.  Early in the afternoon, a pissy little rain turned a nice 70 some odd degree day into a sweat pit.  It wasn't pleasant.   Storms abruptly showed up later & cast a pall over the matter.  It didn't help that the storm showed up  on another Thursday.  Thursdays have been rough on this Summer.  Almost every power issue we had was on that day & due to weather.  Luckily the power stayed with us.   Still it was stressful.  My birthday is never easy, so I'm glad the days over.

That's all for, take care.

Cya...

Happy B-Day To Me...

 

Hello September, goodbye August & 55.   There wasn't much for articles this morning.  Here's hoping this is a good month, or at least not a pain in the ass.  

I'm another year older.  55 wasn't fun & it had nothing to do with my age.  My 50s have been during a great suckfest. May those that caused it die horribly ASAP.  

There are some limited plans for today.  I'm not  sure how any of this is going to play out.  Oh well, here we are.

Cya...